JAYTEKZ - Losing Myself

JAYTEKZ - Losing Myself

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Official "Losing Myself" Lyrics:

Yeah I lost who I was
Alcohol and the drugs
It was killing my brain, it was deep in my blood
And it weakened my love
I hated myself, I hated my guts
I was stuck in the mud
I was stuck in the rain
My life was a flood
I was hiding a grudge
I was hiding the truth, I was hiding the pain
I was hiding the tears
As if I wasn't hurt but this shit was severe
Wishing I'd disappear
Wishing I wasn't here, wishing I would just die
And get buried alive
I was wondering why
Like why was I born
Why wasn't I warned?
Why wasn't I warned? No

Why wasn't I warned of the troubles ahead?
Of all the tears and blood I'd shed
I had no idea the devil was just around the corner
Waiting to capture me when I least expected it
Why wasn't I warned?
Why wasn't I warned?

Why wasn't I warned of the troubles ahead of me?
Why wasn't I told that love would become my worst enemy?
The older I get, the more that I'm left with painful memories
The colder I get, the more I resent and live regretfully
It doesn't make sense to me, no
It doesn't make sense to me
If there is a god why won't he respond? Is he protecting me?
If there is a god then why would he want to put an end to me?
If there is a god then all that I ask is that he rescues me
Will you rescue me uhh

And then I realized
That my god is within
My god is love
My god is energy
My god is all things in this world
My god doesn't live in the sky
But rather lives within my heart
And he's always been there

I was searching for a love through the drugs and the alcohol and I
Lost me through the simple thought if I
Numb the pain it would heal this heart of mine
But it only made the real me harder to find
Insecurities and hatred all combined
Is a misery that kept me lost in time
I don't even wanna' speak upon it now
Cause that imagery still haunts my mind
So I had to look deep within myself
Cause the problem was I nobody else
I was too damn proud to ask for help
Everyday I was walking on eggshells
I was scared to breakdown or make a crack
So I had to fake smiles and fake the laughs
But inside I was bound to break in half
I was hiding behind a tainted mask
Realized that I had to take it off
Otherwise I would never shake this off
Overtime all the hatred had evolved
Borderline my heart almost dissolved
But I came to my senses just in time
Every breath that we take is so divine
And it's up to ourselves to redefine
What our purpose will serve between the lines
So I took all my pain and agony
All the wounds from my past catastrophes
Took the blood from the blade that pierced my heart
And I painted a precious masterpiece
Cause I know that the darkest tragedies
Make way for the brightest days ahead
And I know that whatever saddens me
Only strengthens my weakness in the end

What doesn't kill you is only proof of your purpose
And it's up to you to find out what your purpose is
But I promise you that you have one
And I promise you that you will find it if you search deep enough
Have faith and just believe
Fornever

#JayteKz #LosingMyself #Jaytekzofficial

[iamjaytekz]

This is for everyone who feels alone and feels like they will not heal. You WILL heal and everything will eventually get better, I promise you that!!! I love you all so much and every single one of you has a purpose!!!! HAVE FAITH AND MAINTAIN HOPE!!! I BELIEVE IN ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

4NEVER 🌹

[kelseymorelock]

Great song I'm Robert God made me schizophrenic. I started drugs when I was 19 when dad died .I've died three different times from it . I had lost everything I finally quit at 35 and I lost my mind seeing n hearing. The voices was so much I would cry out to God and nothing. I spent 2 yrs in a mental hospital where I found God I prayed one night not for myself but for him I said to him I cant imagine what you go through n the voices stopped. I thank him for showing me he's there for everyone even the sinners. God finally let me find my wife that lovese n I thank you god

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LYRICS:

Jojo Sage [Verse 1: JayteKz]
Yeah, I lost who I was
Alcohol and the drugs, It was killing my brain
It was deep in my blood, and It weakened my love
I hated myself, I hated my guts
I was stuck in the mud
I was stuck in the rain
My life was a flood
I was hiding the crutch
I was hiding the truth
I was hiding the pain
I was hiding the tears
As if I wasn't hurt but this shit was severe
Wishing I'd disappear
Wishing I wasn't here
Wishing I would just die and get buried alive
I was wondering why.. like, "Why was I born?"
Why wasn't I warned?
Why wasn't I warned?

[Dialogue]
Why wasn't I warned of the troubles ahead?
Of all the tears and blood I'd shed
I had no idea the devil was just around the corner
Waiting to capture me when I least expected it
Why wasn't I warned? Why wasn't I warned?



[Verse 2: JayteKz]
Why wasn't I warned of the troubles ahead of me?
Why wasn't I told that love would become my worse enemy?
The older I get, the more I'm left with pain from memories
The colder I get, the more I resent and live regretfully
It doesn't make sense to me, no
It doesn't make sense to me
If there is a god why won't he respond?
Is he protecting me?
If there is a god why then would he want to put an end to me?
If there is a god then all that I ask is that he rescues me
Will you rescue me?

[Dialogue]
Then I realized that my god is within
My god is love
My god is energy
My god is all things in this world
My god does not live in the sky, but rather lives within my heart
And he's always been there

[Verse 3: JayteKz]
I was searching for a love through the drugs and the alcohol
And I lost me through the simple thought if I numb the pain it would heal this heart of mine
But It only made the real me hard to find
Insecurities and hatred all combined is a misery that kept me lost in time
I don't even want to speak upon it now, cause the imagery still haunts my mind
So I had to look deep within myself, cause the problem is I nobody else
I was too damn proud to ask for help
Everyday I was walking on eggshells
I was scared to breakdown and make a crack
So I had to fake smiles and fake the laughs
But, inside I was bound to break in half
I was hiding behind the (?) and mask
Realized I had to take it off, otherwise I would never shake this off
Overtime all the hatred had evolved
Borderline my heart almost dissolved
But, I came to my senses just in time
Every breath that we take is so divine
And it's up to ourselves to redefine
What our purpose will serve between the lines
So I took all my pain and agony
All the wounds from my past catastrophes
To the blood from the blade that pierced my heart
And our pain that pressures masterpiece
Cause I know that the darkest tragedies make way for the brightest days ahead
And I know that whatever saddens me, only strengthens my weakness in the end



[Outro]
What doesn't kill you is only proof of your purpose
And it's up to you to find what your purpose is
But, I promise you that you have one
And I promise you that you will find it if you search deep enough
Have faith and just believe

[Lostsoul_]

This is officially one of my favorites now. How did I manage to miss this one. Been listening for years.

[illmatter]

Yo man keep healing our depression your music always been a cure to our damage hearts

[demxnofficial]

This shit more real than most friendships 🤷🏽‍♂️ mad respect for you bro. Been here since “If I Should” 💉💵

[dejajoseph]

It would be my dream if jaytekz, bmike, phora all made a song together

[MarioRodriguez-zmuu]

This is the true battle between being lost and alone, but still praying on gods side. This is the message of a true angel. Just know you are not alone god made us for a reason. We fight the demons that others cant! Do not give up like i am.

[yonderlyworld]

Right now I wasn’t in the best mind state...I was thinking about ending it, then I saw the notification and I wanted to know what words where going to fall out of your mouth, what this song was gonna be, about how horrible you feel and how you think about ending it...or if everything will get better?
Truth is, i never know with you, you’re an amazing artist and this cheered me up...thank you for another beautiful song.

[dejavujx]

This song really touched me. Going through depression is the hardest thing in life but things really do get better, everyone has a purpose and God will put you through situations to make you realize how strong you are. He will help you heal. Let yourself heal. Don't think negative everyday tell yourself positive things and there will be a outcome stop believing things people tell you and prove them wrong because you are beautiful and can do anything if you put effort into it. Anything is possible.

[ItsSadBoyy]

My heart... tears fill my eyes.. truely worth sharing with others. ❤️💯

[realjqa]

I can't say nothing but Wonderfulness💜

[tykeasiaarmstrong]

The older I get the more im left with pain from memories.😈

[somerandompheasant]

Your music is the only thing that I can connect to about wanting to die and end it your music helps me keep pushing even when my arms are broke and ripped apart you help me keep pushing onward

[niritbarad]

Your purpose is spreading the word and helping people

[coreallen]

Thank you jayteKz you have saved my life with your music it gives me strength to go on i just startee diving again was a year and half sober and going through a hard time if itbwas not for your muisc i would of put that glock to my head already this songs helps knowing am not alone in feeling aloneAnd lost. the girl i love the most pushes me away seeing everyone happy with there kids kills me since i lost 2 of mine and my sons baby mama disappeared with my son i feel so lost and and alone and i jyst want to numb the pain just trying not to turn to drugs again but idk how long i can fight that demand

[OrangeJuiceIsBetter]

6 years later and I'm still here...🖤

[Jesusviene]

Every word you say in every of your songs explains it better about what I’ve been through and what I feel.✨💕

[mariaamontes]

So proud of how far you've came 💘 no matter the hardships and the times you hit rock bottom, you made it out and kept pushing. I love you and i thank you for being here for me through your music.

[thesingers]

Im glad there is someone like u doing this because almost everything u say is how i feel