Fred again.. - Me (Heavy)

Actual Life (April 14 - December 17 2020)
The new album, out now

I was makin tunes wit manjy the day we did this video and literally you can ask him like for the whole day I was like man I am rrrrright on the brink of tears. Like everything I did I was like ooffffff mate we are SECONDS away here. And he was like “cmon buddy let it go 😌🤗☺️” but for some reason it didn’t happen.

So then by the evening when I had to sing this fuckin song into a mic and like put myself in that whole place i was absolutely cliff hanging on to myself. So wit that context the fact that I managed to hold it off until the end of the song basically is actttuuually kinda alright I think

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Director: LOOSE
DOP: Donny Johnson
Editor: Charlie Hutchins

[pamquick]

Oh my goodness, I'm Elated to have found you, Fred. Please know that I'm a 77 year old music-lover from the US and that unfortunately I had not heard you before today. I am now certain you are a musical prodigy and I have become a subscriber who will be looking forward to hearing Much more from you!! This song alone is a wonderful appetizer to the huge and delicious buffet I find that you have already created. Hooray!! Please know that REN is totally responsible for bringing you into my consciousness. Today he dropped a brilliant homage to you and he did a fantastic job. After listening to Ren's mash up of several of your songs, I went to your channel and listened to each of your originals - and Loved them all.. I am over the moon happy!! Thank you, Ren, for this connection to another musical Genius. Great work, Fred. I'm a new Fan!!💜

[elliotharpermusic]

It's rare to find subtle and deeply emotional electronic music. But Fred, you're on another level!! Every track off your album, especially this one, is packed to the brim with a multitude of feelings and raw humanity!

[YuniVRSE]

My best friend... My brother, passed away from an accidental overdose, around three months ago...

we taught each other soo much, we argued, we disagreed.. Above all else we smiled..
I would teach him about rappers/hip hip artists that were truly authentic.
i remember him confining to me that he had really started to find songs he resonated with..
From artists or albums i had recommended..

He was heavy into DMB/EDM music, before i knew him i thought that it was repetitive and bland.
He didn't take it as an attack, he just recommended songs and artists, as i did to him.

I started to understand how dance music connects on a physical level the same way rap connects on a linguistical level.

i was the last person to see him, and that night he showed me stayinit, im not a big fan of lil yachty,
but i felt soo warm because he showed me it specifically, that night, because he wanted to deepen the bond we had.

now whenever i listen to fred again i think of his smile, i forgot his face, i dont want to forget him.
This song brought the image of his face, happy, back to brain..

he was found dead later the same night. i miss him more than ive ever missed anything in my life.

Connor i hope you are at peace and i cant even fabricate a sentence that expresses how much you meant to me.

[NaesLondon]

Best song of the album, been vibing out to this on late night bus rides for a moment

[Bazzinga]

Do you feel like talkin'? (I wonder, not with me but with others?)

I feel like bein' open (but i know i can't)

I feel my thoughts run around each evening(they go all haywire, it's like a storm and by midnight they reside as i fall victim to sleep)

But I'm glad I'm feelin'(there was a time when i couldn't so i'm so glad not to fall back)

I wanna run in there and steal you out(cause I seem to like you only when you talk with me)

Unplug the wires and kiss your mouth(in the most purest form, but i don't think you'd appreciate it)

You don't need another whiteboard evening( i just wished, you for once looked at me and gave me the pen to drew, i don't draw well but for you, with you i would have tried but i was always left with a duster with nothing to clean I guess it was never my job )

But I need you breathin'(and living, living happily)

Before my needs, oh(they are getting selfish)

She's all I need(she is me, i need me, and I need me back, back from you, whom I have unconsciously given myself to)

It won't be long(before it all becomes a memory, a precious one for me and for you probably just another chapter)

And I know you're holding on(to something which I'll never know, no matter how much i wait)

I'm so tired of being strong(i want to be weak and vulnerable too)

But I don't want you to see this face(i want you to remember me as a happy face which made you laugh but I think leaving with no note must have made you bitter but i need this for me)

It's time to be brave (I've been standing here for far too long and I need to build courage to leave)

So I pray for the same thing each evenin'(that we'll find peace and happiness with whoever and wherever that lies)

My baby's healin'(from all the miseries I have felt hoping just for that little happiness)

I found you exploding(the few times we met i was scared to see you again cause you were so puzzling and so human i was scared to see you again and fall even harder)

I found you beautiful(damn your eyes, they'll always be beautiful to me but i wouldn't dare look at them again, i've been standing out here in cold, alone, scared looking at you trying to reach you, you look so warm but somehow i'm never able to reach you, you are inside this warm cosy 'home' surrounded with people that love and care for you and I have just came out of survival mode and forget home I don't even have a house )

I don't know a thing that could feel morе heavy(letting go always has been, i've done this before but this time it's hard probably because i have shunned myself from any form of contact i know it will only hurt more and it's not fair to either me or you I would've have said us but there never existed an 'us' in the first place and i have accepted that just like i will accept that leaving silently is sometimes is for the best)

Babe, I'm ready(to let you go, because even though I know you are not the one but i'm so cold and a fire is a fire)

P.s.- this is to a friend i started to like, like a year ago but i realized it'll never be me last month and i decided to leave quite silently (ghosted him) i know I shouldn't have but sometimes that's the only option left cause a conversation with someone can be really hard when you fear you'll be mocked or wouldn't understood, your mind plays trick and you even start to question their integrity and their memories start to become bad that's when you know you should leave. I just wished i could have talked last time and cleared it out but sometimes it's better to be quiet easier to forget. He'll probably never read this nor would anyone I know irl so I think i vented out what i felt while listening to this song.

[debonairlondon]

I feel a deep connection to this song - as a part of my life I'm trying to let go of. But sometimes it feels like the tie is too strong, like I'll never feel whole again. Like there's a part of me that's forever lost and that went with that person. A month ago I avoided this song like the plague - made sure it couldn't be played on accident on my phone - and today it reignites and hurts just the same. Whoever's reading this, whether you're going through a break up or a tough time. I want you to remember that healing is NOT linear, and that for each time you're feeling down there's more good coming. Sending everyone who came to listen to this strength

[Rfue]

Don't be afraid to show your emotions lads, it's ok!

[danielwisner]

When a person feels like home and they won't let you back inside. Feeling this deep.

[DakotaHusted]

I dont know why, but when I saw that tear something just hit me. It made me realize how real this is is, and I started tearing myself.

[christopherortiz]

This song jus had me crying in the middle of a parking lot thinking about life. If your going thru it its ok. Love you we all are and we all will overcome

[josephjohnson]

We all really do share similar experiences. Like the vibe of being in your place in the middle of the night, all your friends have left after being there all evening, after you were on such a high, and then suddenly alone. You captured it.

[male]

Do you feel like talkin'?
I feel like bein' open
I feel my thoughts run around each evening
But I'm glad I'm feelin'
I wanna run in there and steal you out
Unplug the wires and kiss your mouth
You don't need another whiteboard evening
But I need you breathin

Beg from my knees
She's all I need
It won't be long
And I know you're holding on
I'm so tired of being strong

But I don't want you to see this face
It's time to be brave
So I pray for the same thing each evening
My baby's healin'

Beg from my knees, oh
She's all I need
I know you're holdin' on
And it won't be long
I'm so tired of being strong

I found you еxploding
I found you beautiful
I don't know a thing that could feel more heavy
Babе, I'm ready

[Matt_]

Still hits really hard, i hope you’re doing alright Fred. Stay strong

[sarahcuff]

Stunning. This song has a whole new meaning for me now, a very close friend died recently and she was on life support and listening to the lyrics just touches my heart and makes me cry for her x

[charlesbarclay]

This song and his other song Heavy(me) lives in the same world. What a song 👏🏽

[thaahiro]

Fred, you were brought to me a few months ago with your Marea song and since then you became a daily part of my life and it's beautiful..
Please continue and never stop being yourself! ❤️❤️

[idax]

i love this song so much, as it reminds me that sometimes, its nice to express how we feel, even though it may be that we feel heavy at times. Beautiful, Fred, thank you.

[LC-suth]

Fred I love you !! My brother was in the hospital for 8 months, not knowing if he was going to make it, wondering on a day to day basis.. when can I talk to him again? When can I laugh with him again? This song TUGS on my heart strings . He made it through, and is getting stronger and stronger everyday . Thank you a million for what you create ❤

[ranoveerneogi]

I feel so grateful to have found you, Fred! Your music is powering me through life at the moment with such raw emotions. You've become my everyday jam! Much love to everyone out there.

[EarthBenderMab]

oh Fred again and again and again how do u capture all the pain, all the beauty and wonder in this world and then share it back, , how very draining that must become, but we thank u for for it, for taking all of our deepest happiness and sadness and making ecstatic beauty out of how wonderful this world is just because u are in it, on this frequency.... on a million ones, but im very grateful for the you on this frequency.... thank u again and again...