silver spoon demo - erin lecount

thanku for the love and kindness you have shown this song.
i love u.

written & produced by me
video filmed & edited by me
:)

lyrics:
i’ll watch and learn from afar
i’ll pull the weeds from my heart and
put lipstick on for your family party
in the garden

i stare
at the house you were brought up in
all the photographs and door frames are wooden
i wish i’d known you when you were younger
before lovers

cause i’ve changed my accent
and i gave a false name
i hope i throw a party
in a house of my own some day
when you were a kid
you’d come in through the back gate
your folks left a light on
in case you get home late

and i bet you grew up
eating at the table
fed love from silver spoons
reasons to be grateful
you ask about kids
i don’t know if i’m able
i bet you grew up
being asked how your day was

i bet you grew up
grazing your knees
but the fall wasn’t fatal
like it was for me
we’re the product of love
that we do not receive
i’ll corrupt every branch
of this family tree

i spilt the good wine
i panicked
a disaster
a knee jerk reaction
then everyone around us stats laughing
is that how it’s meant to happen?

your mother said
i’m always welcome
to visit
to take second helpings
i said no thanks
i’m so full on resentment
that i learnt to fend for myself but

you were sweet
i got mean
and when we fight
i refuse to eat
you’re sensible
i’m hating it
what a good job
that your mother did

you were kind
i was cruel
in another life
maybe i was you
and i grew up
into something good
somebody who could swallow love

i bet you grew up
eating at the table
fed love from silver spoons
reasons to be grateful
you ask about kids
i don’t know if i’m able
i bet you grew up
being asked how your day was

i bet you grew up
grazing your knees
but the fall wasn’t fatal
like it was for me
we’re the product of love
that we do not receive
i’ll corrupt every branch
of this family tree

silver spoons
and butter knives
living hand to mouth
i’m getting by
your love is spreading thin
but my medicine goes down alright

silver spoons
and butter knives
living hand to mouth
i’m getting by
your love is spreading thin
but my medicine goes down alright

silver spoons
and butter knives
living hand to mouth
i’m getting by
your love is spreading thin
but my medicine goes down alright

silver spoons
and butter knives
living hand to mouth
i’m getting by
just feed me love and give it time
oh maybe in another life

[pasteldaisy]

"when you are not fed love on a silver spoon you learn to lick it off knives" -Lauren Eden.

[Krysojala]

This song 😱. It so perfectly describes how lonely you feel/out of place when you’re surrounded by people who have loving parents

[luna_writes]

"I'll corrupt every branch of your family tree" .... damn.

[ejl.obando]

It’s criminal that this is isn’t in Spotify so I can loop this on hours end. 😢

[talandirathemuggle]

You somehow re-traumatised me and fixed me in one go. Thank you.

[nethmiperera]

i just saw an arcane edit on tiktok with au powder and jinx to this and i dont know whether i'll ever know happiness again, awesome song

[Daysofdaizy]

“AND I GREW UP INTO SOMETHING GOOD SOMEBODY WHO COULD SWALLOW LOVE” IM IN TEARS😭😭😭😭😭

[booksanddresses]

The sickening obsession of wishing you were like their perfectly wrapped, healthy family. 🥺

[kathleen_oneill]

“Your mother said im always welcome to visit to take second helpings i said no thanks im so full of resentment that i learnt to fend for myself” 💔😩😭

[tsukishima]

I'm the silver spoon in this song that fell in love with someone who can relate to this song, it gave me so much perspective and understanding about their situation. Just gonna love them earnestly until they can acceptingly swallow love. It's kinda hard sometimes but hey as a "silver spoons fed" i was raised by parents who taught me to be patient.

[Lilayyyyyyyyy]

I placed this brick but I didn’t expect it to be thrown at my face like this

[Megzor_]

Absolutely adore this song, I have CPTSD as a result of childhood trauma and sometimes you really don't realise the other life exists until you witness it. I thought it was only in movies.

[nobodygnomes]

I am the spoon-fed child being sung about and somebody dear to me who was not one sent this to me to explain how they feel; it’s given me a new window into their mind. Thank you, and take care. ❤

[marutea.]

consumption as a metaphor for love always ate down so hard im absolutely in love

[sephheu]

"i dont wanna be cold anymore" and still having the blue tint until the end is amazing

[yumni.]

Coming from a family where I was loved, treated well and had all the privileges spoken about in the song...the pain in this brings me to near tears every damn time I listen. Because I know what I have and the fact that it's not everyone's story is so hard.

[mellowxx.]

This song is so good, this is one of the few songs that almost perfectly captures how it feels to be around people who have loving families and being happy for them while also grieving because all you wanted growing up was a family to call your own. It sucks being so family oriented while having a shitty family, you know deep down the people you consider family don’t see you in the same way and you feel as if no one ever will until you’re married into another family or you find others who also don’t have a family. I still can’t accept live because I thought I found an adopted family just to be discarded later down the line because I didn’t want to do drugs and party all the time. I wanted to break the cycle and make a better life for myself. I managed to make it to college it’s all I dreamed of as a kid, but i had to give up my old life and everyone I loved for it.

[sashasux]

i don’t know that i have ever heard a song that made me FEEL things the way this one does

[emilyl]

this song and “we hug now” have been stuck in my head for a week. i’m glad tiktok wasn’t banned cause it introduced me to two amazing songs.

[buffalognomer]

This is how I imagine Vi and Cait. I literally can’t get enough of this song, I’m obsessed