What it Felt Like to Recover from Depersonalization (How I Cured Myself)

Depersonalization disorder is a bizarre and frightening feel, but my experience overcoming the problem was also interesting as well. I wanted to make this video to help you in your recovery process (if you're currently going through depersonalization and derealization) and give you some advice and insight into what recovery is actually like.

Recovery isn't all just a skip through the park, there are some painful emotions that have to be dealt with. You have to allow yourself to feel emotions that you have dissociated from. Depersonalization is a protective mechanism that occurs when emotions become too stressful for us. We then push these emotions out of our consciousness.

The breaking of this emotional bridge causes the split between the mind and the body.

By re-owning these painful emotions and integrating them into the brain we feel real again.

But it was a somewhat painful experience. A therapeutic form of pain.

Coming out of the bubble of depersonalization felt strange, it felt strange to feel real again.

And once I got over DP I still had, and to this day still have, issues to deal with. But I'm no longer depersonalized, I'm no longer derealized.

If you're up for the challenge of DP recovery (and yes it takes some work, emotional, cognitive, and behavioral), then I recommend you check out my "Depersonalization DP Cure Tip" series which is a video and article series that I made for free two years ago.

If you're ready to take the full plunge and give recovery your all then of course I recommend my ten hour recovery program the Total Integration Method, where I show you how I made my transformation to overcome and cure depersonalization.

[benmccall]

Finally coming out of it. Doing dishes feels good. Taking out the trash feels GOOD. Showering feels GOOD. Depth and meaning comes back. It is a truly awesome feeling.

[GiaCrupi]

Having such extreme anxiety and depersonalization, I can't even imagine what being normal feels like.

[emilywaugh]

OMG I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY PERSON ON THIS PLANET THAT SUFFERED THIS. I LOVE YOU ALL. I LOVE EVERYONE. NOW I FINALLY HAVE A SENSE OF CLOSURE AND I DONT FEEL LONELY ANYMORE. ILY. ILY. ILY. IM ONLY 15 AND I WAS SCARED I WANTED TO DIE. I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED😭😭😭

[davidsloan]

Looking back on it, I wish I would've never smoked weed or drank

[handsome_man]

mindful meditation and travelling, the two things that cured me.

[mrgalaxy]

Can anyone help me? I'm going through this Hell right now...my home doesn't feel like home...I don't want this battle to defeat me 😥

[siddarthyonzon]

To everyone out there who are feeling terrified and are constantly questioning why it's happening to me, let me tell you it was meant to happen to you, just like you were meant to have brown eyes, keep thriving and when the time comes you will know why. Sending Love and support.

[complextrauma]

"And once I got over DP I still had and still have issues to deal with"

This is so important, most people think your life will suddenly become amazing and you just go out and jump out of joy.

[adkinsmikkelsen]

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[Thysta]

Everyone reading this, please understand, that denial is extremely important in DP and in overcoming DP. Some people deny that their family was dysfunctional. I was never one. But we can even deny trauma we KNOW were traumatic, because we deny the SEVERITY of it.

Lately I was in mid day, and felt so disoriented. I did not know why. Tried to fall asleep and I realized I was SCARED to fall asleep. I knew enough psychology to know it was trauma wanting to come up in dreams. And it did. I realized, with 100% certainty that 1.) I have one very bad reflex from my NPD father 2.) There were 2 traumas I knew about, but the INTENSiITY of them was bigger than I believed.

If you have an event in your mind you suppose it MIGHT have something to do with your DP, DIG INTO IT, because you are RIGHT.

[moemoe]

Depersonalization, however it is triggered, is usually expanded and/or sustained merely through concentrating on it. My advice is to simply stop thinking about it, as hard as it is. The way you do this is through adding elements into your life that in themselves require a great deal of mental capacity, thought, and contemplation. By doing this, depersonalization would eventually begin to fade out and into nonexistence. I know this because today upon browsing Youtube I found this video and it reminded me that the very source of all my thinking and depression even existed. I literally forgot it existed for five years. I was and completely rid of it. I know my advice is cliche, but the reason things are cliche is because they have become universally agreed upon to that point that so many people feel comfortable saying it.

[nightowlkid]

Ever since i got dp i feel like im in another world and a differnt person

[amberlundeen]

Omg yes. Crispness, clarity.. that is what I am seeking. I have already been doing most of the things you suggest for awhile now. I’ve begun processing a lot of past trauma. I am not as scared to deal with the painful emotions as I am to live my life not fully present. I am so grateful I stumbled upon your videos. The health anxiety video had me laughing cause I can relate so much.

[maryjanewalsh]

Harris Harrington's work on this issue is paramount. If you're questioning what to do next, listen- listen on! YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS ! I had Depersonalization for 10 years from 17 to 27. I am still recovering parts of myself, but his Youtube videos and overall body of work is the read deal. YOU CAN OVERCOME THIS ! Keep listening to videos from people who have overcome DP.

[sarahrae]

thank you so much for making this video! I cried while I was watching it (I think that's a good thing) because I remembered the way I thought about myself and it hurt. however, it felt reassuring to know someone else has gone through this. again, thank you

[PokeyMeansBusiness]

Thank you so much for this video and the article on your website. I feel so relieved that someone is finally able to articulate how I've been feeling so accurately.

[dillonmangrum]

I think I'm towards the end of it. I am over the dp I have mild dr sometimes. Mostly right now it's just worrying about it coming back. Like I'm just confused I feel the reality but there's moments where I'm like "wait am I back to normal or not" lol can anybody

[saharb]

I don’t know you but I am so proud of you getting through this!

[elisae]

Being a student in Mental Health and studying about DPD and DDD, it is so useful to listen to you, and it is so well worded. Thank you so much. Wish you the best on your healing journey

[SteveHewittMusic]

The best advice on depersonalisation on YouTube by far!! Thanks