guardin - geronimo (prod. 93feetofsmoke) (music video)

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and now i'm a ghost idk if you're hearing this

[guardinmusic]

lyrics

don't do it for them
do it for yourself maybe
disguising the truth
convincing myself they hate me
are you really there
or am i just talking to myself
i'll do it again
i'll stay up and watch the sunrise
on top of the shed
i wish i could stay here all night
i don't understand
why is it always just like this

i miss drinking until 6am
with all of my friends
even ones i just met
hey owen i hope that you're listening man
you helped me get outta my bedroom again
i was on the verge of the end of it all
but nobody knew at all
and i wish that i could get stuck in the past
back before we started moving so fast
standing this still is a choice that won't last
and neither will we so i guess it's a wrap
from here i see this so clearly
at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings

(at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings x2)

i had everything mapped to a t
but everything here isn't quite as it seems
there's blood everywhere from the heart on my sleeve
a permanent fix yeah i wanted to leave it
all behind me
cauterizing
the thread on my wings so i'm no longer flying
help
i'm trying to climb out this hell
but it's hard to talk when i lack
all the skills that i need to get outta my shell
i'm not scared to jump so just please don't come near me
when i hit the bottom is when they'll start cheering
and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you're hearing this

and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you hear me
and now i'm a ghost oh hello can you hear me

[elijahmichael]

Guardin I hear you. You don't need to hit the bottom for us to start cheering. I loved your last album because it was a sign of recovery and growth because it was happy! You don't need to write sad music all the time in fear that we will leave. I'm not going anywhere. We're growing with you. Like you said, gardens are always changing and growing, just like your music :) so guard it well

[Jyshmusic]

My favorite artist forever. I’ve never resonated so much with an artist/band in my entire life as much as you. Genuinely feels like you’re writing all these songs about my life lol. My biggest inspiration for my music and my life. I seriously wouldn’t be where I am today without you. Since solitary and for the rest of my life 🖤

[DubMash]

"I'm trying to climb out this hell
But it's hard to talk when I lack all the skills that I need to get out of my shell"

Wow. I had to pause and relisten to that line. I've never heard someone describe this so perfectly in a song. I resonate with this so much.

[dannymaiden]

Sick way to end Halloween night

*edit* I LOVED IT

[sufferplenty]

Carnival is such a perfect setting for this song though, especially if you ever went to one as a kid.

[Specops]

Thank you for everything Nick so happy you continue to show us ur creativity and thoughts happy Halloween ❤

[carsonguth]

Gonna be here till i pass away been 5 years of my life youve helped ❤🙏🏼

[blacksheep_music]

Don't do it for them, do it for yourself, maybe
Disguising the truth, convincing myself, they hate me
Are you really there, or am I just talking to myself?
I’ll do it again, I'll stay up and watch the sunrise
On top of the shed, I wish I could stay here all night
I don't understand, why is it always just like this?

[Verse 1]
I miss drinking until six a.m.​
With all of my friends, even ones I just met
Hey Owen, I hope that you’re listening, man
You helped me get outta my bedroom again
I was on the verge of the end of it all
But nobody knew at all
And I wish that I could gеt stuck in the past
Back before wе started moving so fast
Standing this still is a choice that won't last
And neither will we, so I guess it's a wrap
From here, I see this so clearly
At the edge of the world, still in fear of my feelings
[Bridge]
(At the edge of the world, still in fear of my feelings)
(At the edge of the world, still in fear of my feelings)

[Verse 2]
I had everything mapped to a T
But everything here isn't quite as it seems
There's blood everywhere from the heart on my sleeve
A permanent fix, yeah, I wanted to leave
It all behind me
Cauterizing the thread on my wings so I'm no longer flying
Help, I'm trying to climb out this hell
But it's hard to talk when I lack all the skills that I need to get outta my shell
I’m not scared to jump, so just please don’t come near me
When I hit the bottom is when they'll start cheering
And now I’m a ghost, I don't know if you're hearing this

[Outro]
(And now I'm a ghost, I don’t know if you hear me)
(And now I'm a ghost, oh, hello, can you hear me?)
(And now I'm a ghost, I don't know if you hear me)
(And now I'm a ghost, oh, hello, can you hear me?)
(And now I'm a ghost, I don't know if you hear me)
(And now I'm a ghost, oh, hello, can you hear me?)
(And now I'm a ghost, I don't know if you hear me)

[Thighgod]

I'm sure you didn't start making music with the intention of becoming impactful for so many people, but thank you for doing it. Been listening to your music for 4 years and words can't describe how much admiration I hold for you, never change :)

[JEOZ]

Happy Halloween we all love you so much who knows you probably saved some lifes, I love you we all do <3

[matthewfilo]

I absolutely love your music and overall vibe, thank you for all your music

[HyperNovington]

Watching your journey had been amazing. When someone asks who my favorite band is I always tell them it's actually an artist named Guardin. So many nights in my room spent to your albums. Thank you for everything you do and all your emotion and effort you pour into your music.

[lostkidforever]

just listening to this isn’t enough, i need this song imported into my brain tissue

[Archives.]

Your music is blissful therapy.
#1 Emotional rapper, ppl Need your music. Never stop.

[Stinkyjank]

Even the shit I've been through and all the money I've lost your songs never get old. Keep it up man. I hope u are doing well. Make sure to drink water. We love ya homie b

[LucasAlfa.]

I may be the only fan from Costa Rica, come one day, I would like to take a selfi with you, keep going you are one of the best !!!

[RicFlairDayZ]

This deserves so much more recognition.

[aidannorthup]

Love your music, it’s always resonated with me especially this song. Dropping out of college and trying to get through life with all my friends not around and doing their own thing. I find myself missing the times we’d have house parties and I was around all my close friends and even some strangers, drinking until 6am. Wishing to be stuck in the past in that moment where everything felt right. I tried so hard to convince myself it’d be like that forever but now I’m back home doing nothing, I know what to do to live a successful life but I have no ambition because the people I wanted to be around me either don’t want to or are off doing their own thing. Having everything mapped to a t in your head, hoping it’d be that way but it just not.

[christiansapienza]

So head to have found your work a few years ago and this is one the most beautiful songs I’ve heard. From happy to sad to retrospective music we support and love you Guardin