Ren x Chinchilla - How To Be Me (Lyric Video)

Ren x Chinchilla - How To Be Me (Lyric Video)

How to be me is out now on all major streaming platforms

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Music video by Ren, Brigita Gr and XVII music

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[dizzyspellss]

As someone who struggles with mental health issues and was recently discharged from the hospital for a suicide attempt; Thank you, the semicolon project is one of the most beautiful things this world has and I appreciate you and all you do to spread that. I've never loved a song this much

[fiqahsha]

Glad to find such hidden gem through YouTube's recommendation

[Scrambled_egg]

My daughter recently left due to mental illness and left her 6 year old daughter with me. It was like she was talking to me through this song. She loves flowers…she has told me about the floor breathing and she can’t walk across it. I was mad. I still didn’t understand how could she leave her daughter? I’m not mad anymore. It’s like she was telling me. Why didn’t I hear her? Why did it take this song for me to understand? Thank you. You helped me see and you helped me change my heart.

[kmarlowe]

It’s so refreshing to hear legitimately authentic music. Particularly, music that gives voice to the often voiceless who face mental health challenges. Bravo.

[anissabakerr]

"I forgot how to be me" that spoke to me

[scuffsy]

Me: This is gonna be a good song
Me through the tears : yeah i was right

[violetevergarden]

I’m crying at the library after most undergrad students have finished their exams, I deferred mines because I was at the mental hospital. The lyrics about a quick decision in the middle of the night got to me because all my serious attempts happened in the middle of the night. Then I’d be at the hospital the next day, then in the psych unit a few days later. The semicolon is a message to continue. Follow through with treatment, even if a lot of it is waiting alone and in pain. Learning one day at a time to make friends, find a circle I feel safe and accepted in. Working for a degree even if I can’t see myself having one in the current moment. It just matters I take one step at a time in the direction of a life worth living. Because I deserve a fulfilling life.

To everyone thinking of ending things and when the thoughts are intense:
- STOP (stop, take a step back, observe what’s around you, and proceed in a careful manner) and drop everything you’re doing, any objects you are holding and take a few breaths, inhale 5 seconds and exhale 7 seconds.
- Tell yourself “I want to feel better, not d!e or s..h or use”
- Splash cold water on your face/ put your face in a bowl of cold water/put an ice pack on your face, hold for 15 to 30 seconds and repeat (slows everything down and resets the present moment)
- Video call or walk to a friend/family member and look them in the eye, say “can you help me get out of my head” (eye contact is a pain reliever). If there isn’t anyone, call a hotline and say “can you help me get out of my head”

Repeat with me
“I am worthy of feeling better”
“The feeling will pass soon. I just need to make it through this moment”
“I am enough. I am not a bad person”
“It’s okay to feel the way I do. It makes sense to feel the way I am feeling right now”
“May I be healthy, may I be loved, may I have a fulfilling life”

[firewalker]

I listen to this song a lot and every time I do it breaks me! My 17yr old son passed away suddenly and unexpectedly and I found him the following morning. The old me died that day too and it is never coming back. I love your music Ren, not only are you a talented musician and lyricist but you have a gift for reaching into people's souls and connecting with them. Much love and respect to you

[saymontang]

I almost never respond on videos.. But fml this song is amazing. You are getting better and better with every new song you drop. I really wish your voice will not only keep on reaching out to the ears of the people whom you have reached out to already.. But for the whole world te hear and recognize the art you create.

Much love from Amsterdam. Looking forward to visit one of your concerts one day..

[lindarichterova]

Verse 1: Ren]
I don't feel safe in this bed
There are voices in my head
I've been talking to the dead
And the fear baptised me
My kingdom turned to dust
And I watched all my riches rust
Have I lost the Midas' touch?
Or do sad eyes blind me?

[Chorus: both]
Over and over we go
Over the hills and the valleys below
Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
And it suffocates me, hmmm

[Post-Chorus: both]
Oh, I can't breath
I said oh, I can't breath
All I know is I forgot how to be me

[Verse 2: Ren,  both]
I don't feel safe in these halls
There are bruises on the walls
There are bodies in the floors
And they breathe so loudly
I wish I could move
Get up and walk right out this tomb
Do our saviours die too soon?
For my sins surround me

[Chorus: Ren,  Chinchilla,  both]
Over and over we go
(Over and over we go)
Over the hills and the valleys below
(Over the hills and the valleys below)
Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
(Follows me, follows me)
And it suffocates me, hmmm

[Post-Chorus: both,  Chinchilla]
Oh, I can't breath
I said oh, I can't breath
All I know is I forgot how to be me
Hallelujah
Where is my god, where are you?
Hallelujah
Nothing is pulling me through
Hallelujah
When I don't know how to be
Hallelujah
I forgot how to be me

[Outro: Ren]
When he gave up the fight
A quick decision late in the night
That stayed with me for all of my life
I miss you so

[baakir]

"Where is my god, where are you?"
This part hit home. Hard. I was raised a muslim and even tho i don't believe in it anymore it's still basically my whole culture. When everyone around me consoles to god and pray in hardships, telling me that my depression will be cured if i turn to god or that I'm depressed because i'm away from god, i think that's why it hit like it did. Where's my god? Where's the one i confide in? Where's my peace? Where's that thing that will magically make all the pain worth it, you know?

[jillianjones]

My daughter recently made some attempts on her life...very quiet like when no one knew... This song has new meaning since we've started her healing process

[cameronlane]

Suicide doesn't stop the pain.. it just passes it on to someone who loves you

[SpicyPisces]

This song describes me perfectly. I’m 13 years old and I’ve delt with incredibly severe anxiety and OCD since I was 8 years old. It got much worse recently two of my best friends and I got into an argument where they screamed at me, and gave me trauma. I rethought every conversation we have ever had to make sure I haven’t done something wrong. It drove me completely insane and made it so I was sad all the time and nothing could cheer me up. I felt like I fell into a pit, but my body was still up on the ground. The first time I saw their faces I had an anxiety attack. Sometimes worrying about doing things wrong made me feel like I was the worst human on this earth. Thank you for this song Ren. ❤❤❤ know that you are appreciated.

[shantanubondre]

How can Ren remain so underrated all these years astounds me.

These songs are gold.
The subscriber count is too low for that.

[DonGerico]

Bloody amazing song. I hope you have good success in 2023 Ren, you deserve it.

[YigithanYigit]

[Verse 1: Ren]
I don't feel safe in this bed
There are voices in my head
I've been talking to the dead
And the fear baptised me
My kingdom turned to dust
And I watched all my riches rust
Have I lost the Midas' touch?
Or do sad eyes blind me?

[Chorus: both]
Over and over we go
Over the hills and the valleys bellow
Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
And it suffocates me, hmmm

[Post-Chorus: both]
Oh, I can't breath
I said oh, I can't breath
All I know is I forgot how to be me

[Verse 2: Ren,  both]
I don't feel safe in the halls
There are bruises on the walls
There are bodies in the floors
And they breathe so loudly
I wish I could move
Get up and walk right out this tomb
Do our saviours die too soon?
For my sins surround me

[Chorus: Ren,  Chinchilla,  both]
Over and over we go
(Over and over we go)
Over the hills and the valleys below
(Over the hills and the valleys below)
Oh, and it follows me, follows me home
(Follows me, follows me)
And it suffocates me, hmmm

[Post-Chorus: both,  Chinchilla]
Oh, I can't breath
I said oh, I can't breath
All I know is I forgot how to be me
Halleluja
Where is my god, where are you?
Halleluja
Nothing is pulling me through
Halleluja
When I don't know how to be
Halleluja
I forgot how to be me

[Outro: Ren]
When he gave up the fight
A quick decision late in the night
That stayed with me for all of my life
I miss you so

[felixgoss]

This could be a soundtrack for something

[williechase]

Dude you have the ability to make anyone break down and cry. And it’s a good thing. Needed this one bro

[cyprianpirog]

Never thought luigi would show me such a great artist.