How glowing up ruined my life

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This 6 year documentary is the ending to my youtube series the Glow up Diaries.
I was pretty emotionally unaware for all the epiodes of the glow up diaries. I’m so happy I can come back and tell you my full story with clarity and awareness now.
Closing this chapter of my life. Goodbye Glow up Diaries. Grateful for the growth. Grateful for all your support.♥

0:00 how glowing up ruined my life
14:16 the problem
16:19 the solution
21:35 the results
25:19 special announcement♥

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[aliviadandrea]

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• GOODBYE GLOW UP DIARIES. THIS MARKS THE END OF AN ERA. I HAVE HEALED AND IM CLOSING THIS CHAPTER OF MY LIFE.
❤Grateful for the growth and support!❤
*SIDE NOTE: just to be clear - being a social media creator was NOT the main reason for my issues.

[danielagiraldo]

''Only my skinny self deserves to have pretty clothes'' that hit me so hard

[marshaesmith]

I've never wanted to hug a stranger more in my entire life...

[leenbee]

I hate how much our messed-up culture hurt this young woman so deeply. I'm so glad she has learned to love herself. 😢 What a strong woman.

[namaihelbirem]

It's so concerning how some people feel so comfortable about putting others down like that. I really hope those people who left those comments are thinking long and hard about what they said and how they made a complete stranger feel. Anyways, so good to see you are now realising your worth. Left me smiling by the end of the video!

[MYuee]

"Your happiness does not have to make sense to other people."
This is such a good quote. I love it.

[GreenAndTheToe]

This is the true “glow up”. Loving yourself.

[maynigoncalves]

I cried like a baby watching this.... Because... Nothing has ever touched me so deeply. I saw myself reflected in you.. in your pains... The same mentality... I always hated my body, my smile, my clothes... I always sought approval.. I developed depression and anxiety over the years.. I'm not going to tell the story of my life, but... I always thought I needed to look perfect to be happy... I just broke ties with a narcissistic mother and felt like I didn't want to live... You made me see something I ignored... Hey... Maybe you saved a life today... Thank you, truly... Kisses from Brazil 💖

[tarunibhatia]

The real glow up was never actually giving up and overcoming everything slowly. A big hug to you, this really was heart touching and inspiring.

[chloepullen]

It’s so hard to watch such a beautiful girl cry because she doesn’t feel beautiful

[sunshinespike]

the moment you said "ok try to say something nice to yourself" with you being suddenly silent was so heartbreaking. It makes me cry a lot

[shaymundane]

I’m an autistic overweight woman who has hated myself for so long. Thank you for telling us we can change within love instead of hate. This is the first time I’ve felt like I had a friend in years.

[hildebilde]

Hi wonderful girl. I'm a 60 year old lady who just stumbled on this and this is the first time I have ever commented on a video. Firstly my love, I would love to be the cute, young girl that you are with a wonderous life ahead of you. I wish I could give you all the life lessons to help you reach even higher than you have without social media. Despite what many young people believe, there is a life outside of this toxic, narcissistic platform. You have created this content and built up a tremendous following. Who are those losers who "comment' on others becuase they lack the creativity to create thier own content. Those are the biggest vipers to find. Just like the bully office mate who takes credit for your work. Demons. You are wonderful. So worthy. Ditch anyone who is not positive in your life. It may be a little lonely for a while but in the end you will be happy. People are hateful and unkind. Always remember, "THE PEOPLE WHO TRY TO DRAG YOU DOWN ARE UNDER YOU . LIKE A DROWNING MAN IN THE OCEAN CLINGING ON FOR DEAR LIFE. A LIFE AND SELF WORTH THEY DO NOT HAVE!! Say it out loud and then smile and know that you are glorious.

[jellybeanchloe]

it’s the fact that you really did document your entire “glow up” journey and didn’t even realize it. you documented girlhood, and how it feels to come to terms with who you are and how you deserve to be treated. this was so empowering. alivia, we were girls together. and now? we are women. ❤

[louisezhao]

Love that your “physical glow up” wasn’t the end of it. Your true glow up came from learning to love and accept yourself and fulfill your self worth from the inside. Not any superficial goals that came from insecurity. This was the perfect ending to a raw and heartfelt journey.

[rhea.ok.]

I’ve never seen your videos before but this is so hard hitting. Watching you struggle, I sat here and wondered when you would realize it was a mental health and self love issue and not a physical one. True beauty comes from within, always. You have always-always alwaysss- been so beautiful… And now you’re absolutely GLOWING. A person’s self love, self acceptance, self worth- it’s visible to others. You didn’t need to lose weight or this that and the third… You just needed that sparkle back in your eyes. And you did it! I am so beyond proud of you. Virtual hugs. Congrats on the growth as a person and gaining self love-the true glow up we all need.

[Latoija]

“Wtf happen to the pain of who I used to be” THAT PART❤❤❤❤

[plutonis]

I think this is the first time I've ever seen someone on YouTube actually share that rawness and that reality of self-loathing. The bit where you were struggling to think of something nice to say about yourself hit hard. I'm so glad you've found a place of self-acceptance and I hope that you keep it forever. <3

[ucvpdxk]

Girl this was a beautiful, raw, honest deep dive into depression, eating disorders and wanting people to accept you. I can’t overstate how validated I feel watching this. Thank you

[LanaCJames]

"Your happiness does not have to make sense to other people."

Honestly thank you for this video. Can't tell how important it was for me, to hear all that from you. And even tho I wish your younger self never needed to go through all this, I also wish I could tell her, that she will do something very important in the future. That she will help other people who are going through the same thing. Help them to understand, that they shouldn't treat or think of themselves that way and that they deserve to change the way the see themself. Now. That their current self is worthy of love.