I Can't Stop Thinking About the Narcissist

Do you find yourself still thinking about the narcissist?

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Tune in to hear the perspective of a self aware narcissist. That’s me - Ben Taylor a narcissist in recovery trying to promote awareness, healing, growth and change. I do that by these videos on here, TikTok, Instagram and Facebook.

Also I try to help people with or abused by narcissism. Please reach out to me if you are a:
Victim of Narcissistic Abuse - Helping provide closure, reduce guilt and break free from the trauma bond that toxic people imprison you in.
Narcissist - I understand you better than you probably understand yourself because I have been there, I am there and I am fighting daily for a better life. You can do that too.

Platforms I am on:

[brittanywilliams]

It’s hard to see them be capable of being wonderful and choosing to be cruel instead. It hurts that so many can have a heart and so many never will.

[Reaper_thecreaper]

I'm not ashamed to admit that I still think about my wife all the time a year separated now. Yes I still love her. No I would never go back. I have moved was with her for 22 years and 6 children. I'm not just going to thinking of her just because society wants me to forget. I have good thoughts and bad thoughts. It is what it is. Iv gone no contact, she's with a new supply, it doesn't bother me anymore. I had the been through my grief. I know now what she done, bit that doesn't change the fact that I have to stop thinking about her. I love her and I probably always will. However I'd never take her back. Just seeing her just triggers me. And my body physically shacks. I'm just going to let nature take its definitely got some traits from her. This I'm learning to dealing with.

Unfortunately she was toxic....that's the truth. All she said to me was you've changed, you need to go to anger management. Gaslighted all the time.she was really good at time and she was really bad at times. Thanks for the video ❤❤❤

[TuerlingsTim]

I did stop thinking of that person but due to the situation it became clear what happens in my life. It started on a young age and due to that damage I was always looking for love but became vulnerable for these kind of people. But with help of this kind of communication my eyes are opened and working on a change . Thanks 👍🏻

[manzanitaverde]

That's me...his name/memory pops up everywhere. I go from missing him to detesting him. I look at my son, and I despise his father for abandoning him. My ex just stopped talking to me...he just went into hiding, and didn't offer any explanation whatsoever. And now he attempts to reach out 1 to 3 times per year, and if I attempt to ask why, he just tells me to get "over it" and to stop living in the past. It angers me to know that he is out there living his life, like if nothing...probably hooking up with whatever is available...I'm just venting now😢. It hurts..

[LC-rmxy]

Thanks for these videos!! I constantly find my self thinking about this narcissist each time I hear a song on the radio or pass thru places we’ve been etc… I’m trying to each day NOT to….😕

[yadiraalbornoz]

It will be great to have your wife talking about your awareness process.

[sheiladay-odme]

This is not true of everyone. If you did not get controlled and decided to let go, you just keep living. Narcissists need other people a lot more than other people need them. I think people with dependent personalities are the ones who cannot let go.

[BrettMissen]

Great wisdom 👌 Thank you for sharing your pearls.

What about Soul Ties?
There is also a need to break Soul Ties with the person as a beginning to freedom.

Breaking Soul Ties with the power of Holy Spirit, breaks the Spiritual connection to the person in the Spiritual realm.

When two people come together emotionally, physically, sexually it creates a soul connection like glueing two pieces of timber together becoming one piece.

Then when those two pieces separate it is like ripping those two pieces of timber apart. It is not a clean separation of the timber pieces. A bit of each person will be stuck to the other.

It is not a clean break and separation of the two parts of the relationship there will still be bits from each other stuck to the other until the individual heals.

Healing needs to be ab intentional jounrey. Time does not heal.

[Hopper]

Yes, I agree with letting go of my story and perception, because it’s not right. Good reminder. Thank you so much

[Graycy]

We were so happy right up until he betrayed me. Then i was the enemy for no reason. His new supply is crazier than him and he claims he loves her but never loved me. Ouch! It really hurts.

[louiseelliott]

I was doing really well - he was still in my head but it was kinda manageable. The cognitive dissonance had faded. I saw him for what and who he is. Over the weekend he hoovered. I haven’t interacted with him but now he’s really back in my head argh - I need him out! I hear what you’re saying though and I know I can regulate myself over time.

[wendymccolm]

When I blocked him he wrote me an email tearing down my character in rage and then blamed me but said doors open if I wanted another chance with him - of course if I could behave better

[palomahair]

He made me feel like i and my family was the problem he discard me the most horrible way 16 years of wasting my life and ruin my chance to have more children off he went and even far carry on mentaly abuse me i need help 7 months after i still not recovered

[Snazzybeat]

Insert "wounded person" where the word narcissist is and you hen realise your mind and heart is showing you a mirror to learn from