This is Why I Left Islam

This video covers it all: my early Islamic upbringing as a Palestinian Sunni Muslim living in Dubai, the guilt and shame I experienced as a Muslim including my never-nude phase (yep...you read that right), the existential crisis and depression that sparked my doubts about Islam, and finally, my journey away from Islam towards becoming a humanist atheist and Ex-Muslim YouTuber living in Canada today.

I originally did a live stream sharing my story three years ago, but the stream had a lot of technical issues so I'd been meaning to do this improved and extended version for a very long time. And I figured, since this December is Ex-Muslim Awareness Month, now was the perfect occasion.

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LINKS:

Muslim Apologist Tries (And Fails) to Defend Muhammad's Marriage to Aisha:

The Banu Qurayza Incident: Why Did Muhammad Allow the Massacre and Enslavement of a Jewish Tribe?

Top Six Things Muslims Get Wrong About Ex-Muslims:

Haram Doodles interview @CultstoConsciousness:

The Message movie:

Leaving Islam on X/Twitter:

Leaving Islam on Instagram:

TIMESTAMPS:

0:00-2:30 Intro
2:30-22:02 How I first learned Islam
22:02-23:30 My never-nude phase
23:30-29:00 Learning how to pray
29:00-38:31 Islamic education intensifies
38:31-47:09 Learning about the Day of Judgment
47:09-51:40 Positive things about Islam
51:40-1:00:35 Guilt and judgment around sex
1:00:35-1:14:19 My existential crisis
1:14:19-1:24:13 Doubts about Islam
1:24:13-1:26:01 Exploring atheism
1:26:01-1:46:16 Investigating Islam
1:46:16-1:50:44 Accepting life without God
1:50:44-2:00:48 Seeing the harms of Islam/religion
2:00:48-2:03:14 Dating and sex after Islam
2:03:14-2:09:13 Anger at my parents
2:09:13-2:20:32 My “angry ex-Muslim” phase
2:20:32-2:27:11 Criticizing Islam as Secular Spirit
2:27:11-2:29:02 My personal life as an atheist
2:29:02-2:33:47 My dating life as an atheist
2:33:47-2:41:40 My politics as a secular humanist
2:41:40-2:43:48 Normalizing leaving Islam
2:43:58-2:45:11 Outro

SOCIAL MEDIA:

[gamingchamp]

I left back in 2021. Never looked back.

[damian.r.]

I'm an ex-muslim from Canada 🇨🇦! I don't believe in anything and life itself is exciting enough to keep me intelligent!

[MohammadArabi]

I am also an Exmuslim from Pakistan . Welcome to the world of humanity.

[JustKevin]

Same here brother, left and never looked back.

[channa.sparkle]

Supporters from France, I am also a former Muslim, and I want to congratulate you. Congratulations on leaving this sect, welcome to your new life.
Bravo for your courage in speaking out. Thank you on behalf of those who cannot do it. Thank you for your testimony. 👏❤

[Tabukaexploring]

Ex Muslim from Bangladesh
When I started embracing humanity, gradually left Islam

[Kripesh-]

Came From Ex-Muslim Sahil Channel... Keep Growing Brother ❤️🙏

[chip]

When i first left islam it was very difficult. Now the years have gone by I feel great. It does get better

[kardew]

who recites quran is muslim
who understands quran leaves islam.

[freethinker]

Greeting from an ex muslim from Afghanistan ❤

[formalminds]

Thank you for publically talking about this!

[blueblubber]

Although I was raised in a (very) Christian family which made me suffer quite a bit when I decided to leave it, I realize that it is still substantially harder for Muslims to do the same thing.
As a scientist I got interested in the "scientific miracles in the Quran" and I was shocked to see the cheapness of these alleged miracles. As I started to delve into the origin of this narrative it got more and more clear to me that these stories can be traced back to the Saudi Arabian royals and a certain "Abdul Majeed al-Zindani" who sponsored people like Bucaille and Mr. Keith Moore.
A masterpiece of mass delusion and manipulation.

[sk-pdzw]

my problem with Islam is i cannot figure out why Allah was interested, or even obsessed in the sex life of prophet Muhammad and would a god who created trillion of galaxies would do such a thing????!!

[sookaismm]

i also came from an immigrant parents’ household, , and i really understand the whole islamic lessons in class thing. ever since i was a child, i was very curious and creative, always asking lots of questions and letting my mind wander. i read lots of fictional books, dreamed a lot, and still dream very vividly. i remember all the stories about the end of the world really scared me. they terrified me. looking back, i realize it was a kind of trauma—religious trauma—and it took me years to understand that.

the most vivid example for me was when i had this dream at 11 or 12 about the end of the world. everything my teachers and parents told me, the scary things, was there, but the dream felt different because it stretched on for what felt like years. in it, we went back to a primitive world. my family and i had to face the antichrist. at one point, i was pulled in front of everyone, my sins were exposed, and i was sent to hell while my family went to heaven. i was the only one who went to hell. i woke up feeling so scared, like it was a revelation, and it haunted me. i believed something was deeply wrong with me, especially because i couldn’t stop questioning things.

even at school during prayer lessons, when i moved to a strict islamic school, i couldn’t shut off this inner voice questioning everything. while everyone else prayed, i felt like we were all pretending, but only i could see it. as a teenager, this became even harder when facing things like the hijab and being forced into it, which ultimately woke me up and made me leave. people really overlook how religious indoctrination can be traumatic for children. the fear of hell and the extreme, horrid images fed to me as a 5-year-old really messed me up.

[mirotiny]

thank you for this video i relate to some things but my upbringing was very strict, im autistic and have severe religious trauma. so yeah i'm also a humanist atheist and Ex-Muslim. i'm 26 and i left islam almost 3 years ago.. i never felt happier and truly freer, it was one of the hardest things i have ever done but the most rewarding. i'm from kuwait!

[deboshreebiswas]

I was a revert from Hinduism for 9 years, just left after an awakening where I started questioning Muhammad’s credibility. I left it a year ago, took me almost a year to rewire my brain to liberate myself. I looked into Buddhism, hinduism and other religions, now i choose myself and no religion. My husband is muslim, i hope and manifest that someday he gets the courage to see through the veil of islam.😊 I am going to save all the evidence for my daughter to not to be a part of this cult.

[KayMartin-uv]

I love hearing these stories. We learn so much! Wish you all the best...

[Linde]

You are doing a good job, thanks for it. You are an inspiration for many ❤

[Shfiqbvi]

I left islam from 4 years ago and never looked back. From Iran

[yarnybart]

I dont speak Arabic, and the most challenging thing about reading the koran is how repetitive and tedious it is.