Beth Crowley- Savior (Official Lyric Video)

Lyric video by Thomas O'Brien (Instagram: @tfobvdrums)
Artwork by Tobey Enworom (Twitter: @WanKenobiTobey)

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Beth Crowley
2690 Cobb Parkway SE
Suite A5, # 109
Smyrna, GA 30080

[amwilder]

For me this song is about toxic relationships, of all sorts, whether its friendships or parent/child relationships or whatever. I know everyone here probably realizes it, but I'll say it anyway: You are not responsible for other people's choices. You can be there for them, but you have to look out for your own mental and emotional health first, because sadly you're probably the only one who will. If they're threatening that by their toxic behavior, its time to let them go. You can't help them, because they don't want your help, they just want to infect you with their pain. Until they want to heal themselves, you can't help them. Sometimes loving them from a distance is what's best. Pray for them, and hope that they make better choices moving forward, so one day you can be in each other's lives again. Lots of love and prayers to everyone struggling right now. God bless.

[TheManyPersonasOf]

Damn shout to my mom. It took me 22 years to realize but my mom is the most horribly narcissistic and manipulative person I’ve ever met. Its officially been a year since I cut her out of my life. My mom had a lot of problems and no real friends. One of her daughters died and the other one is constantly in and out of rehab so I turned into her “last hope”. She’d tell me all the time I was her only friend and the only one who would listen to her and she’d tell me I was wise beyond my years and unload all the troubles adults face that children should never have to think about. But I loved her and I knew she struggled and lot and I wanted to help. So while I was young I carried her baggage around for her. I promise you when I say 90% of the stuff that comes out of her mouth is negative and I’m not exaggerating. But at the same time when I was younger I’d get grounded for things I didn’t do but she was convinced I had. She’d call me a liar and sneaky and a horrible child and all’s I could do was cry and try to tell her that it wasn’t true. That I hadn’t done the things she had accused me of. Like for example we were screaming at each other one day and she called the cops on me because she said I threaten to stab her???? Which I swear on my dead sisters grave I would never harm her or anyone for that matter. But who is the cop supposed to believe? An adult woman or a teenage girl who can’t stop crying long enough to explain her side of things. Not long after that I tried to kill myself and while I was recovering in the hospital she didn’t visit me once. Soon after that I moved in with the man that is now my husband. He taught me to set boundaries with her like telling her that I couldn’t always be an ear for her because I had my own demons I was facing. After that I thought our relationship Improved. When we initially got engaged she acted happy for us. Even offered to pay for half the wedding and I thought we were officially turning a new corner. Three days before the wedding when I text her the final details she texts back letting me know she will not be attending and that I can forget about the money she had promised. It was completely out of the blue. We’d been getting along great until then. I tried to call her but she’d send me to voicemail so my husband called her and she picked up. He had her on speaker phone in the room so I could hear what she was saying. She was telling my husband that I was a pathological liar and that I was using him and stealing his money. She tried to convince him to leave me. Luckily him and I had been best friends for years even before we started dating so he already knew that my mom was a liar. I talked to my maid of honor about it and she said she’d also periodically get calls from my mom telling her lies about me. My maid of honor has known me since we were 6 so she knew better than to listen to anything she had to say but she was afraid to tell me because she didn’t want to ruin my mother and I’s relationship. I even texted my mother after I found out all of that and told her you have one more chance at having a relationship with me. Come to my wedding or don’t expect to see me ever again.


She never showed.




Edit: sorry for the long rant sometimes I have to put out the evils my mom made me suffer through to feel less alone. It had been exactly a year since I sent her that text on September 21st.

[caitlinstarke]

The funny thing is that I don't even have to listen past the first note to know I will adore the music that you create, thank you for being an incredible artist...

[ej]

Beth Crowley is so freaking talented. All of her songs, whether based on a book or real life, are catchy and deep and relatable all at once. I'm a teen author and my dream is that one day I'd write a book good enough for her to write a song about 🥺

[starcycle]

I don't know why but I was associating this song with water, and the rippling uneven words is making me feel a bit better about it XD.

[kaylacarpenter]

This goes out to my mom....this song is perfect for our relationship. Shes a narcissist and I cut her out of my life a month ago because I almost died and I got mad but she blamed me and turned around to make herself the victim...

[lizreed]

This reminds me of my sister. She and I went through hell together, but then she became my own hell. She became almost as abusive and cruel as our biological parents. And I realized that I had to let her go, I had to take her out of my life so that I could be okay. And that was the most painful realization I have ever had. It still pains me, for I remember the few short good years that we had together. Where we had each others back through all of it.

[MahalakshmiSENGA]

“I won't sacrifice myself to make you stronger.” this line is so powerful and I feel like this song is written to This was the state of me few days back. But now I can breathe as I came out of that toxic

[-stargaze]

I've been in a dark place lately and I still constantly had to remind myself that it's okay to have some time for myself to heal before I try to save anyone else, because it won't work out for any of us... And I feel like this song really transmits that idea: It is okay to save yourself sometimes. And if there is someone in your life who can't live with that, they are toxic to you. I'm still learning that lesson myself, but I'm getting there.
Thank you for the beautiful song, amazing as always! I love your work

[caitlinstarke]

Wow...just wow, I needed to hear this and I have come to the realisation that as much as I tried to be the one that he needed, it is not a girls job to destroy herself to bring someone else up when they don't care nor are willing to try

[Choshako]

"Save yourself and finally let me breathe." - That line right there can really sum up what it's like being the significant other of someone with severe depression/personality disorder/other mental illness. As much as you might love them, it can get really draining being their rock so often, to the point they end up becoming a psychic vampire and draining all your emotional/mental energy. And then that's when the resentment starts to build, and then you feel awful for resenting them. But eventually the resentment and exhaustion builds up over time that it overpowers the guilt and even the love for your partner, and you just want to be free of what is now a huge burden instead of a healthy, loving relationship.

[miriamk]

I like the choice of words when referring to the person at hand- "''Cause your mind is a cage", "So wrapped up in your pain", "Save yourself". It's acknowledging that the person is in pain, while also acknowledging that the person singing matters, too.

[ulyssesbutterfly]

I ended a friendship with someone I really loved because it had gotten to this point. I'm still cut up about it and feel massive amounts of guilt but I know I did the right thing and I won't turn back. This song empowers me to stay true to myself on days when that guilt chokes me. Thank you

[allison]

when you relate so much to a song it brings back that relief of being free from a toxic friendship

[chocolatesugar-lovage]

*Who else is reminded of their parents, guardians, parental figures, etc. when they hear this beautiful, comforting message?*
~<3

[hannahdengler]

8 months later and I still listen to this song so much. This song remind me of how toxic relationships are, but mostly how it makes the abused one feel like less and how they feel like they're drowning in their thoughts and emotions while trying to push away.

[BlueRoses-jk]

The first song that really made me feel understood and "not crazy" after a difficult break up. Thank you for this. It was part of what I needed to get up on my feet again, and to better understand the terrible sense of guilt I felt at the time. Listened to it for a while as I was cleaning up the mess he left behind, literally and metaphorically. Thank you, thank you, thank you❤!

[mochikuchi]

Hey dear... your songs has given me strength and motivation everytime I break down. It has helped me in my worst times. I don't know how others fell about your songs but it has always been a source of motivation for me.
Thanks a lot for the amazing songs. May all your dreams come true
~~Your fan forever

[LesbiansMarie]

This. This song is literally the relationship I had with my ex-queer platonic partner. He put me through so much trauma to make himself feel better. He dragged me so far down, and refused to help himself. I showed him my love, and he sucked it all out of me like a parasite.

He doesn’t want to help himself, he just wanted someone to hold his hand through it. He didn’t want to change for himself.

Having to talk him out of suicide nearly every fucking week drained me. And the fact he made me feel bad for my burn out from him and made me isolate myself from other friends because he was mad I didn’t want to spend time with him, it took such a heavy toll on me that I had to complete cut him out and jump ship. Everyone who knew him jumped ship with me.

I spiral due to the things he did to me. I’m just glad I was finally able to make the nightmare I mistook as a dream end.

[kristiroball]

Beautiful song as always.
Honestly one of the best singers and deserves so much more love. 💜