Fear Of 'What If It's Not OCD?'

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[jessicatorrez]

Omg, when you said “you know if you read something a little bit off, it will trigger you” I relate so much I was reading something yesterday about religious ocd and it wasn’t how I experience religious ocd and I immediately believed that my worries are real

[Dandelion]

How do I deal with recovering when it feels so real. It’s come to the point where I’m so confused and exhausted and don’t know truths from lies

[souikichakib]

We are very lucky to have you thank you so much for everything

👏 Excellent Ali...this one goes into the "must watch and keep watching" playlist...
Every OCD sufferer can really relate to this video...
And the bit about most Dr's not understanding the different types of ocd...very very true!

Pure OCD for example has been misdiagnosed horrendously and/or therefore mistreated with inappropriate drugs for decades if not longer...thank god for real 'experts' like yourself (THE best) now on these platforms...people nowadays are fortunate in this aspect.
Seems to me the message for OCD recovery is-
" Feel the fear...keep feeling it ...time after time...DO NOT SEEK RELIEF AS MUCH AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE ..until thr brain HABITUATES to the anxiety".

In other words ...become a MASTER of ERP.

[amazingprussia]

Ah, but I feel like a special case because I used to have really bad harm OCD then one day it was like my psyche snapped and now I don't really know why my thoughts are wrong anymore so I constantly try to get my morals back by rumminating on it. It's like my fear of going insane actually became true.

[nuggets]

I'm not officially diagnosed with OCD. But I'm to finally see a specialist in a few weeks. I'm racked with anxiety fear and worry and guilt and shame over something I now view as a compulsion I created in which I've so far successfully stopped since coming to the conclusion it is a compulsion. I'm not new to compulsions or anxiety fears and worries. I'm not new to intrusive thoughts. Though until I recently learned you can have intrusive thoughts about anything I only ever thought my intrusive thoughts about harm and violence were the only ones I knew I dealt with. Since finding out about OCD I now notice I have intrusive thoughts about so many things. I'm almost 100% certain most things I deal with are OCD except one. Which I know i have to bring up but because I can't find videos or articles that 100% correlate to this issue I'm very scared it's not OCD and it's something else that will confirm one of my worst fears I've always had. With out too much detail it has to do with the fact I'm hyper sexual and my brain has a real crappy ability to have where I can sexualize almost anything. And I've had a lot of really taboo sexual related thoughts in my life and unfortunately at some point turned to masturbation as a way to get rid of the thoughts and feelings. And I've never had an answer to why I have these thoughts and feelings. I always just assumed I must be a terrible monster. And I've always questioned if I enjoyed these thoughts or not. I could never tell. All I knew is I have them and can't control when they happen. And I can't control the groinal responses to them. And I could never control the fact that almost every time I had sexual thoughts and physical reactions to them I needed to go masturbate. Until I realized recently all masturbation has ever been for me is a tool to get rid of my sexual thoughts or feelings that fact really never occurred to me. I was just a slave to it all. And until I realized that's always been a compulsion and read about intrusive thoughts and OCD I feel like most of the sexual thoughts I ever had have been uninvited ones. All I know is when sexual thoughts happened, no matter what it was about my brain said I have to go masturbate and I wouldn't question it. It's just what I had to do. I've found some subsets about this where part of me wants to believe this too has been OCD. And I really really hope it is. My only fear that it's not is because until recently my sexual thoughts never caused me anxiety like most of my other intrusive thoughts. But they had everything else from knowing they were wrong questioning why I had them disgust and guilt and shame and the vast majority of them about things I'm not actually attracted to but would make me question if because I was having these thoughts that maybe I was. And my compulsive masturbatory behaviors only compounded that issue for me. But another part that scares me it's not OCD is I never recognized I didn't want these thoughts. And I only believe that's the case because I never knew truly why I had these thoughts and just assumed it was because deep down I must be some sicko and the fact that these thoughts happened so much and I knew I couldn't control them. And I at some point just accepted my assumption and the fact that outside of masturbation there was no way to get rid of these thoughts. I truly believe because of my lack of knowledge and my own conclusions is the only reason I never got the feelings of anxiety and fear or even knew these were unwanted. Only until I quit the compulsion and learned about intrusive thoughts more did I begin to get the panic and anxiety that should have been there the whole time and I 100% know I don't want these thoughts and that they just show up completely uninvited. But I'm terrified this isn't OCD simply because those feelings didn't previously exist with these. It's almost like they've worked in reverse order from most of my other intrusive thoughts. And I'm terrified that this disqualifies it from being OCD and that I really am some terrible monster all because my experience seems different from the norm. I just don't know what to think any more. It's all very confusing. And I'm really scared. But I'm still holding onto hope it's OCD. I can't seem to stop excessively researching about this though but all it does is make me more scared and worried and brings me more doubts and uncertainty and fear. All I want is an answer. I just desperately need to know for sure. And I feel like if this isn't OCD I may as well just kill myself.

[mitchelllevesque]

Hey Ali, I love your videos and how much they help. I was wondering if you could do a video on the way ocd can sometimes use real events from your past to convince you that you’re a bad person. Thanks so much, keep up the good videos

[thenoseyskeptic]

I wish I saw this video before I got into researching my theme. It's gotten me so much worse than when I initially started. I screwed up big time and now I'm dealing with the consequences 😒

[nataliiad]

I understand that previous thoughts that I had before were totally OCD because I checked the false memory situations and figured they were not true. But right now I am getting new situations and they feel so real and I start to doubt whether something really happened or not just after a couple of minutes already. And I start to think what if it's not OCD this time? What if I am going crazy? Anyone can relate? I am so exhausted

[nelmondodisassy]

I don't use so often "what if" but more of "maybe" it is the same? Like maybe its not ocd

[jackcolson]

Thinking about whether you have ocd and doing research on if your specific symptoms and practices classify as ocd and not stopping until you have the correct answer is add/adhd

[FiftyCent]

Please dont stop making videos! You are very helpful

[c.k.]

Thanks Ali this is a well needed video, THANK YOU xxx

[Orphenia_]

Does this also apply to Harm OCD? I find myself trying to constantly disprove the thoughts I have and reflecting on thoughts and feelings to see if I enjoyed it or something.

[babitajain]

Hii, Ali can u please make a video on :- OCD and restlessness of mind or restlessness in please.🙂

[michaelpitt]

I was thinking I was going to go see a doctor about this but hearing how they likely havent heard of most OCD forms it seems it would be a waste of time:(

[serena]

What if you're losing anxiety? I start having less anxiety when having ocd thoughts

[sprout]

Hi Ali, thanks for your brilliant videos. I have a question about HIV OCD. I have an OCD fear that I caught HIV from a low-risk encounter 7 years ago when I was a teen. I've taken two HIV tests since then, they were the 99.7% accurate BioSURE HIV tests and the owners of the company confirmed my results were NEGATIVE, but I find it so hard to believe the tests. I think "what if the tests were wrong?" etc. I've been doing a little better with accepting the results but I'd like to know what you think/advise? Thanks so much :)

[rtting_crpseee]

Can someone help me i worry about this situation and it causes and creates stress and it affects my inner mood and day and i jus worry and dont know what to do

[reza-edil]

Hi Ali thanks
What's wrong with researching online about mental health, signs etc?