Are You Losing Yourself in a Toxic Relationship?

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Tune in to hear the perspective of a self aware narcissist. That’s me - Ben Taylor a narcissist in recovery trying to promote awareness, healing, growth and change. I do that by these videos on here, TikTok, Instagram and Facebook.

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[TheBlownGSR]

I was perfectly healthy at the beginning, I spent a month in the hospital with organ failure at the end of two years. She would come “visit” me in the hospital, and then after I was passed out on pain meds, she would steal from me. That relationship, almost killed me, literally.

[MajorieRoyal]

I had huge sleep issue with him, my cptsd of childhood was crazy and I was telling him I was scared of anger and all the talks and talks and I would dream that we were fighting all the time and he made it about him. He didn't change or care to change the anger even though I said I was scared and he said that it was my fault I wasn't sleeping and it was affecting him. He wanted me to take pills for sleeping and mental problem instead of hearing and seeing I was scared shitless of him. No awareness or no care... felt like living in a parallel universe. You're just like, I feel that all this is obvious. But, hey he kept saying I care for you, I love you.. let's go see a psychiatrist a doctor, see how I care... but yah it was for him to feel less bad and be less disturb, because he didn't care to offer me what I said I needed.. he I wasn's allowed to break up to work on myself, but I also wasn't allowed to be me, the way I was because I would make him have a trauma! He used my pain in his favor.. when I think about it I'm like how is this even possible... ;/

[Floridafanatic]

Teeth grinding. The stress of this relationship is so horrible that I clench my teeth when I'm awake and grind them when I"m asleep. As a result quite a few of my back teeth are cracked, broken or missing. I have a mild headache at least 50% of the time each and every day. I used to be very pretty, now I just look old and ugly.

[MajorieRoyal]

Thanks for being so empathic and supportive

[lailaa]

Triggering video as I related to all of it.. haven’t been diagnosed with an auto immune disease and I hope that doesn’t happen.. but diagnosed with the rest and experienced the rest and worse.. the chronic gaslighting messes up the thought processes..I screenshotted the chart you made.. it was very helpful .. thank you.