MY BIGGEST FEARS 🎨 Studio Sessions Ep. 11

Today's video will be a little more vulnerable and honest. I'll be sharing some of my biggest fears and causes of stress as a full time artist. Hope everyone watching this out there can find it relatable :)

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Materials I used in this video:
♥ Oil Paint from Gamblin Artist Colors
♥ Brushes from Royal & Langnickel
♥ Gessobord

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INSTAGRAM ▶ @happydartist

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Music: Memories - Sappheiros (Royalty Free)

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♥ If you want to send me snail mail :) ♥

Happy D. Artist
P.O. Box 99623
Emeryville, CA 94662

[KorruptedSky]

The fear of people judging my works is what stops me from posting my art often :L it's the reason I spend upwards of 60+ hours on some pieces, always trying to make it better even if I've lost motivation on the piece and it kinda just burns you out.

[ColoredMud]

Right now I create art for me, and social media and YouTube is just a way to share it; although I don't have many followers so if I ever do gain more, I hope to stay true to myself.
Love the flowers in this piece by the way.

[ArtyshilsArt]

This is most definitely one of the most relatable video for me being a fellow artist !! Specially the burn out part as I can completely understand that we are literally never shutting down, even when we are not working !! That happens to me too soooo much !! But this is what we have chosen for our lives 😊 And this is the way being self employed works may be 😝
It's always great to hear your thoughts !!
Big hugs and happy creating 🎨🎨🎨🎨

[lisado]

I am quite young but i do think about my future a lot. I am scared of what i want to do in life. I want to do anything related to art, doing something that i can enjoy. Unfortunately, life is hard as an artist. I am scared of my own future. I don't want to choose a career that i don't enjoy but i also don't want to live a life in constant stress about being financially stable. I also feel like i'm wasting my intelligence/opportunities if i chose to do fine arts. So it's either living a comfortable life and not liking my job, or living with my dream career but live in fear/stress. who knows.

[cieraforeva]

I'm a more recent subscriber and everytime you post, it reminds me of why I subscribed in the first place. Everything is so new and original with you and it's all a young aspiring artist needs. ^^

[hannahsnowart]

I really relate to you in this video and in your last - social media is both great and terrifying for an artist...
It makes me feel like I'm getting nowhere fast. But having a small community is also very motivating!
But I always admire your honesty on these topics - so so inspiring as always Happy D <3

[maivu]

Best video yet! I loved the way you articulated on the struggles of an artist, which is especially beneficial for someone like me, who is still deciding if I should be making the choice to make art my career. Personally, I get so afraid to share my art online I often don't post anything at all. This makes no sense since I am usually more than willing to share my sketchbook with others offline.

[kahlil.alcala]

This literally an explanation of where I'm currently in as an artist. Whenever I try to create art, it seems like social media is what I take in consider mainly in creating it. There's this question in my head asking, "Will my audience/followers like this?" "Will it have a lot of engagement and activity in my acoount?". It's mostly not about what I want to do but what will do well in my social media. Well, I guess I should be glad that I'm aware of my situation and I hope I can still refresh my mentality when it comes to creating art and just start creating art for the sake of creating art and not for social media. My current solution to this problem is to not post some recent artworks, this way I remind myself that it's not a necessity to do so.

[WhitneyPaigeArt]

Right now, I'm juggling full time job, making art, being a first time home buyer of a house that needs a lot of work. I also just moved from a big city to rural mountaintop so there are a lot of changes going on and new stresses, and I think the biggest fear that comes from all the juggling is that I'm not making time for the people who care about me.

[ElysiaLloydJonesArt]

Right now everyone I know is going off to uni and my friends are succeeding in art so I feel like i'm failing because im not doing as well as them, I think sometimes I forget i'm human and go about things at my own pace and watching videos like this and realising that even artists that I look up have similar fears as me really lessens that stress and makes me feel so much better, so thank you for opening up to us like this, Love your work!

[ValkiriStudio]

Thank you for sharing your concerns and fears so openly Happy, it is tough being an independant artist because you have to wear so many hats! That being said I think something that could really alleviate some of the stress you are feeling, is getting an assistant or intern to help you out with managing your shop and social media, it would allow you more time to focus on your paintings and the things that you enjoy :)

[hannahsyrup]

thanks so much for sharing all this with us, I know it's probably hard to talk about stuff like this but I really appreciate it :) for me right now my biggest fear with art is that I'm going to give it up completely, I've hardly been making art at all lately because I have had no motivation or inspiration of any kind. so I'm worried that one day I'm just going to stop completely without really realizing it, but hopefully that won't happen. thank you again for the video, it was super relatable and helpful, and the painting was gorgeous like always :)

[tigeatoray]

It's really weird...I always see accounts with large followings and think "I wish I had that many people watching and enjoying my art" but whenever I get more attention than usual on my work, it makes me uncomfortable. I fear getting an ego, and forgetting that likes/comments/followers don't change a person's value.

Thank you for making this video :) I strive to be as down-to-earth and humble as you are <3

[Owlvine]

I really appreciate your honesty and opening yourself up to share some of your biggest fears. We all have them! I have found your channel and work so inspiring, and watch everything you put up now.
I'm an art marker, I'm in my late 20s and am just coming out of a long and painful creative block. I use to create all the time when I was young, and then my fear of not being perfect got the better of me. It's something I battle with everyday, it's getting a little easier as time goes on, and I do my work anyway. I feel like I'm almost starting from scratch as I find my artists voice and style, my skills are slowly building again.
My fear is I'll never be "good enough" (whatever THAT looks like), and my other major fear is that I'll give into fear and stop creating again.
Thank you for sharing what you do, thank you for being vulnerable and honest. Watching you videos helps inspire me to continue on my artists path, rather than just dreaming about it. <3

[ArtbyLysa]

I appreciate the honesty and thoughtfulness in this video. I suppose people most often view working from home or being self employed as a luxury. I hold a stressful "square job" in the medical field and have been guilty of those thoughts. I never thought about what my life would be like as a full time artist with my workspace in my my home, a few footsteps away...taunting me...constantly reminding me that I should be working in there! I can now appreciate how exhausting and difficult it must be to never be able to leave work "at work" and to always be thinking that there's more to do. I give you big props for being able to recognize this, convey this, and for finding a balance. Thank you so much for sharing ☺

[giaonguyen]

I have a love hate relationship for social media. To be honest, I procrastinate a lot in every aspect of my life, art is just the only one thing that I have the most patience with but it's not enough. I started posting arts on Instagram last year and I draw so much more than I ever did. 30% of me is for the desire to get notice and 70% is sharing my love for art online, sharing what I call "my child", something I would never get bore of doing. The 30% encourage me to stop procrastinating and draw, I stopped being so lazy and uninspired to sketch in my sketchbook and try to sketch/draw/paint so I can share those hardworks. But recently, like since February until now, I have a major art burned out. I can't draw even I want to draw, I feel bad for something I can't draw (it's mild now thankfully) I have lost like 10+ followers that I constantly gained before and after when I finally decided to take a break (for a small acc, that's a lot guys) I felt bad for not posting, I feel like I need to draw in order to please my followers, I feel like I have to draw something controversial to be notice even it's not my things. Social media encourage me to do more art, but it can easily let you down when you feel like you just had to please the audience and not your artist self.

[FearlessFighterAkida]

honestly my fear is just not being able to make it, especially since I'm in school for art and to do games. for my age, it feels that i'm so far behind everyone else for what I'm supposed to be doing and that I'm just not improving or getting where I need to be fast enough.

[hopebrash]

my biggest fear came true just a year ago. I got really sick and took a small break from art while trying to figure out how best to take care of myself. and then when I started drawing again it was like those ten years I spent building my own style and working hard to make my drawing looks a certain way didn't even exist. so I had to start from square one again. it was sad in the beginning and made me frustrated. but I started following you and your so honest and upbeat and true to yourself that I wanted to keep going. every day I draw is a day that reminds me im not as good as I was but at the same time every day I get to rediscover things in art that I missed the first time around and I get to build a whole new style. so thank you happy d for being you and sharing your talent with us and I hope your around for a very long time.

[meobeutter]

I really love the flowers in this piece they look so serene and fragile and slightly like a lunamoth which looks really incredible

[LinesAndCursives]

I feel you're pain. I hope my channel grows, but getting past those "need to post" feelings are hard when the fun in it is sucked out by overthinking about the audience. I love you're work. ❤️❤️ and your honesty. Thank you. Glad to know I'm not alone.