How I live my best life even when I'm insecure | Wholesome Days

Some healing days in my self care flow! Spending time in nature, doing online tasks, and treating my body gooood. Resting in what is true for me while acting out of love hehe.

- MY SOCIAL MEDIA -
TIK TOK: yaknowme_hitomi222
Spotify: thejauntforckandhm

- TIMESTAMPS -
0:00-0:43 hii welcome back
0:43-3:09 the best day with horses and homies
3:09-4:55 moving through a rut
4:55-6:08 knowing when to stop isolating
6:08-8:14 how to be TRULY unbothered
8:14-9:23 ecstatic dance
9:23-10:44 being intentionally busy is good for me
10:44-11:30 grocery haul
11:30-14:00 why I'm no longer vegan even tho I want to be
14:00-15:07 evening routine
15:07-16:32 heart filling moments

[HitomiMochizuki]

P.S. Bump up the quality to 1080p hd my friends!! I used some iPhone clips in here and they look way better at 1080... Okay luv u!! Sending a heart hug <3

ALSO I am open to trying a fully plant based diet again in the future. The main reason I feel the need to re-incorporate animal products is not just due to my deficiencies but because of my gut health issues, namely leaky gut and SIBO. I have been 1000% back on my supplementing game with iron, B12, D, and everything else I found out I was deficient in. I have no doubt in a few weeks I will start feeling better due to that alone. As I said in the video, I likely wasn't being as regimented with my vitamins as I thought since my life has been a bit unstable. I'm making this choice because I want to return to a neutral place as quickly as possible and want to follow my doctors recommendations. Following a low FODMAP and candida diet at the same time has been immensely restrictive and incorporating animal products makes it possible to heal my gut without sliding into ED territory.

I have felt more depressed the last two months than I have in Years and my life ending thoughts came back full force which was a major red flag to me that things needed to change. It has been so scary feeling myself not wanting to live and ideating these scenarios night after night. I genuinely loved being vegan and have felt so good doing it for years, but things are different for me right now. I was never vegan for the aesthetic or public opinion of it. Diet is actually an extremely personal and intimate thing which I have begun sharing less over the last year because of how triggered it made certain groups of people or made me feel like my diet was under a microscope, if you've watched my food videos for a while you'd know I really transitioned to being more general and simply sharing recipes I enjoy, without calming a right and wrong way to eat. All of this to say, I know a lot of my audience connected to me through veganism and if its not alignment to view my content because of my lifestyle choices than I completely understand, I hope you continue doing what feels right to your heart and soul! I'm sorry that this disappoints you and I am sending you so much love.

Just wanted to put it out there that I have honestly tried to remain plant based and I'm not 'quitting' or 'being lazy' but rather acting out of the urgency to balance my mental health. Being at this point really makes me wish I never shared my diet preferences to begin with but I understand any backlash I get. I feel like things are much more nuanced than we allow ourselves to understand, especially online. When I was vegan I never understood why people chose not to be. I truly see every side of the conversation and can understand everyone's perspective. At the end of the day my diet choices should never affect yours, and I'm simply sharing for the sake of transparency <3

Thank you to anyone who has left an encouraging or understanding message about this. Believe me I have been demonizing myself in my head. I can see that so many other past vegans have gone through similar issues and it's just really interesting!!

[cozyclubproject]

This video was, to me, so worth putting on the internet Hitomi. A beautiful reminder of the fact that we ALL go through external and internal shifts and changes, our health is something to prioritize, crying daily happens and acting from loves makes it all worthwhile. With personally just having moved, coming out of burn out still struggling with fatigue/gut health, financial instability and a breakup fresh on my heart - this was comforting in every way. Sending you so much love and light and may our tummies stop being weird abt it

[manuelrivera]

What has always drawn me to hitomi and her videos have never been the aesthetic or lifestyle (although it is very appealing) but rather her honesty and vulnerability. And although she doesn’t always feel great…it is very inspiring because it allows me to be my whole self unapologetically and love myself throught it all. If you ever read this, Hitomi. Thank you for always being a safe space and a reflection of radical acceptance. Love you, dear angel.

[oh_itsjenna]

the gut-brain connection is so real, i don’t blame you for being so willing to make such a “big”change to your diet in this way!!! anyone who doesn’t understand has never had to face such hardships (thankfully!). you’re doing it all right. ❤

[andasdiary]

I just wanted to affirm that nothing is binary, including veganism. It's all about the values, and if you're body is crumbling and you haven't found yet a way to keep sustaining yourself on a plant based diet, using animal products as a rescue is totally valid! I can imagine how crushing it must feel for needing to compromise your values :( I hope it's temporarily and that there is a way to come back thriving on a plant based diet. I'm sending you so much love on your journey back to both physical and mental health, you can do this!! <33

[elisanapoletano]

the wholehearted feeling of safety these videos bring me leave me speechless. grateful for being able to feel so x lots of love Hitomi

[brittanymoudelle]

Thank you for being honest and transparent about your health and your incorporation of animal products. I don't think it's healthy to shame ourselves to bad health. Our bodies have their own nature and require what they require🤷🏻‍♀️💕

[CeCoinMeSourit]

16:10 just seeing you lying on the ground and breathing in the scenery around you brought me back to awareness. thank you as always i love your videos so so much

[sanchipathak]

dear hitomi,

i've just been making my vision board from pinterest and so many of the photos are of you. even in your current death cycle, you are an inspiration and source of light and love.

i send you all my healing love and wish you an easeful recovery.

thank you for being just as you are. 💗

[vbrattyc]

The accomplishment of having a good social time is so real 💜

[lilghstttt]

i’ve watched your videos since I was in high school, I’ve struggled with depression a lot but your videos always ground me so much, and make me want to put in more effort to be a better version of myself. they are like an anti depressant for me, reminding me that despite my circumstances i can choose to put in effort and self love and that means everything. thank you for everything you do 🤍

[maya.matrix]

thank you for sharing your truth with us!! it’s so inspiring to see a creator be honest and vulnerable about their journey, keep doing what you’re doing Hitomi <3

[bhoomikar]

I never fail to watch your videos, because in each and every one of them you make sure to remind us to always return to love, to always act from a place of love and there’s nothing more empowering than that, all your videos are gentle reminders of ways in which we can embody love even when it’s hard, so thank you sharing your life with us and thank you for being such a sweet soul♥️

[brigitterose]

14:25 The scenery in this scene is so beautiful and for some reason it amplified my awareness of this physical life and the beauty and rareness of it all. It reminded me how grateful I am to be here and how lucky we are to have this experience.

[estella]

I've been feeling really anxious and sleeping bad since the eclipse, feeling suffocated from all the thoughts in my head.
This is my sign to take it slow and listen to my body. Thank you Hitomi for giving me and many people this beautiful reminder of listening inwards and taking it slow. It is okay to take time for yourself and not always feel productive. Sending you love and strenght getting through this highly energetic season🌙

[silvadiane]

your videos feel like big sister talks and its my absolute favorite thing. we love you hitomi ♡♡♡

[sarahsdigitalalbum]

thank you for sharing your journey and being vulnerable and honest about your plant based and veganism journey. i was vegan for two years and it wrecked my health. incorporating animal products was hard but so necessary for my health. what helped me was changing my perspective on eating: eating like my ancestors, eating only pasture raised, organic, sustainable meat, poultry, dairy, etc. and listening to my body. i also eat cyclically, so red meats during my menstrual phase, and more whole foods (this is key!!! limiting processed or mock foods) and plants during my ovulation phase, etc. you are still my favorite person on the internet and appreciate you so much for being an open book always. you got this!! its not an easy transition but its so worth it to get your health back. xoxoxo sarah

[ny]

Disappearing from social media has helped me when I’m in a rut. After some months, come back whenever it’s right. refreshing af <3

[heycarlylerose]

I feel so seen knowing other people spend multiple days alone too! I always feel so ashamed when I do that, so thank you for normalizing it ❤

[Loveisalloneneeds]

You’ve always been authentic. My following was never based around your advocation for veganism, rather whom you are as a light being. I appreciate and admire your humble openness. I’m no longer vegan myself but I understand it was a beautiful aspect of my life and respect and recognize the positive effects it has on our minds and bodies. I challenge many to walk the path at least once in their lives as it is a beautiful journey. I will say this.. A lot of those whom have been vegan once return to veganism or later become vegetarian by default LOL 🤷‍♀️😇