Kygo Freeze cover | Scott Chen

Original song composed and produced by Kyrre Gørvell-Dahll.
Arranged, played, sang, and produced by me.

[ScottChenMusic]

My late maternal grandmother, 林江朝玉, had a golden soul. She was naturally a high-consciousness person who was firmly in the love frequency. I could not communicate with her via words (I spoke Mandarin & English, she spoke Japanese & Taiwanese), but that did not matter. I could feel love emanate from her core, and it was something me and my family were blessed to receive.

She passed away last year in Taiwan at the age of 97. I could not make it to her side and it was deeply upsetting (1). The very last time I was able to see her was late 2019, before all the covid craziness went down. At that meeting I had a strange feeling that it would be the final time we see each other, and, unfortunately, that intuition came true.

Other than grief, there was deep regret that I had to process. Regret that I was not present during the times I got to spend with her. Growing up in Taiwan I was able to see her every week, but I was focused on playing video games rather than actually spending time with her. Ever since moving to the states in 2003, I would only get to see her once every couple years. I was still stuck within my head then and distracted with all kinds of meaningless bullshit. Yet again, I failed to stay present during the precious moments she was with me. And it hurts to know that those opportunities will never come again.

Me finding Kygo's song coincided with my grandma's passing. The song resonated with me, not only because of the tender, poignant melody, but also because of the beautiful lyrics. It captured the feelings within me perfectly. It describes the helplessness and frustration as we watch time coldly marches on, and the desire to freeze time in order to be with our loved ones longer (2). There was no better song to dedicate to grandma.

This work is not only a tribute to her, but also a promise that I will continue to heal, continue to become stronger, and continue to raise my consciousness. I love you, grandma. Thank you for loving me.

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Addendum

(1) Nobody among my immediate family in the states could make it back to Taiwan in time before my grandma passed away. Because, even in September 2022, Taiwan imposed a strict 10-day quarantine measure to all travelers entering the island. She couldn't even get a proper funeral, thanks, again, to the insane covid restrictions upheld by the Taiwanese government (so much for being the beacon of freedom in the East). Had the masses been higher consciousness, they would not have fallen into fear consciousness and consented for years to authoritarian measures carried out in the name of "safety" and "science".

It wasn't until April this year was I able to enter Taiwan without facing any covid restrictions. I ventured to the cemetary up in the mountains at the north tip of the island and knelt by her grave. I couldn't stop crying. Pain from years of psychological abuse carried out in the name of covid (not just from governments but also from friends, family, and coworkers).. the anger and helplessness from being separated from her thanks to government overreach.. the rage from knowing she lived an extremely isolated life during her final years because everyone was scared shitless of a strong flu.. regret that I could not send her off before she took her last breath.. the pain of losing her forever.. Everything just poured out.

God knows it took me a long time and an immense amount of inner work to process everything that has happened since March 2020. Witnessing my grandma's ordeal further convinced me the need to raise the collective consiousness. I now have clarity and conviction on what to prioritize in my life.

(2) Kygo has said that Freeze is by far the favorite song that he has ever produced. Understandable as it's a heartfelt piece of art that stands out among the sea of commercial edm tracks (that Kygo himself has been guilty of producing, haha). He is pleassantly surprised by how well his audience received it, and says he will be creating more works like this in the future. I am happy for him.

(3) Last but not least, thank you, my dear audience, for listening. The sheet is in the description if you want to try playing this piece.

[MelodyYu-smtm]

So beautiful. I’m sure your grandma can feel your 思念 from heaven.