Sufjan Stevens, 'Death With Dignity' (Official Audio)

From the album CARRIE & LOWELL / recently heard in CAPTAIN SPIRIT

Available on Asthmatic Kitty Records

LYRICS:
Spirit of my silence I can hear you
But I’m afraid to be near you
And I don’t know where to begin
And I don’t know where to begin

Somewhere in the desert there’s a forest
And an acre before us
But I don’t know where to begin
But I don’t know where to begin
Again I’ve lost my strength completely, oh be near me,
Tired old mare with the wind in your hair

Amethyst and flowers on the table, is it real or a fable?
Well I suppose a friend is a friend
And we all know how this will end

Chimney swift that finds me, be my keeper
Silhouette of the cedar
What is that song you sing for the dead?
What is that song you sing for the dead?
I see the signal searchlight strike me in the window of my room
Well I got nothing to prove
Well I got nothing to prove

I forgive you, mother, I can hear you
And I long to be near you
But every road leads to an end
Yes every road leads to an end
Your apparition passes through me in the willows:
Five red hens—you’ll never see us again
You’ll never see us again

[李依純-ui]

I just lost my mom, who had been struggling with her depression for more than ten years. I loved her but I was afraid of being around her. Most of the time, I felt tired and helpless. I listened to this song very often when she was alive, imaging one day she would be happy and be like a “mother” again, or sometimes wondered how this would end, but never did I think that she would choose to commit suicide. However, she doesn’t need to feel the pain anymore. This song perfectly captures my emotion and heals me. Mom, I miss you.

[Bombasticboogaloo]

That "I forgive you mother" part hits me SO hard.

[eddfelix]

"Goodbye, Captain Spirit!"
"See you around, Superwolf!"

[eatyourkimchi]

I listened to this album on loop for my four hour flight, and still haven't heard enough of it.  Oh man.  

[urmom-pnpc]

Honestly, it doesn't matter if you were brought here because of a show or movie, or if you're here just 'cause you like Sufjan's music. Any reason is a good reason, this song is beautiful.

[terrancesellington]

"This is us" and "life is strange" will always be link to this beatiful song

[gloprez]

the women who has raised me since I was 3 died 1 year ago and even though she wasn't my real mom I have always looked up to her as one and now I will never stop looking up to her because if I'm sad and I miss her I will look up at the sky and know she's their helping me, smiling at me, laughing with me because I know she's their with me through it all, I love u mom forever and always

[tachanz]

"Mom was so pretty. I miss her smile."

[G.e.m.m.i.e]

I lost my grandfather recently, and this song really helps me deal with the grief of losing him. It reminds me of all the good times we shared, but also helps me to accept the fact that he's gone. I miss him so much. The sweetest soul.

[jamesrice]

I remembered this album came out 3 days ago, and have listened to it at least 50 times since then. I've learned it word for word. The universe has some sort of cruel irony to it though; because, last night my mother told me that she has skin cancer. She's dealt with it for months and I never knew. I know the desire to have been closer to her so well now. I was not a good son. I can't listen to this album anymore. Not yet. It tears me apart, but...I just want to ask anyone reading this-- love your parents. Give them the concern they give you or didn't give you. Don't let the time apart be a regret. I'm so scared to lose my mother. I'm not looking for condolences, but this is a thing we will all face eventually. Make your time worthwhile.

Thanks for reading.

[youarethecoffin]

"I forgive you mother. I can hear you and I love to be near you, but every road leads to an end..." this really hit for me

[LieutenantButtonMasher]

I've never experienced loss, and yet I can feel Sufjan's loss. This is what songs are supposed to do, to make people feel.

[arnaudmarchand]

This is a beautiful part of the internet.

[thecatoverlord]

Thank you Captain Spirit for introducing me this beautiful song and album...

[chrismarchand]

I once walked into a coffee shop while this began to play over the loudspeakers. I was standing there, waiting to get my coffee, just losing it, crying. It still makes me cry today. It's transcendent. It communicates something that goes deeper than mere words and mere sung and performed notes. It's proof that art is a miracle.

[majeeeddd]

"This is Us" Brought me here, Legendary pilot

[wkduffy]

Oh God, I've got to call my mom.

[denneyandthejets]

if you've never cried to this song we can't be friends

[chuanyeewu]

Tear up every time I hear “every road leads to an end”

[violet]

The first song on carrie and lowell album and i thought i couldn't continue listening to the entire album because the emotions were too heavy, realizing that my parents are getting old and they might leave me soon and i haven't achieved anything that could make them proud or make them not worry about me being alone. That line, "Every road leads to an end..." We just got to accept that so might as well make the best memories with them while they're still alive and healthy.