The honest truth about How I stopped OBSESSING OVER FOOD.

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00:00 - Intro
1:35 - Disclaimers
2:15 - Obsession
4:17 - Reality check.
4:57 - Everything changed when i did this.
6:20 - The Timeline
6:40 - Instead of tracking calories, track THIS.
8:20 - How I structure my meals
9:20 - Is this missing for you?
10:54 - Dealing with Triggers
12:24 - Thanks to Thrive Market :)
14:45 - Something Controversial.
16:28 - Physical Appearance vs. Wellbeing
17:48 - One thing i REFUSE to do.
18:51 - My alternative to DIETING
20:04 - The hardest part.
22:31 - I needed to rethink THIS.
24:24 - a word about BODY IMAGE
26:46 - The root of the problem
27:36 - A huge point of pride.

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[Caroline_Winkler]

This was probably the hardest video for me to make so far. I have to say that I debated for so long whether I wanted to talk about this publicly. There are a lot of reasons for that, but some of the big ones include acknowledging that what works for one person, may fall flat with another. It's a ridiculously, highly personal topic, and the most important thing you can do for yourself is to get really CURIOUS about your own needs, your own body's reactions, and your physical and emotional state.

Ultimately though, I chose to move forward with releasing this video because I truly felt hung out to dry when I was younger. I felt so completely on my own in this arena, with "advice" that felt really inactionable. To this day, disordered eating is rampant and feel incredibly hard to treat. Lots of the advice around it feels very antiquated to me. And when I encounter a person who is obviously struggling, I kind of want to cry.

I hope this video is of some comfort and some relief. I do not have all the answers. Pick and choose what works for you. My heart is in this one.

ps. If you didn't make it to the end of video announcement, I will be taking some time off for personal reasons in the coming weeks. So this will be the last video for a few weeks. However I WILL be back and I will be more annoying than ever.

If you really, really miss me in the meantime, I will still be on YouTube over on my podcast channel 😉 (Heads up, the podcast can be much more R rated in moments. Mostly we talk about career, family and boyfriends, but also sex and other non-child friendly topics. So just a heads up that it IS a different experience from my main channel).


Happy Holidays, y'all. Be safe ❤

[GracieChapmanYess]

I only track my veggies, the more the better! Makes me feel accomplished and healthy

[mmm]

Something I personally needed to learn was that hunger doesn’t always feel like “hunger”… sometimes it feels like being abnormally irritated or stressed or tired. 😅

[tbstoller]

I found this video at the perfect time for me. With all the talk about Ozempic, people kept saying that the "food chatter stopped." After repeatedly hearing this phrase, I finally realized that I spend A LOT of time planning what I will eat, might eat, should eat etc. I asked my husband to take over half the cooking and he happily plans the same meals every week--who does that? Not me. I thought he was just lazy but I don't think he thinks about food very much(!).

We started using a meal kit delivery and it was weirdly freeing because I thought about my meals once, and then it just showed up. I don't want to keep doing the meal kits but I have been wondering about just choosing two weeks of meals and rotating them to eliminate all the thought that goes into it. Still thinking this through.

[too_tired_for_this]

“Casually disordered” is a great phrase. I have disordered thinking around food, but not to the extent of an actual disorder. I really wish I could reduce my sugar intake, and increase my veggies.

[nancyd]

Such an important message! My youngest son (31 now) does not have an eating disorder, however he does struggle with other mental health challenges. About 4 years ago he said the most profound thing to me. He said, "Mom you have no idea how hard it is to fight your mind everyday." So heartbreaking! Thank you for sharing this struggle and being so honest. You are inspiring others to keep fighting. Enjoy your time off!

[marionannmacredie]

💞 I’m 74 and I didn’t get to the place you talk about until I was 65. The relief is enormous and the journey is harder than anyone can imagine. In terms of loveability….i put my photo into one of those apps that change your age. When I saw myself as a 6 year old and as a 14 year old I felt love for myself for the first time and felt such acceptance of myself and my past life. When my photos pop up now I think “oh there she is…” 💞💞💞

[joobcave]

THANK YOU FOR ADRESSING THE DON'T EAT IN THE EVENING/BIG DINNERS SCOLDS
I can't get my Mom to stop telling me this and sending me articles and and I'm like you don't understand that part of my hard-won system for being normal with food is by just giving myself what I have always wanted most which is a goddamn late night snack lol

[AdamRaymonda]

Declaring “I’m not a professional of LITTERALLY OF ANY KIND. THERE IS LITTERALLY NOTHING I’M A PROFESSIONAL AT” with ever increasing volume is the best kind of disclaimer around

[kaitlincrane_]

YES. Thank you, I think the message is 100% that you aren’t allowed to care about how you look after you have an ED. God, the way people look at me when I care about how I look because I used to have an ED. I’m recovered y’all. I just want to feel like I look like “me”. This was one of the most realistic videos I’ve ever seen on eating disorder recovery. I consider myself fully recovered from my ED (I’m almost 25, diagnosed around 15, so 10 years) and this is exactly what I would say helped me as well.

[Sarah-qsog]

I hope you’re really proud of yourself, Caroline. ❤

[BRBRidingMyHorse]

I am almost 43 and have been dealing with this for over 30 years. Imagine all the other things I could have accomplished if this didn't take up so much space in my brain.

[violetsdigest]

I don’t comment often on videos, but I got emotional watching this one. After almost 10+ years, I’ve also reached a comfortable point in my life where I’m finally happy with my progress on food obsession. In my culture, food is the pinnacle of connection. And commenting on physical appearance and weight was as common as saying how are you?

Every point here you said resonated with me and things I came to realize myself. This video is very real and very thoughtfully planned out. It’s such a hard topic to discuss on the internet with strangers now putting you under a microscope. Thank you for your bravery ❤

[susanfrary]

I am 68 and have had eating disorders since age 19. So, girls, deal with this shit earlier rather than later.

[benconnolly]

Makes me a little emotional to see someone talking so honestly and empathetically about this. Overeating and obsession with food has caused me so much shame and guilt, and cost me a lot of money, too, which adds to the stress, which makes me cave even more. It's been eating at my conscience ever since I moved out five years ago.
I won't even say that I'll guarantee I can find something useful for myself from this video, or that I'm renewed in a sense of inspiration to get better; I am just so happy that you found a path out of it. Love ❤

[secretscarlet]

This hits me hard. I love how you admitted that you’re not a professional in all things and how you felt unlovable, because it echoes how I feel with myself. Thanks for being vulnerable and putting things into words that I couldn’t.

[ellies]

In my experience (I’m 57) the wounds of eating disorders heal but the scars remain. There will always be a tender spot emotionally, but, given the opportunity, the body can take over the day to day management of eating. In fact, people comment on how carefree I appear to be with food and yet still remain a healthy weight. It did not come easily and I protect that tender spot ferociously. Nobody and nothing is ever taking me back there again. You are all loveable and you’re worth is not based on how your body looks or performs. Now we just need to persuade the Media of this.

[lillybits]

I think of all the things that one can obsess over, food (and the eating of it) must be one of the most difficult, because you have to eat to SURVIVE for goodness sakes. I like how you shared your story while stressing the fact that this is what you found works for you, and it may not work for everyone. Thank you for sharing. 😊❤😊

[Kylie-Ann]

You described me to a T. I started keto for medical reasons (recommended by my doctor) and it did wonders for my medical condition, but all the restriction gave me an eating disorder. During the 5 years I was keto, it somehow spiraled to me eating 1200 calories a day and obsessing over food. I planned vacations around food, I lost friendships, it almost ruined my relationship with my boyfriend.

It took me a long time to realize that when it came to my overall health, the keto diet was doing more harm than good. Sure, it alleviated my medical symptoms, but it gave me a slew of disordered eating symptoms I never had before. So I stopped January of this year. It’s been a full year and I’m still learning to trust my hunger signals and not feel guilty about “unbalanced” days. Looking back, I’m in a much better place now than I was a year ago. My medical issue is still under control, even though I eat desserts and bread now. I learned that a balanced life is medicine too, and that has been so freeing. ❤️

[sundaydawn]

I downloaded this because I've never felt so seen or understood 🙌 im going to listen to it when i feel alone or unlovable or misunderstood ❤ thank you friend