giving up on everything

the worst thing you could possibly do is give up on trying in everything that you are able to do. throwing away the potential because you tell yourself you can't. giving up too easily and ending up regretting it.

even if nothing you do feels right, someday it will.
work through every difficult situation knowing you'll make it out fine, even if it doesn't go to plan :)

[TridentTrist]

_“what happened to the talented kid i used to be?”_ actually hit so SO close to home

[shvlplayz]

“You will thank yourself in the future” simple but hits hard

[ABeetleGuy]

A wise talking car once told me, "You don't need to be special around others when you're already special to those who care about you."

[Keyboarddestroyer-ljgh]

she can actually be a singer...her voice is so peaceful making me sleep

[AlexanderFaker]

The best advice I ever got from my therapist is that I wasn’t broken and that nothing was wrong with me. I’m just who I am and that’s okay. Some people might react because you’re different but it doesn’t mean you’re doing anything wrong, you’re just being you and that’s okay.

I spent a good majority of my life as someone who dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts. I always thought there was something broken inside of me, something innately wrong that I had to dig deep and fix. I felt emotions so strongly and it drained me, to the point that I would feel hollow and lonely. I thought it was wrong of me to feel this way.

Nobody had ever told me it was okay to just be the way I was. I felt guilty and doubted myself. There were so many times I felt like a burden and a failure. It didn’t matter that I was finishing college or graduating top of my class. It didn’t matter that my future looked bright because I couldn’t even see five feet in front of me. I was living in darkness. I was living in a constant cloud of self doubt, inferiority and I incorrectly beloved that I was this broken shell that needed to get better and that needed to fix the broken part of me.

Nothing was broken. I just needed some polishing. I needed to face the insecurity within myself. I needed to trust the world a bit more and forgive the people who had hurt me, including myself.

I went to therapy and did some hard work but I still didn’t feel happy and didn’t feel satisfied with my progress. Then one day my therapist told me there was nothing wrong with me, that I wasn’t this broken, incorrect mess. I’m just a person and I’m just living my life how I need to. It was so freeing and it helped to connect so many dots deep within myself. Even the people who loved me the most were unintentionally perpetuating this pattern of me “needing to change” certain aspects of me.

I would always internally say I need to stop doing this or that. I would internally knock myself down a peg and never celebrate myself. I would create and write but after I read it a couple times I would just doubt it and think it was trash. I wasn’t writing it for anyone but myself and yet I would judge it as garbage as if these phantom judges were coming in and deeming it so. Every single instance of my being was judged by my mind and deemed right or wrong. My self guilt would overwhelm me and many many times I would just want to end things because I didn’t deserve the life I was living. I had so much story book type reasons to be happy and I just couldn’t will myself to be happy and appreciate the moments.

I wasn’t a kid anymore. I didn’t know how to be happy. It didn’t come naturally anymore.

I confronted so many sad, lonely, overprotective parts of myself that just wanted to be loved and cared for. They were parts that nobody could really take care of except for myself and I was ashamed of them, sadly neglecting them for years and years out of shame.

Now, I have confronted them all and come to understand them better. I’ve forgiven others and I’ve forgiven myself for pain that was unfairly caused to me. It wasn’t easy but I feel a lot more happy now and I haven’t had any suicidal thoughts in a long time thankfully.

Even when you are alone, you are never alone. Your mind is made up of parts, parts meant to protect you and parts that want you to live. They get confused sometimes and think they are protecting you from pain or trauma but in reality they can sometimes make things worse. Forgive yourself, confront yourself, and over time, learn to love yourself. You are special. You are unique. You are your mind’s favorite person even if you don’t realize it. It spends its entire existence trying to take care of you and protect you from the world.

Typing about this makes me feel free and understood. Thank you for the experience. You are heard. You are felt. You are appreciated. Your mind loves you so much even when nobody else does. If your mind is telling you differently, that’s your self doubt or fear trying to invade. Be strong. Life is always worth it, you might just not feel it yet.

Close your eyes and feel your soul connect with the rest of the world. We are all connected. Every act of pain or violence hurts us all. Every act of love and care heals us all.

If you read this, thank you for listening. I feel healed for the moment. Good night.

[cestamjed]

You actually hit me with “what happened to the talented kid i used to be” not everybody will relate

[G-MAC-bvpf]

pianist here with 8 years of classical training. Your playing is light and evokes beautiful, peaceful emotions. You made me lie down and close my eyes, listening to you sing and play..
I understand your feelings. The biggest amount of money and the best food and the best clothes will not make you happy. What will make you happy is self-actualization - becoming who you want to be and accomplishing what you want to accomplish.

And I want you to know that it's not over. Even if you feel like you wasted something you had, you need to believe that's simply the way your life was meant to go. That's the path God laid out for you, so that something else could happen in your life, or so you would realize something... And we all believe that you can still find happiness, this way or another.
Peace be with you.

[soluhh]

hey i dont know u and u dont know me but i js wanted to leave a comment and say that pain & suffering never lasts forever. if u give up today you'll never know if tomorrow was the day that everything would change, and if you stop trying you'll never know what could've happened if you decided to try. everyone watching this video is loved by someone. everyone. have a wonderful day and please stay safe 😁😁

[MR_TIMOTHY]

“what happened to the talented kid i used to be”
that hit right in the soul

[Foxow-wy]

I also cried because I recognized myself in what she said... Feeling alone... or just pretending to be happy in front of people... then when you come home that's when your anxieties resurface... Sometimes I feel useless... I like to make others laugh... but when I feel alone that's when I'm the saddest... I like to learn the violin and the keyboard personally. I can't stop crying just thinking that I recognize myself in this video... I know what it feels like and I'm with you all the way...

[_Donut]

If you, at the end of your life watch your last ever movie, you'll notice these beautiful moments where you never gave up and kept trying until you became the best version of you.

[Lucas_ka]

i've always dreamed of being a footballer, being on the pitch, score goals, hear the chants of the crowd and be the best player until someone toke away my dedication, my football and my happiness by saying that i would never do that because i was bad and i have no money and my parents are poor and i could never get an opportunity and now i look back and thank myself for not giving up, cuz ladies and gentlemen i just got an big opportunity

and by the way nym, your voice is so relaxing, and your skills with the piano gives me chills (i legit just found you on YT)

update:
thanks for the support guys i've been going to all the training sessions but since dad's car has no fuel enough to drive me there today i had to skip (28/01)

[Trilcps]

im at a deep depression peak and i see this, i thank you and youtube for helping me with it

[lixzww]

very relaxing the way she plays the piano

[yapper-lc]

Bro that crying while playing is the realest thing cuz its not just the sadness its the nostalgia hitting you its the fact that you wont get that time back those days of happiness you felt back it feels weird to describe but easier to show

[JoseMoreno-nsem]

When you're a kid the bar is low, almost anyone could be labeled as talented/gifted. I say this from experience, everyone seems to see me as smart. Yet I disagree. I feel like I had a head start with school so naturally I stood out. Entering adulthood (I'm turning 18 soon) the bar isn't nearly as low. There are many bars but the only one you feel proud of crossing is one that none other have crossed. Not only does the world ask more of you, but you begin to do so as well. Witnessing only the success of others and the way others interpret the world takes a toll on an average person's life. I say this because it's possible you feel certain moments should make you feel happy just because it made others happy, I know I feel this way. The story of the hero and the villain doesn't interest everyone, some like to see a sad ending. Other's (Like me) just want to feel a strong emotion: sadness, anger, happiness, anxiousness. Sometimes improving feels like a chore, so whenever you come across a strong emotion remember that moment. If your chest feels heavy, if your eyes feel tired, if your stomach feels empty, or if you still feel empty. Don't interpret an emotion as negative, no emotion is "bad" per say. I doubt you'll be numb to other emotions, it's just harder to feel them. Oh, and I know you can feel a mix of both, sometimes you can feel a heavy chest and feel like whatever's happening is suffocating but you're still feeling happy. If so, dig deeper, there's something underneath that's eating you from within. I have no experience with depression, but I hope this helped you.

(There I go again, giving people solutions when they just want to voice their thoughts) 🙃

[Salata]

It's crazy that when you started crying, I started crying too. The song you played brought back memories, good and bad, and now I am more thankful for what I went through, because I know it was for a good reason. I just need to keep going to find out what that reason is.
I wouldn't have realised it without you, thanks. ❤

[Garou]

"What happend to the talented kid I used to be" made me think about that phrase for 2 months and it changed me and brought my old self back and it hit hard

[mistereggus]

thank you so much. we dont know each other and i dont think you can comprehend how much this means to me. i am eternally grateful

[ryom_en_]

"Although it's difficult today to see beyond the sorrow, may looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow."
--sm wise guy