Zolita - Grown Up (Official Music Video)

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"Grown Up" is about a relationship I had when I was younger that I was only able to recently process and fully understand now that I’m an adult. A situation sadly so many girls (and boys) can relate to. I just hope that by sharing my story and its nuances, others that have experienced something similar will feel seen and not alone.

This video is comprised of home videos from my childhood, and footage from when I moved to New York City in my late teens - when the situation happened. Looking back on that time, I might have thought I was so grown up and independent, but I was more like the little kid in the videos.

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Twenty candles on the cake
Yellow cabs and vintage gowns
I could've used a friend
When you came around

Watched me lose my world
So you gave me yours
Said nothing's gonna hurt you now
Kissed me and you said I was so mature
Thought I had it figured out

Made me feel so grown up, grown up
Where were all the grown ups, growing up
Now that I'm a grown up, grown up
I don't get how you were having fun
I was way too young

New city all alone
My parents broke our home
Thought I was so independent
Rewrite the story every time I tell it

I was just a kid
Couldn't even drink
Younger than your son is now
Does it make you sick
Did you really think I'd never say the words out loud
Thought I wouldn't find you out

Made me feel so grown up, grown up
Where were all the grown ups, growing up
Now that I'm a grown up, grown up
I don't get how you were having fun
I was way too young

How could you be having fun
I was way too young
How could you be having fun
I was way too young

You were not a white knight
You were just a man
Now I'm finally old enough
To fucking understand

I wasn't an old soul
I was just a kid
How do you sleep at night
Knowing what you did

Made me feel so grown up, grown up
Where were all the grown ups, growing up
Now that I'm a grown up, grown up
I don't get how you were having fun
I was way too young

Watched me lose my world
So you gave me yours
Said nothing's gonna hurt you now
Now that I'm a grown up, grown up
I don't get how you were having fun
I was way too young

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Attendance check!!! 🥺🤧😭

we are so proud of you. praying for your healing.

Grace-vntv

Thank you for talking about this. Especially when abuse is in the “grey zone”, where it is not apparent for everyone that it is completely wrong, it is so hard to talk about. My guitar teacher that I had since I was 14 started grooming me. When I got 18 he immediately moved to becoming sexual with me. He never broke a law. I never said no. But he was twice my age. I felt honoured in a way that I was an “old soul” for him and felt so “grown up”. My parents didnt intervene, they liked him. I never wanted sex, but my mom told me that I would have to have it when I wanted to have kids one day. I felt under pressure to comply with expectations. Now, many years later, I am out and proud as a lesbian and have a girlfriend! ❤

Yours_sincerely_thedreamer

im so aware this songs gonna make me cry 🫂 the child in me thanks u for writing this song

nashanovoa

I feel every single word you're singing down to my core, especially 'where are all the grown ups growing up' - I was SA'd by my aunts bf at age 3 with my extended family in the same damn room, so yeah where were all the grown ups? I had to grow up to protect myself. I'm in tears. Sending you so many good, loving, and healing vibes. 😭

TiffanyZeyer

WOW girl, this song HITS. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us. The melody is memorizing.

jellyrcw

zolita, this s breathtaking. thank you for sharing and this beautiful piece of art that came out of a dark situation that no one should endure.

adorosemarie

What a touching and honest song, I’m sure so many people share this pain❤️

liviar

So Heartbreaking 😭 thank you for sharing this with us

alilovesyou

My heart was pounding the entire time watching this video. 🥺💔 I have no words. You're strong and beautiful on the inside and out. You didn’t deserve that. 🫶

tinktaylor

This hit really hard.. it can be difficult to even talk about and get validation for especially in what I went through where I was really young, the person was 3 years younger, and I gave in after being asked so many times. I hope everyone can get validation and know that I’ll always be on your side no matter the circumstances ❤

wnyysflwer

Thank you for making this song, I know alot of people have dealt with this growing up and feeling like an old soul and I appreciate this even though it made me cry and remember!

alliecatscute