Prostitute (08 09 2024)

Prostitute.

Filmed August 9, 2024.

They're letting me know a woman I went to college with was a 19 year old prostitute back in 2010 - and in 2010 I was a 22 year old. She was broken and sick in the head then she met me... and I was a clueless man-child. But in her eyes, a light shined. She became OBSESSED with me ever since. Basically, my soulmate is a former prostitute.

After meeting me, she cleaned up her act. She devoted her life to trying to find true love with me. Basically, she's done so much for me. And everything - it's not a coincidence. Basically, the person who is obsessed with me is a former prostitute.

I need to remind myself this is SUSPICIONS. This is a fantasy that I'm coming to a feeling of conviction is true. Nobody has ever confirmed anybody I knew was a prostitute. And also, there's nobody in my life. I'm a loser who's daydreaming and my daydreams are becoming real. I'm getting delusional. Nobody loves me and the source of my self-esteem is fantasy.

Wouldn't it be cool to be like Deadpool? Becoming madly in love with a former prostitute.

I want to be loved by somebody. I want to feel there's somebody out there who's suffered a lot like me. But realistically, nobody cares about me. Nobody cares if I even die. There's no former prostitute who loves me.

So catch it, check it, change it.