Jake Hill & Josh A - Su̶i̶cidal Thoughts

Jake Hill & Josh A - Su̶i̶cidal Thoughts

Stream: 'Su̶i̶c̶i̶d̶a̶l̶ Thoughts'

Jake Hill

Josh A

Anime: Mekakucity Actors (AMV)

Lyrics:
[Hook: Jake Hill]
I'm not s**cidal I don't wanna fvcking d!e
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

[Verse 1: Josh A]
Why do I even try?
Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night
Trying to find a new outlet
The devil pounced in
I hear him howling, my vision clouded
Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain
(yuh) Put a bxtch in the coffin, so my family has options
Gonna work till' I'm dead
So that they get the best
Don't wanna set up a bad example cause' kids looking up
Can't leave them in shambles can't make them think clocking out is ok
So fxck s**cide I'm here to stay

[Chorus: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
(nah, nah)
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now

[Hook: Jake Hill]
I'm not s**cidal I don't wanna fxcking d!e
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

[Verse 2: Jake Hill]
One too many bad thoughts inside me
Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice
I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
(Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
Never meant to let you down
I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out
(FXCK)
Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god
I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up
But he called my bluff

[Chorus: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
(nah, nah)
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now

[Outro: Jake Hill]
I'm not s**cidal I don't wanna fxcking d!e
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
(Muffled)
I'm not s**cidal I don't wanna fxcking d!e
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

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[Voidatonic]

*Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright*

[teyhapaipa]

Are you really depressed when you know your not yourself? Like not happy. But I smile in school and laugh. But when I'm alone, I'm a ticking time bomb. I just don't know anymore

[amziah]

Usually don't listen to this type of music, but this song was well written.

[jivk]

Everything from the lyrics to the prod to the vocals to the visuals is fucking amazing, great job idle and everyone who worked on this track!

[rangrcookixxc]

I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

[Verse 1: Josh A]
Why do I even try?
Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night
Trying to find a new outlet
The devil pouncin'
I hear him howling, my vision clouded
Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh)
But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options
Gotta work till' I'm dead
So that they get the best
Don't wanna set up a bad example cause the kids looking up
Can't leave in shambles can't make them think clocking out's ok
So fuck suicide I'm here to stay

[Bridge: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
(nah, man)
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now


[Chorus: Jake Hill]
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

[Verse 2: Jake Hill]
One too many bad thoughts inside me
Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice
I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
(Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
Never meant to let you down
I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out
(Fuck)
Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god
I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up
But he called my bluff

[Bridge: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
(nah, man)
I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down, find my way out of this cell now

[Chorus: Jake Hill]
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

[Outro: Jake Hill]
I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

[Supmousy]

*Depression is like u don't wanna die, but also don't wanna exist*

[NoomGaming]

I've been bumping this all day its dope

[mikawazowski]

I’m a -happy- person, -not- a very sad person.

[bastiliedtk]

I just wanna close my eyes and feel allright

[sealscript]

everyday was same like hell! no more pain, no more love, no more friend just life. nice work

[rose]

I wish I could talk to someone about my suicidal thoughts without them worrying or without affecting there health.

[henri]

this is like a mirror for my thoughts and soul

[elizbeltriunfel]

“Why do I even try?
Why do I even write lyrics about how I’m living the life when I’m battling pain and my demons at night
Trying to find a outlet
The devil pounced in
I hear him howling, my vision clouded
Man I tried to escape but there ain’t no way
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain
(yuh) put a bitch in a coffin, so my family has options
Gonna work till I’m dead
So that they get the best
Don’t wanna set a bad example cause kids looking up”–Josh A

[WOLFGANG]

“I pray to a God that I don’t believe in just to see if I will never wake up, *but he called my bluff* ..” That was the lyrics that hit me the hardest, because of this disease I tend to falter in my faith. However, somehow he manages to give me the strength I need to stay tethered to this earth.

[depressedshit]

Wrote this poem




Her eyes deep black from the lack of sleep,
Her arms deep red from the blade on her bed,
The voices in her head telling her to puke it instead,
Why does she do this every hour?
If anyone sees she blames it on her cat,
Her beauty is unreal she just cant see it,
It starts to bleed oh no what will she do next?
Her 'friends' are worried sick,
Shes on the roof now,

She has no regret for what shes about to do next




Have a good life for all of you still there in 2020

[nathansugden]

'I'm not suicidal I don't want to fucking die, but damn this fucking depression is always by my side, and quite often I feel like dying, sick and tierd of fucking crying'.

[theminecraftsisters]

The guy in the picture is Shintaro Kisaragi from Mekakucity Actorts (I def recommend this anime, its really good)

[CrusadingJello]

Everyone in the comments has apparently drank a depresso-expresso.

[iiixxbuilds]

Those 453 people were crying so much they didnt see the like button becuz of the tears in eyes and they atciadentally pressed dislike button

[i_need_you]

found this song when I was 12/13 and it still hits <3