i love you by billie eilish but its 1:30 am and its raining

alt title: i love you by billie eilish but its 1:30 am and you just had a really bad fight with your best friend and your window is open when you realize its raining

[isabellagrisham]

4 years ago I listened to this song crying at the loss of another person 4 years later I am mourning the loss of myself.

[strawberrys.]

There's nothing worse than realizing how little you mean to those who mean the most to you.

[christinapearl]

"One day after my suicide"

The day after my suicide, I loved my mother even more, when I saw her crying on the floor of my room, embracing my clothes with my pictures scattered around her, I saw so much love beyond the tears in her eyes.

The day after my suicide, I felt how much my father loved me, no matter how hard, in the midst of this great sadness, he spoke to me with tears in his eyes about how proud he was of me and how much he loved me.

The day after my suicide. I saw that teddy (my furry best friend) was more incredible than I could have ever imagined. Every time someone came home, he would run to the door excited to see me, seeing that I wasn't me, he would lie in front of the door and keep waiting for me.

The day after my suicide. I felt my sister's love when I saw her sitting in her room with tears in her eyes. I remembered the times we played, talked and argued together in our beautiful childhood. processing moments.

The day after my suicide. I felt how important my best friend was. They were looking at all of our pictures together... remembering the laughs we shared.

The day after my suicide. I felt sad for my teachers. They blamed themselves for noticing it.

At night I went to the morgue to find myself. I was sad. I looked at myself and said: “So many dreams we had, ” “So many loved ones, ” “So many people we’re going to meet, ” “You had so many people who loved you, but you threw them all away?” You must have a lot of courage to end your life.
Why didn't you use that courage to win? ""

Thank God it was just a vision.

to remember. You are still here and you can change your life forever. You are better than you think you are. The most beautiful, the smartest and the strongest.

Make this yours. Save it in notes and read it later.

- A person on YouTube

[miacapris]

billie hits harder then that moment you realize they don't love you the way you love them :')

[xoxo.ezra_]

Not depressed… but not happy either. I don’t know how to explain to anyone what is going on inside my head because no one will understand. I don’t even understand. So I suffer in silence.

[igitha..._]

My friend died the other day in a car accident. He loved Billie Eilish. No one will ever be like him. I wish I was closer. I wish my other friend would call me back...I just need a hug. I feel so alone. I want to live... want to share warm happy times with beautiful hearts... everything feels so cruel... I've lost so many people..I'm so tired...
Thank you for sharing this slowed version it's fitting for grieving..

[AnthonyGonzalez-ymll]

im not as sad anymore but i still feel comfort in the sadness of this song

[musasalar]

I am so lost and confused at the moment and I’ve never felt this lost and confused in my life I’ve always been able to take control of the situation but for some reason I am lost and numb and I was scrolling through YouTube and here comes this song at 1:30 am, the rest is just……unexplainable. It’s insane what music is capable of doing!!

[niamh]

i remember listening to this song for the first time in 2019 crying so hard. now its 2023 and i still feel the same way lol

[elson]

my ex used to listen a lot to billie, i didnt listen at all to her when i was still with her.
one day she tells me to listen to the this song.I listed to the song but didnt notice the lyrics.
it's been almost 3 years and I now know what she really felt.

[zwolf]

it feels weak to show emotion, but it hurts to hold it all inside. it's hard to trust anyone after you have been hurt by someone close to you. i wish i had someone to share everything with. i miss that

[youknowyoulovehim]

i miss him so much. it hurts so so much yet i feel so so numb.

[kamarivfx_]

why are my videos blowing up all of the sudden i posted this well over 2 years ago

[sineadkelly]

i feel so numb and invisible to everyone around me. why can’t i just leave this life already.

[sethpalm]

Why are there tears rolling down my face I thought I was stronger then this but there’s always one thing stronger then me sad nostalgia that chills me to the core..

[gothlogic]

I miss you a lot, B. Our daughter Mimi is growing up so fast, and being a single dad is tough. I really wish you were here to share these moments with us. I hope whatever made you leave was worth it. We're always here, waiting for you. 🥀

[nerozeid]

she changed it all.

i grew up with autism, a chronic illness, and severe depression. i was stuck-up, lonely, and lost. i wouldn't speak to other children in preschool and kindergarten because i thought i was "too mature" for them. i was bad at expressing love, and my parents convinced me to start believing that i was incapable of love/being loved because i didn't express it. i hated people. everyone. i thought people were like an terminal illness. you live and die with them without a choice. i hated myself. when i was six i devised a plan to end it all.


then i moved cross-country. and i met her.

she was perfect. kind, outgoing, and so, incomprehensibly happy and innocent. i couldn't figure it out. i was infatuated. she was my first friend. my first crush. my first love. i had never loved, platonically or not, in my life. not once, until her. and she loved me too.

when i was 13 we started dating in secret. in a toe-curling, cry-to-each-other, kind of romance. we were (and are) so in love.

we were found out a day before our one-year anniversary.

my parents have always hated her. they hate her because she's everything i always needed in a person. they hate her because i'd do anything for her. they hate her because i wasn't supposed to ever love or be loved. both my parents are aro/ace so they really don't understand.

it's been nearly three years since we started dating. through it all, we triumph. hand in hand, over and over again. we've never had a fight. there's no jealousy. she is my sanctuary and i am her home. we've grown up together and are permanently intertwined. wherever we go and whatever happens, part of our hearts will always belong to the other.

this song reminds me of all the unavoidable pain of love. but the storm is outside of us. we are pure in a world of chaos.

perhaps you need a reminder that the storm is outside of you, too.

[lime]

Its uh, its 19th of May 2022. 4 weeks from now is summer and im sitting here drinking cold water after a shower wondering where ill be in 2 years, 21:40 and i havent done my homework. I wish to listen to this a couple more times than, than ill get back to this comment and cry 7 months into the future. Dont delete this post, its freaking perfect and it brings such comfort. Please, thank you.
- me, myself May 22..

[abbyhale]

2 years ago I listened to this song because I thought it sounded good. Now I am listening to this and relating to the music. The amount of people who let out their emotions with music is astronomical. I lost my favorite person in the world a few months ago. He was the first person I let down my guard to and he burned every nerve in my body. This song is the actual representation of that.

[ravenzafia]

this is literally me when i’m tossing and turning thinking of him… he was my everything and left .. i miss his hugs and smiles and jokes. i never fully got over his passing and i don’t think i will. this song comforts me knowing that there are other people feeling the same i am. i find comfort in music and this edit always helps me calm my mind when i think of him.