this is what self destruction feels like (Official Lyric Video) - Marina Lin

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Written by: Marina Lin
Produced, Mixed and Mastered by: Myles “Losh” Schwartz at Incredible Projects

[shinkko]

The worst feeling is *forcing yourself to smile and think that your alright when your not*

[cooldawg]

"Depression is like living in a body that tries to survive with a mind that tries to die"

[gracejames]

I feel like a happy person, but only around my friends. When I get home, I just feel like numb to anything..

[crimsynheartticker]

Being self-aware and mentally ill is so exhausting cause not only do you know when you're being self-destructive, you watch yourself do it anyway

[gwenmarie]

“But I’ve got secrets I can’t confess.”

I got things to say, but hell, it hurts.

[MarinaLinMusic]

Please do me a favour and give someone a hug today 💛 I'm extremely nervous and excited to release this song, It's extremely personal and means so much to me. I wouldn't have been able to do it without YOU! What was your favourite line from the song? 🌹

[Nicholas]

So. This dropped during my gym hour. Now my eyes are sweating too.

[Qunyx.]

"don't say you love me, cause I don't understand those words" - it‘s not like i don‘t understand, but my mind is telling me that the person is lying. which then makes me feel bad for feeling that they are lying..
Amazing piece of art once again Marina! Thank you for your all the relatable lyrics, the words that i can‘t word on my own 💝

[yshannng]

Hugs to all those who are silently fighting their battles alone♡

[Megan-gnsn]

When im at school, everyone tell me im so positive everytime they see me.. Little do they know I litterly cry myself to sleep every night.. This is my new favorite song..

[howltae]

I don't believe in "believe" anymore

I don't love "love" anymore.

[Midnight-xkhm]

“I’m not a liar, but I’ve got secrets I can’t confess” I feel this personally because I have secrets I can’t confess because I am afraid he will use it against me. It takes lot of time and courage to trust someone and trust them with your secrets. 🌸

Edits: Don’t wanna sound like a freak but thank you all who could relate to this and for the likes. I’ve never gotten this many in my YT life so I appreciate. I hope y’all stay strong in your emotional days. it will be over soon. Can’t guarantee when but soon. ❤️

[pantreshaloon]

“It does the job but it doesn’t heal.”
That hits me real time because I’ve just been trying to get myself busy and distracted.

[imagineyourlifeinsadness]

LISTEN HERE U BEAUTIFUL ANGEL
YES YOU. THE ONE READING THIS.
LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING!
YOU’RE FU*KING BEAUTIFUL AND AWESOME
please don’t give up I love you and others do to.
I know how you feel because I’m also that sad seeing u heart broken.
But hey let’s stick together and get through this.
Once god takes our soul we will both fly high back home to where we truly feel at peace.
I love you more than anything.
Don’t give up you beautiful angel! ❤️

[selectivelysocial]

*" I'm getting tired of the same old feeling in my chest "*

[y-thienlam]

I didn't realize that a song can bring back such painful memories until I listened to this. I'm sure many people have/ are going through this. I know it's easier said than done, but I really do hope that there will be some point in the future where we are all better. This song is incredibly powerful. Thank you for sharing.

[MysticwTherd]

Outside: “I’m fine”
“It’s just the cat”
“Get out of my room”
“Can I take a walk... alone”
“I’m fine”
Inside: “why can’t I feel this”
“Why won’t this leave me”
“What if I stop it-“



U know what I mean ;0;



Edit: dude I totally forgot abt this-
(It’s 1AM so the spelling is gonna be shit but yeah <3)
Guys I promise it *does* get better ik I’m some stranger on the internet saying this and ik you can’t see it getting better but it does
It really really does
I might add s’more (I had to I’m sorry the dad jokes are getting to me man-) inspirational quotes/random things that enter my brain to help random ppl on the internet but for now I’ll just share some things I was told while at therapy
(ALSOALSO no need to worry abt me I’m so much better then what I used to be it does get better take it from someone who has experienced it- I mean you have a life all you gotta do is start living it doesn’t matter how only matters that you like the way your living it so keep working to get there ❤️❤️)

Okay some helpful things I learned while at therapy wHoOoo:
If you ever feel like harming yourself grab some ice instead it won’t harm you or leave any marks/scars but it’ll have the same affect
(Either way if you do ever feel like this pls plspls get help i swear you are needed and beautiful and loved)
Y’know the volleyball nets or just like a net how they look twined together if you push down on part of the net the hole thing will squish with it
Well stress is cinda like a net it doesn’t only hit you it’ll hit the hole net
Your not alone hun ❤️

Uhm- yeah- thats all I can remember but I hopped I help
I APOLOGIZE FOR THE LACK OF
K N O W L E D G E XDDD
It’s cinda a big blob of words—
I’m sorrrryyyy 1AM writing go brrr xD

*I love you* ❤️

[millenah]

[ Verse 1 ]

This isn’t easy
I don’t know how and what to feel
Keeping busy
It does the job but it doesn’t heal
My mind is a fire
And I’m burning love away
It’s getting harder to feel
And they all say

[ Chorus ]
You need to take care of yourself my darling
But they don’t know how it feels to be broken
I can’t help it I feel numb
I’ll wait for the waves to leave and come

I think I’m breaking
I’m a mess in the making

Mmm mmm
A mess in the making
Mmm mmm

[ Verse 2 ]
I’m getting tired
Of the same old feeling in my chest
I’m not a liar
But I got secrets I can’t confess
Don’t say you love me
Cause I don’t understand those words
It’s getting harder to feel
And they all say

[ Chorus ]
You need to take care of your health my darling
But they don’t know how it feels to be broken
I can’t help it I feel numb
I’ll wait for the waves to leave and come
I think I’m breaking
I’m a mess in the making

Mmm mmm
A mess in the making
Mmm mmm

[ Bridge ]
I’m holding on a tightrope
And know I’m not coming home
Hurting, searching
Your now I’m not coming home

[ Final Verse ]
This isn’t easy
I don’t know how and what to feel
Keeping busy
It does the job but it doesn’t heal

[tera]

I hate it when people say "well your still alive so your doing good" because I'm not doing good and if this counts as being alive, then I don't want to

[katieslife]

I want this song at my funeral saying it’s how my life was and nobody relized