how i've really been feeling.

i love you so much! we're all on this confusing journey of life, and it's OK that it's confusing.

here are some bible verses that have really helped me through this time:
Psalm 23:1-6
Isaiah 58:11
Isaiah 30:21

[themacncheese]

i kind of knew you were feeling this way, I know how hard it it’s to post frequently and you’re doing much more than just posting. don’t worry about us, we don’t mind if you post less or more. we just want you to feel good posting and proud of yourself.

[khalilahd.]

This is why we love you Annie. You’re always transparent and protect your boundaries. I cant even imagine how difficult it is to juggle the stress of life and still keep the productivity going for YouTube. Sometimes you need to let all these things out and I appreciate you for even trying to open up and talk to us about. Whenever I feel this way my grandma would always tell me “you’re doing better than you’re feeling” and it has always helped me. Hope it helps you too ❤

[lilysuzubelle]

girl i so feel you about feeling ashamed or guilty for “not doing good enough”, and the same about self worth! i’m a christian teen girl too so i have always felt like i could relate to you quite a lot! i will 100% be praying for you and i’m so happy for you pushing yourself to be vulnerable and open online. you’re doing awesome and i have all the faith that you will put up that good fight and conquer it. i’m hoping you see very soon how wonderful you really are and the amazing person that God has created you to be. it’s ok to take time, it’s ok to feel sad, it’s ok to feel like you’re unsure of these things or even behind. we’re so proud of you annie and you’ve been such a strong soul and role model for so many people! i’ll be sending love and lots of prayers your way. God’s gonna be there right with you as you fight through this. thank you for all that you do, i’m so glad you’re taking time to heal and we’re so excited to tag along on your journey ❤️

[clairecrosbycreative]

One of my favorite verses in high school was 1 Cor 2:2. "For I resolved to know nothing except Christ" and it helped me relieve the pressure I was putting on myself to find myself. I enjoyed the season of slowing down and learning how to just be. Thank you for being honest. I hope you can find the rest your soul needs 💕

[peparonimacaroni]

Keep your chin up bestie, you got this . Thankyou for being so honest and open with us. You have no idea how many teens are out there, watching your videos, and feeling better because they got someone to relate to <3

[TrailCameraFootage]

This is why I love you. You’re so honest and you don’t even have to tell us this. You are awesome Annie and don’t change for anyone.

[heidiwallace]

Well done for your boldness and honesty so publicly. 2 Chronicles 15:7- But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded.” Through your faith in God you are stronger than you realise!💗

[poonampal]

We love you Annie for who YOU are!! Take breaks, or do whatever which makes you feel good at the moment! You are amazing and you'll always be... sending so much love your way! 💞

[freshtomatoes]

oh my word Annie, thank you so much for this. it makes me happy that YOU are pursuing authenticity, but as a junior in high school myself this was a much needed reminder. I related to so much of this I can even list them all, but mostly I related and felt so fulfilled by how you talked about being defined by who you are in God first. As you said those words, and I thought about that myself… I got a taste of relief, relief from feeling like I need to get a better SAT score, a glowing college application, or that I need to go to college at all. I just felt the presence of peace, and how God is going to take me on the best journey of life, and I’m going to be much more fulfilled by putting him first. that was a long way to say… I appreciated this video more than you know, and I value everything you said more than even I know I think. i AM praying for you, and i pray I’ll follow you in this journey toward peace over productivity, and authenticity ❤️🙏🏻

[ElizabethChu]

it's okay, idk what i am doing either but that's the beauty of growing through life. excited to be clueless with you.
very proud of you and thank you for being vulnerable with us. love you annie.

[tayslayyyyyy]

I hardly ever write comments, but this video really touched me. I’m also sixteen and go to high school, so I could always relate to your videos, Annie. I just felt like you were talking from the bottom of your heart and this video was truly like a meditation to me, felt very refreshing in a way(?). You made me realise I should also be more available to people because I struggle to make real friendships at school, because I’m looking for something meaningful, not a surface level friendship. I want to make new friends rly bad but I just feel like I only connect with people at school on a surface level and yes it’s fun to talk about not deep stuff but I sometimes want something more. I’m not rly vulnerable with people at school because i decided to become a private person once as I feel safer this way. I feel like whenever I hang out with people from school which is hardly ever, it’s very transactional and does not fulfill me because it’s still about school. I understand you so much, it is hard to bulid true friendships as a teen sometimes.

[yimikaadebayo]

i’m only about halfway through, and i love listening to you. to you talk about your faith, the concept of feeling almost self loathing when you blame yourself when your “heart” hurts. self confidence. each time i can remind myself to, believe that i’ll be praying for you, annie ❤️

[Aya.Peanuts]

it's okay to take any breaks, take good care of yourself <3

[chlololuyi]

girl what you said about chinese academic focus hits home for me. i am ethnically chinese but i've been going to an international school my whole life. I haven't exactly experienced the typical chinese toxic academic focus b/c my parents are pretty open to what i want to do and allow me to spend time to explore my true passions but i definitely have family members struggling with it. but at the end of the day, i'm pretty proud to be chinese. I love my country and I take pride in being able to speak mandarin bc i love my culture and tho sometimes it gets hard to be asian in western society, i still embrace my identity. keep going annie!! lots of love <3

[juliachanel]

this is the most important video you have ever made to me. I consistently started watching your videos a year ago and even though i think your videos have helped me in so many ways, i would lie if i said that I never compared myself to you. It made me feel like I’m bot doing anything with my life. But at the same time you also helped me get out of bed. This really helped me to see you as a human being instead of this ideal picture of who I should strive to be. I’m just really grateful for everything you’ve made, especially this.

[sarahgr]

i do a lot of extra curriculars. i’m a junior. and oml i get the STRESSSS. everything feels like everything is pilling up on each other and my mental health has been getting worse. u’re not alone in this junior year is gonna suck ass but as class of 2024, we’ll get through it.

[thestockimagequeen]

It’s so hard in high school with the struggle of feeling like you “have” to do all these things for college applications. I prioritized my mental health my senior year and I have never regretted it. Good luck with everything, Annie! You’ve got it girl💛

[iwashere]

The way I relate to you so much. I realise as much as I am self-aware or ahead of my peers, I am still such a teenager. Like I've been struggling with my identity too and understanding my emotions and how my friends are. It's been one heck of a week and I think what I learnt is that it's best to just accept you are struggling and there will be times you're unsure. Thanks so much for this video and I'm telling you it will get better <33

[samipotterr]

I can relate to you on feeling like you're doing high school backwards. In middle school, I graduated with Distinguished Honor Roll (the highest honor you can get). For three years, I held myself to an impossible standard and I just barely accomplished it. Going into high school, I continued to hold myself to that standard; but I had a lot harder classes and I was struggling with mental health. Then came Covid.... And I did online school. Online school is not for me, let's just mention that. I ended up dropping out of school in 10th grade because I was so emotionally, spiritually, and mentally drained from trying to reach impossible standards. I want to note to anyone reading this: while grades are important, your mental health will always be more important. In the grand scheme of things, your mental health has more of an effect on you than your grades do. If you are struggling with mental health, take a step back from things, and focus on that. It is completely okay to do so. It is actually better if you do so, rather than burn yourself out (I speak from personal experience). Anyway, dropping out of school seemed completely unproductive and I thought I genuinely ruined my chance at going to college. But it turned out that it was the best growing experience for me. I needed a break. I learned a lot, I got better, and I came back stronger. I'm now doin much better, but because I dropped out of 10th grade, I had to repeat that grade. I took a literal step back in my process of going to college. It's just now that I am catching up with others my age in finding things I like, focusing on hobbies, joining clubs, etc. instead of constantly doing school work. I was able to make many more fulfilling friendships and I even discovered my passion. You sharing your journey has allowed me to relate to you in this way, and I wanna thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing it with me. We are in this together!! It's okay to feel lost or feel behind because in the end, what matters is that we took the chance to better ourselves and do what we love, no matter the time or pace. Sometimes you need to move backwards in order to find the right path forward.❤️ wishing you the best of luck on this new journey

[AbigailWin]

This video is the most mature thing I've ever watched from you, Annie. I'm inspired. You have come to accept all these feelings and problems and I can't tell you how relatable it is. Thank you for sharing this, I'm really proud of who I've watched half a year ago, and who I just watched right now. Thank you for posting this video and I'll be praying so hard for you!!!