FEAST YOUR EYES / ft. Eleanor Forte (original song)

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music , mv / kian
vocals / eleanor forte

[lyrics]
How could you let me go end up like this?
At least you exist
But is this any way to live?
Just cut your tongue and get a grip
I thought your purpose was to handle me
Handle all your tears?
Why was I unable to fear?
Your mind was well beyond your years
Why don't you know how to get out of here
Isn't it insane?
Your every action comes with pain
This is just the path you paved
But hey, it's just a game
That isn't what you said that day
Don't you speak another word, I think I had enough

Tie me upside down inside my bedroom in the dark
(I think I had enough)
(I think I had enough)
(But have you?)
Let all of my blood rush to my skull then break it hard
(This isn't good enough)
(No, it's not good enough)
But now at least his eyes are fed

I wonder daily that maybe I'm to blame
With choices that I wish weren't made
I couldn't take it, I hoped that you were dead
(Why are you still sulking over little things)
The profound sense of dread you gave me
(It's not like they hurt you in real life

This isn't what you said it'd feel like
Maybe you're too dumb
Why does it make me wanna die?
You're there still mourning hordes of flies
I don't mind, they've been too kind
That isn't what you said that day
Shut your mouth and go away
Don't let me see your face

Tie me upside down inside my bedroom in the dark
(I think I had enough)
(I think I had enough)
(But have you?)
Let all of my blood rush to my skull then break it hard
(I think I had enough)
(I think I had enough)
(But have you?)
Give me all the pain you felt back then when you were young
(It isn't good enough)
(It isn't good enough)
(I hate you)
I don't know how I could leave it, nothing's good enough
(It isn't good enough)
(It isn't good enough)
At least his eyes are fed

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Usually I don’t comment but felt I had to because of how strongly this song resonates with me. I have sexual childhood trauma, I wish I told someone, I wish I didn’t endure just because that person promised me things I didn’t have… Just like the two voices in the song I keep bickering with myself: “It’s my fault, but I was just a kid” “I could let go, but I can’t” “it wasn’t that bad, but it was” etc… I especially loved the line at 1:20 “it’s not like they hurt you in real life” while I accept what happened to me, every night I get torturous nightmares; it doesn’t leave physical signs, making me feel like the world is gaslighting me into believing that if it’s just in my head, it’s not real or impactful.

Thank you for this great piece of art, I will always come back.

harpy

After listening to the song again, I'm starting to notice a possible link to certain tarot cards; specifically The Hanged Man and Ten of Swords.

overworkedwarlock

Mind in a state of decay ❌
Mind in an ate of slay ✅

FriendlyNeighboorhoodGoofyGoob

"Its not like they hurt you in real life"

The downplay of their own trauma is gut wrenching..

Lovely song none the less, keep up the great work

softcoffee

LYRICAL ANALYSIS IN REPLIES :3

i think this song is likely about someone with sexual trauma. the two voices seem to describe a back and forth between a past and present version of the same person.

the younger squeaky voice is a person who went through a sexual relationship that they later on regretted. the title "feast your eyes" and the line "at least they're eyes are fed" implies they went through these encounters for the sake of making their partner happy (and also seems like play on the term "eye candy"). this past version seems to view their actions as worth it despite the pain because "they were well beyond their years" implying they see themselves as mature enough and because it was for their partner.

the older version in return looks down on their younger counterpart, blaming them for their detached view to sex. in return they try to seek out sex to fulfill the pit it left in past due their regret. however, their sexuality is still actively used self harm and as a standard for themself "this isnt good enough". They gratify these feelings though because they view they're partner as someone "too kind" who deserves sex and because they haven't conquered their fear like they are supposed to.

EDIT: just noticed eleanor is credited as being a "inner demon" and "outer angel". i think the younger voice is the inner demon- as they are a repression of this girl's trauma that is inherently demonized by her. the older voice is the outer angel as that's the feelings they are trying to portray: someone unaffected by trauma who doesnt associate with her past. an idealized version of herself, hence an angel who is supposedly pure and untouched.

thebingus

I dont know if you'll read this but I hope that you'll feel better with time, i like the song a lot and i know from experience talking about these kinds of things are really hard but it can really help! Just make sure you're avoiding the stresses that you can avoid while processing it, that also helps, take care 🫂❤

kazaster

Ok I really liked the original but this definitely an improvement, the art looks much better now and this tuning is still heavenly

plasmapengi

Eating up the 8D background vocals. I can hear her in one ear and then another and it's amazing!!!

RyouTheChocolateBar

Sounds like the tornadic apocalypse that's obliterating my mind fiber by fiber with each passing day....

OGTwistedDobermanXCVI

I found this on my feed and aside from it being a song, I don't know what else this is but I know it will have more views.

corncobbob

This tastes like raspberry jam
And I love raspberry jam

raspberryhooligan.

I really love the sonar textures in all your works (your recent ones are especially amazing), and I've been hooked on your Vocaloid albums the past few days.

Your songs are surprisingly empathetic - and describes some emotions and scenarios rather well. Beating yourself up over past mistakes is a fuckin mood - and forgiving yourself is often SO much harder than just being your own personal devil.

Regardless, Im a big fan of your works - they're all honestly really well done.

EmbeddedSystems_Shius

Here's the lyrics:
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How could you let me go end up like this?
at least you exist.
but is this any way to live?
just cut your tongue and get a grip.
I thought your purpose was to handle me...
handle all your tears?
why was i unable to fear?
your mind was well beyond your years.
why don't you know how to get out of here?
isn't it insane?
your every action comes with pain.
this is just the path you paved.
but hey, it's just a game.
that isn't what you said that day.
don't you speak another word, i think i had enough.

TIE ME UPSIDE DOWN INSIDE MY BEDROOM IN THE DARK.
I THINK I HAD ENOUGH-
I THINK I HAD ENOUGH,
but have you?
LET ALL OF MY BLOOD RUSH TO MY SKULL THEN BREAK IT HARD.
THIS ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH-
NO, IT'S NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
but now at least his eyes are fed.

i wonder daily, that maybe im to blame with choices that i wish weren't made.
i couldn't take it, i hoped that you were dead.
(why are you still sulking over little things?)
the profound sense of dread you gave me.
(it's not like they, hurt you in REAL. LIFE.)

this isn't what you said it'd feel like...
maybe you're too dumb.
why does it make me wanna die?
you're there still mourning hordes of flies.
I don't mind, they've been too kind.
that isn't what you said that day?
shut your mouth and go away, don't let me see your face...

TIE ME UPSIDE DOWN INSIDE MY BEDROOM IN THE DARK.
I THINK I HAD ENOUGH-
I THINK I HAD ENOUGH,
but have you?
LET ALL OF MY BLOOD RUSH TO MY SKULL THEN BREAK IT HARD.
I THINK I HAD ENOUGH-
I THINK I HAD ENOUGH,
but have you?
GIVE ME ALL THE PAIN YOU FELT BACK THEN WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG.
IT ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH-
IT ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH,
i hate you.
i don't know how i could leave it nothing's good enough...
IT ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH-
IT ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH,
at least his eyes are fed.

*THE END*

PauloAdvincula-ys