My Biggest Failure in Life - The Marine Corps

#marines #story #bootcamp

My instagram - CivDivision

Thanks for watching, and thanks for your support as always.

[slothassasin]

Crazy how you've seen more combat than 99% of your peers in the Marine Corps. Happy birthday bro

[NightSentinel]

The reason why so many people leave is simply because they were loyal to the service but the service was not loyal to them.

[danmac]

People who aren't Marines have no idea how difficult it probably was to make this video. Dude, you didn't fail at all - realistically, they should have played to your strengths and not have tried to double down on your weaknesses. They could've made you an RTO, CLS guy, company office, etc. Instead, they broke your body and your spirit which goes against everything the Marine Corps stands for. Happy Birthday Devil, hope you enjoyed your weekend.

[jdmac]

The only failure that I'm hearing is a failure of your leadership to straighten shit out. You are 100% U.S. Marine, you've got the heart, you've got the mindset, you earned the title and then some. I'm really sorry to hear that shit like that still goes on. I was in in the 90's and I have a friend who just retired two years ago (he had five years in the civ div before going back in), from what I had seen and heard from him, things had changed quite a lot for the better, but of course it's a big Marine Corps and change will be at different levels in different places. I look at you as a role model, brother and I know you are that for a lot of people watching. I wish all Americans could witness what you're doing for people who aren't even American, it's a huge lesson in humanity that too many people lack.

[brian]

This one hurts to hear, I do remember those days getting to a unit as a young boot with all combat vets hazing you day in day out. That compounded with the physical stressors was, at times, unbearable. Glad to see you are doing so well today on YouTube and for yourself along your OWN journey my brother. Get some. 3/5 vet/Fellow YouTuber 🤘

[CivDiv]

Reuploaded because the audio was shit. Made this video because it’s the Marine Corps Birthday and my experience in the Marines will hopefully show how who you were yesterday doesn’t define your future. Thanks to the members for giving me courage to put out personal videos like these ❤️

[Space_Racer]

This pisses me off so much that the Corps did this to you. You did not fail, the Corps failed you.

[revolutionaryunderstanding]

You're a really tough dude man. I hate how the military gaslights people with that BS 'mind over matter'. It's useful to a point but it's overkill in many cases, your's being one of them. Thanks for your service, I'm sorry it got so dark, I'm sorry your leadership and team members didn't respect you the they could have and should have, the way you deserved. Your record speaks for itself. God bless brotha.

[elijah]

This guy is brutally honest and that is very high bar for all of us!!! I served with a few of you Marines while in the Navy.

[nonyabeeznuss]

Had an experience the exact opposite of yours, but somehow almost identical. I excelled at hiking, I did awesome at all the training, I had zero problems. Meritorious promotion, was an NCO only 2 years into my enlistment. Did two combat deployments. Medals, commendations, I was a real command favorite. My senior NCO's and officers loved me and pointed to me as an example of how a real marine infantryman should act. They were going to give me sergeant if I re-enlisted, which I was seriously considering. Thing is, I had been in a LOT of combat, got blown up by IEDs on 3 separate occasions. Had a buddy get his head blown off by a sniper, had another lose his legs to an IED. I was starting to have a lot of problems. On the exterior I was still the perfect Marine, but I was waking up at night screaming. My juniors knew to wake me up with a stick or something because if I was in arms reach when I woke up I might attempt to punch or strangle whoever woke me up. So I tried to go to sick call for our unit to talk about it, but got told it was nothing. Tried to go to the chaplain but he wasn't really interested. I wanted to get squared away before I re-enlisted and since my unit wasn't helping I went to base psych and told them what I was dealing with. Suddenly my entire world got turned upside down. The same leadership who were so hard charging for me to stay in, rank up, and eventually join them in the upper echelons turned on me. I was moved to an empty barracks across the street and left totally alone with no contact from my brothers. My unit literally abandoned me, the only human contact I had for 3 months was staff NCOs and officers who would show up to my room to trash the place and scream at me for being such a huge piece of shit. I wasn't even officially in any trouble, I had done nothing wrong, I sought help for my problems using the channels they had told me to in a hundred PTSD awareness briefings and classes. They had just decided that since I was no longer useful that I needed to be gotten rid of. Despite all the awful things I ever saw, did, or had done to me in combat, that betrayal was probably the worst thing to ever happen to me in my life. I put my entire soul into the Marine Corps and gave literally everything I had and the moment I needed them, I was thrown away like a bag of trash.

[SeaDoc]

As a retired HMC (Corpsman) who spent 12 years with the Marine Corps it hurts me to see this video because it happened a lot to other Marines. I had to have many a talk with SGT's, SSGT's, Gunnys, to CO's about how some Marines were being treated and took a lot of BS my self for intervening. I don't have any negative feelings about you and you are a Hard Charger and seemed to have built yourself up to be a better man than what you thought of yourself before. I am glad to have watched your videos for sometime now and if I were your Dad I would be proud to call you Son and Marine. Charge on Marine, Semper Gumby.

[gearheadgaming]

“Who you were yesterday doesn’t define your future” big up to you. You inspire me

[smithius]

You have turned a negative situation into a positive reality. You have contributed to the success of many units. You'll never receive an official award for these actions but I think all of us in the "have experienced combat" community applaud your work. Well done.

I noticed in several of your videos that you incorporate training during down time, or even during lulls in the mission. This is an incredible contribution that can't be emphasized enough. Well done.

There's not a lot grey haired people running missions. Resolve in your heart when you feel that you have done well, and fall back. Save some for the fight in the future if someday we find ourselves fighting for the survival of very own families. If you were my son, after all that you have been through, I would say it's time to put the weapon back in the rack, and pick up the clipboard. You have a keen knack for training. One good warrior can train thousands of fighters but a dead warrior has contributed his last.

As many can attest to, especially us grey hairs, those bumps and bruises only get worse as the years tick by.

You have done well, now go and live well.

[ethanparker]

Semper Fidelis Marine. You may not have had the physical stature to “hack it” in our gun club but my dude you’ve got the heart and soul of a warrior and more than most devils I served with. Great video brother and love the honesty. Every single one of us will fail at one point or multiple times but failure builds character and teaches and your perseverance in the face of adversity is honorable. You’ve earned the title and no one can take it from you.

[Stewsker]

Hey brother, one of those 30 first dudes in the unit with you. I check in here every once and a while, glad to see you're still doing good shit. I can attest to the absolutely fucking horrendous leadership we had at that time. Massive respect to you for all the shit you've done since you got out brother and stoked to see you keepin your head up

[davidphillips]

I learned in 2007-2008 during my deployment with the 82nd Airborne that your own chain of command can be more dangerous than the enemy. The weight carrying requirements were idiotic and super destructive on the human body. Literally nobody in WW2 or Vietnam carried 120lbs of gear. I’m 6’ 200lbs and I hated carrying my aid bag plus body armor plus additional gear, I could literally feel my vertebrae crushing. When I crossed over into Special Operations that idiocy ended real quick. We used to laugh at the regular Army guys looking like turtles struggling to walk on missions

[SScozzari]

I feel you bro, I was 5'5 120ish coming out of bootcamp and I didn't know but I also developed a stress fracture during the crucible that stayed with me through SOI and as I'm starting to do my VA shit apparently I might have fucking asthma, somehow I just thought it was hard to breathe for everyone or I just wasn't in good enough shape and I was just being a pussy so I just dealt with it the whole contract. ITB hikes were hell on Earth and while I was lucky everyone was super supportive I still felt like a piece of shit, I just felt like my body wasn't made to move like that on those hikes and I was letting everyone down, I was in a super dark place for awhile because of it.

[kegyen]

Hey brother. As much as I don’t want to admit it, I believe everything you are saying. I left in 2004 when my first contract ended. Leadership was becoming a really bad issue and I saw the writing on the wall. Unfortunately, those shit bags ended up being your leaders instead of guys like me that left. Semper Fi brother. Happy birthday.

[JurassicJolts]

I had an extremely similar experience in the Navy. Your story makes me feel less broken. Thank you for sharing.

[jamesrossmusic]

You are very brave and honorable to post this. Very few people would do what you did. I have great respect for you. Thank you for your post and thank you for your service.