The Different Types of Ego Death | Levels of Ego Death Explained

In this video, I explain how there are different levels of ego death ranging from small, partial deaths of the ego we experience everyday to ego suppression all the way to total loss of all sense of self and experiencing the nature of absolute infinity.

[mrsrogershood]

I yelled out “I don’t want to die” during my ego death not knowing this was happened I lost all identity Rebuilding now it’s great keep going

[zackname]

I've realized something. in 2019 I had a terrible argument with my father, we reconciled a few days later but regardless, the experience was awful. In the middle of the argument I felt lost, I felt as if my sense of who I was began to disintegrate. I walked out of my house and just started running, as I let something else inside of me take the control, the running turned into a full on sprint.

Now if you've ever exercised seriously, whether it be a hard set of squats, a competitive distance race, or sprinting 100m it's likely you understand the feeling of disappearing while pushing yourself to the max. The exact feeling is nearly impossible to fully comprehend unless you are experiencing it, the music blasting in your earbuds at full volume fades away, you don't care about the clothes your wearing, your pets, friends, family members all become completely irrelevant, the only thing that truly matters is what you're doing during that specific period of time. Even coming out of the hard set or event requires you to catch your breath re-associate yourself with real world, and it's likely that the first thing that will return to your conscious mind is going to be related to what you just did.
The dissolution that came from the pain of the argument combined with me letting go when I was trying to distract myself through physical exertion resulted in an ego death. I didn't know what it was until very recently when I decided to take a 2g of mushrooms and experienced ego separation. After taking the 2g, I was engrossed in existentialism and understanding as much as possible about the psychedelic experience. I was able to connect the intense emotions of the argument and the nothingness I felt during the sprints to the very similar feelings of ego separation during the trip.
During my ego death I didn't communicate with higher beings, I didn't hallucinate, my ego was simply destroyed, because I was unprepared for it I legitimately was close to committing suicide, the intense feelings of not understanding who I was and why we can only exist in conjunction with periods of terrible suffering made me question reality itself and I wanted to permanently escape. I wanted to cease to exist, I couldn't even stand the thought of going to sleep to let the moment pass because that alone would not have been enough, I would still have to open my eyes and return to reality. Nearly everything I've read, watched or heard on ego death seemed to relate to exactly with what I was going through at the time.
For some reason now (after the trip) when I meditate (I didn't start meditating until a few days before my trip) I find it easy to slip into a higher state of consciousness where my ego suppresses, I don't really view anything as positive or negative, I see everything from an objective point of view.
In one session of meditation, I was able to come to the conclusion that I need an extended break from cannabis, because I was using it to hide negative feeling rather than dealing with them and it was begging to have adverse effects on my life. This is something I've casually thought about before, and have even criticized others for not being able to realize in themselves, but until I saw it from the objective POV that I did, I was unable to analyze my situation for what it was.

The interesting thing is afterwards, I didn't search anything up about marijuana, but a song that I didn't even particularly like seemed to be stuck in my head. I've had it saved on my Spotify account for months despite only listening to it all the way through once and skipping it every other time it came on. After I listened to the song I found a new enjoyment for it. When I searching up the lyrics and meaning, I found out that the artist wrote the song about a negative relationship with cannabis that he was using to escape something he was struggling with. In addition to this, my YouTube feed, was flooded with videos of people talking about their similar experience with cannabis, and I was in utter shock, it was as if everything aligned for me perfectly.
When the time is right I plan on taking a higher dose of mushroom sto explore the experience of ego suppression - loss - dissolution even further from a much more understanding and prepared perspective. On a separate occasion I also plan on taking a high dose of cannabis with pretty much no tolerance to the substance to see if I can have a spiritual experience with it as well.

[KimberleySamantha]

Beautifully described! Only thing I would like to add is that you don't need meditation or psychedelics to have an ego death! Studying narcissism, quantum physics and human history did it for me! Never used any psychedelic before, and only started meditating after my ego death.

[divino]

I'm watching this while tripping
You open your life by your thoughts

[saeidakbari]

I agree that on psychedelics, we can somehow grasp the concepts of infinity (or at least seeming like we do), but that doesn't by any means point to something like an afterlife. Just as this molecule drenches our brain in neurotransmitters, we experience the effects, and we feel as if we are unified with the universe; other times when our brain activity significantly slows down (either by drugs or during sleep), we lose all sense of awareness as well.

So, even if it actually is fascinating and eye-opening, it's still the influence of a drug, and the increased activity between various regions of the brain is observable from outside (which is also the case for people with synaesthesia condition). Together with the apparent loss of consciousness, it just reinforces the idea of a materialistic point of view. Confirming the lack of any experience after death.


Also, in our "normal" state of consciousness, we continuously think and form ideas that look pretty correct and true, yet later realize they were flawed. During sleep: the same! Even we can't distinguish sleep from being awake, but when we do wake up, some of the normal and sane-looking ideas we had in sleep are revealed to be nonsensical. So why do we think that psychedelics show us the other "reality"? Of course, they tend to look like they're pretty real, but what guarantee is there for us to regard them as real?


Don't get me wrong though; I still think psychedelics are very useful. They are a great way to have an internal conversation and powerful introspection to reflect our thoughts and feelings, increase our creativity, boost our sense of love, reality, and overall happiness. Still, they are not a magical door to some other "realm", hidden from us, full of truth.

[ragingbullog]

had an ego death off 75ug of acid and weed
i started closing my eyes and i saw something blurred laid over my eyelids. i started to close my eyes more and more, felt like i was losing my body. the more my eyes closed, the more the image became clear.
the moment i fully closed my eyes, the image became 100% clear, where as i was actually opening my eyes.
it felt as if i was reborn or jumped timelines, ive never heard someone else talk about this kind of experience

[LinkinParkEver]

What I hope to happen when I die is to become some sort of immortal ghost that can fly everywhere in the universe at unlimited speed if necessary, that's how I picture the awareness continuing its journey

[grimyosei]

i took 3gs of shrooms for my first time, i was not in a good mindset and i was tripping with my abusive ex boyfriend. i had a really bad trip i didn’t know how to handle any of it and he definitely wasn’t good to be around. i just assumed i was feeling the affects of our relationship and how detrimental they were to me. but now i think i’m stuck in ego death. i recently did molly just for fun and it’s made my problems 10x worse. i’m lost and confused and scared, i know i’m not alone and i know so many people feel this way too. but i’m scared.

[cassbaker]

i experienced ego death last night on lsd and i was fully convinced for 5 hours that i fried my brain, i was gone, and that i was going to have to kill my self because i would never be normal again. my boyfriend helped me through it for 8 hours until it was finally over, i will marry that man.

[toolazytothinkofaname]

Never had a straight up ego death, I’ve had a bit of ego suppression every time I’ve tripped, even on lower doses I’ve felt it a bit. It’s (in my opinion) calming in a way because I feel like there’s a weight lifted off my chest because I feel like I’m less important than I usually think I am. It can be scary, but it’s also weirdly relaxing to be able to let go of who I am and realize that I don’t need to live up to my and other people’s expectations of me. I can just exist with way less sense of purpose whatsoever. It’s hard to explain but it’s a cool experience. I’m honestly kind of scared to have a full on ego death but when I’m less of a beginner I will. Something about fully letting go of my sense of self scares me though, it’s unfamiliar and was enough to make me feel anxious on 100-150 ug doses. And I know that’s practically a threshold for ego death experiences. One day though.

[joanncarbo]

yessss supporting my psychonaut community <3

[izzytheaussie]

still 0 dislikes crazy!, great video as all of them are really informative and accurate

[miguelgrohmannhernandez]

Great video as always, looking forward to your next one

[ivanlopez]

Amazing vid all your videos are great ! I’m glad to have found your channel thank you.

[hommhommhomm]

The ego would want to turn levels of ego death into a competition

[hansenmarc]

1:10 “what many of us don’t realize is that we experience ego death almost every day, just in much smaller, hardly even noticeable forms”

[mightymate]

I felt the absolute infinity state my first time on acid but I was high too, it was extremely crazy and I had lots of suicidal thoughts After the whole trip but I’m beginning to recover

[MilnaAlen]

I used to have depersonalization so bad that I experienced ego death a few times. Luckily the longest it ever went on was few hours. It was definitely weird to try to go about my day while having no sense of self at all. It was like I had suddenly woken up in someone else's body and had to fake being them. Luckily trauma therapy fixed that lol. I still slip into trance easily but at least I can snap out of it instead of having no control.

[MBEG]

Ive taken acid tons of times, always house parties or raves. Just go into it knowing youre trying to party and youll have fun. All this other crap about "realizations" or whatever is happening because youre tripping and taking yourself way too seriously. Youre real, you exist, thats it.

[coolman]

Just had an ego death, taking LSD first time lmao around 300-400ug(ik a lot for a first timer, only thing that kept me sane was me and my brother talking, Ive always done shrooms even thoe they’re SOO different), it all started with “who are you” have nothing that is me anymore & I’m 19...it’s been 2 days now...I’m kinda of getting in the groove of things. It’s kinda fun because I can be anything I want now ...I don’t have to be one thing for my life ...I can change everyday and it makes me feel good...it also feels good cus my mind is extremely clear ....and I can understand my emotions even more...I stay in the present more and I’m conscious ...it took me 3 hrs after the trip to fully come to terms with it but I’m glad I did...I basically died 3 times, it’s just weird cus I am also spiritual and an artist and i don’t wanna do anything, like yoga, mediate or draw or something...cus I have no identity to it but I always tell myself . I can be anything I want so just pick something, if you don’t like it anymore...just leave ...cus the ego is the imagination of the self ...I can imagine myself to who I want to be ...

After watching this I tbink im inbetween an ego death and ego suppression, cus I look at myself as a soul in a human meat body, and I look at a lot of things as “a thing that I named, so I started calling things whatever I wanted as a joke ...cus it can be what I want, but I did really m myself or who I was...it’s hard to remember who I was or why I even cared to display myself in that way but I know my name even tho ...it’s not my name