saving myself

Here's more of my journey friends. Thank you for running and finding new normals with me. We're doing it 💕 🙌 "No one is going to save me, so I'm going to save myself"

[allisonsedri]

When you realize the way this woman found her father as a child and that is no longer her most traumatic experience… the fact that you are still standing is a miracle girl. So proud of you.

[coastalfarmhouse]

Jesus showed up and rescued me today. I was almost ready to snap with the burden of a few issues but I prayed to the Lord and then suddenly all the puzzle pieces fell into place and fixed everything. It was a God thing for sure. I have been singing praises to the Lord all day since for His mercy and love. He’s always there for you Jamerrill.

[Jakilyn]

I always tell myself this when I'm at my worst
"No one is coming. Get up"
❤❤❤

[BearWithMe-Jillian]

Thank you for sharing this! I am 39, not a mom (not even a wife; never dated either) but discovered your channel back in 2019, I believe, shortly after my big trauma. I have disabling anxiety disorder and agoraphobia, which started as a teen and has kept me very isolated. I relied on my mom for so much, even when I lived alone. So when she died, I was terrified and devastated. She was my best friend and my one "safe person". Life looked very bleak and lonely. And it was for a while. But I also turned to God and started getting to know Him. I'd been a believer for years but hadn't really gotten to know God, so had found trusting Him difficult. I grew up in an abusive home, too, so have struggled with trust in general. Watching your videos was very soothing and helpful; your gentle voice and encouraging words, your grace when things went wrong, and things I don't even know how to describe. I'd never actually seen someone else handle life that way, with confidence, gentleness, and perseverance. I always saw anger and negative talk and quitting in a huff. I think God brought your channel to my awareness, as He also brought other channels to my awareness, too, that inadvertently were showing me similar things. None of the channels were specifically about how to conduct oneself in a godly fashion, but that's what I kept seeing and kept watching for. So, thank you for that. :)

I also wanted to share one of the amazing things God did for me, as He's helping me to heal from my loss and also to build a new life (one not surrendered to a growing list of fears and avoidance, but surrendered to Him instead). I wasn't attending a church, just watching a service online of one of my favorite radio ministers. But he regularly urged us to find a local church, giving many good reasons why. I knew I should, but was scared. Not only because going to new places and meeting new people is very difficult for me because of my anxiety disorder, but I also knew that not every church actually teaches the truth. I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to tell, being new to reading the Bible, whether what was being taught was accurate or not. So I prayed for God's help. Around Summer of 2022, I was also starting to feel like having an "adventure". Despite my anxiety and agoraphobia, there's a part of me that likes exploring and is very curious. I'm usually just too scared and shy to do anything those parts would like. But God saw it, I wasn't praying (I don't think) about having an adventure but He saw the desire, and decided to answer it *and* my prayer of finding a local church. I live in MN and felt led to attend the True Woman Conference (sponsored by Revive Our Hearts, a Christian women's ministry) in Indianapolis, Indiana. By myself. Driving there and back. I'd never driven more than an hour away from my house alone, let alone stayed in a hotel alone, etc. Each time I came up with a reason why I "couldn't", God showed me His provision so that I could. So I went, nervous but also excited. Well, as part of the conference, state ambassadors for Revive Our Hearts contact each registered participant before the conference to welcome them, learn why they'd decided to come (what they're hoping to get out of it, etc.) and see if there's anything they need help with, etc. Usually the ambassador who contacted me calls, but she emailed me instead. That had to have been God at work, because I wasn't answering my phone to unfamiliar numbers (talking on the phone is one of my phobias, I rarely talked to relatives on the phone). And after reading the email, my initial thought was to ignore it. But the Holy Spirit prompted me to not only respond but to pour out my story, even that I was scared that once I got to my hotel I'd be too afraid to leave it to actually attend this conference. It was in a big city and that's another fear point for me. Plus, apparently thousands of women attend these things and crowds are hard for me, lol. But I believed this was what God wanted me to do. The ambassador invited me to sit with her during the main sessions and I had a great time. A few days after returning home, she called me and invited me to join her Bible study group at the church she attended. It was about half-hour - forty-five minutes away from me. Again, my initial inclination was to say "no" but the Holy Spirit prompted me to go. So I did, and that's what led to my finding a local church to attend. I've been attending every class I can there, as well as the Sunday service, and am starting to make friends, too. God really has been helping me create a whole new life. I didn't know people like those I'm meeting at church truly existed outside of Christian fiction books. They're sincerely in love with the Lord and surrender to His will, demonstrating godly love which is so very different from our society's idea of love.

[chappes]

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I live by this verse everyday. I have multiple chronic illnesses and nearly all of my vertebrae are fractured and I can barely walk around. He gives me strength every second of every day!

[alyssamarie]

When I stumbled upon your videos, i was a year and a half sober, and I had just found out I was pregnant with my son, preparing to be a single mom. I’ve found joy and comfort in you and your videos. I’m almost 5.5 years sober, and my son is almost 3.5 years old now.
2 years ago I got diagnosed with an aggressive and terminal form of multiple sclerosis.
I started off with a struggling relationship with God at best, but you gave me hope. I wanted to raise my son knowing God. But through my diagnosis, I lost that relationship, and stopped watching happy videos, your videos.
But, I’ve been building my relationship with God, while leaning about the Bible along side my son.
Thank you. Thank you for being you.

[jennifermiller]

This video has been such a blessing to me. My ten out of ten started 11 months ago when my husband abandoned me and left me to provide for the children. There was so much grief, but when i look back, I have so much to thank the Lord for. He provided eberything needed. The struggle isn't over and emotionally its still hard, but I have hope knowing God holds my future. I also started working out through all of this and it helped keep me well for the children.

[janetswain]

Even though my personal experience is very different than yours, i do completely subscribe to the saving yourself mantra. At 83 i live alone and take care of myself and my needs in every possible way. I absolutely know how blessed i am to be able to do that at my age. I don't depend on anyone else to do anything at all for me. And i do it all without any pain whatsoever. To say that I'm blessed is an understatement. Your videos are so entertaining and inspiring. Thank you so much for being so willing to share so much with all of us. I pray God's blessings on you and your family sweet pretty lady🥰🙏

[deea]

You’re stronger thank you think and incredibly gifted then you ever thought you were. Lord got you here and he will get you through this gently sister. Amen!

[lindaduncan]

Jamerrill, you are like a Phoenix rising from the ashes! God is helping you to become the best version of yourself. I can see your strength, physically and emotionally. To know that you’ve given birth 9 times, and then to see how you’re looking younger and fitter everyday, is very inspiring. You look so beautiful! God bless you….keep up the great work! 🌹💕🙏

[nikkiish]

Like you I found my father when he ended his life, I am so proud of you for getting up and putting 1 foot in front of the other because I know how dark it gets. The struggles of your personal life are not things you need to share but God knew what you needed in that moment, he wanted to bless you in your struggle. Sending hugs and prayers for you x

[joannae]

That quote, “no one is gonna save me so I’m gonna save myself” is one I used going through a divorce and starting a career from scratch all while battling cancer. It was a mess that wasn’t my fault but I was the only person who could get me out of it

[justplaintara]

Struggle is no a competition. Your struggle is your own, built to your needs, your strengths, your capacity. Each person's pain and hardship are their guide to learning, knowing and confirming their own self. Out of struggle can come the most beautiful results or the most devastated wreck of a person. My prayer for all is that they do find their beauty.

[Murphyoberle]

Your so strong mama! Love you! I have been here from the very beginning! You have tough me so much in motherhood! How to manage a large family. Just so grateful for you!

[firstlast-jsyw]

Not sure what your trauma is, but this video made me feel heard and validated ❤ Thank you for being vulnerable and always showing Christs love 🙏❤️

[strongroots]

This is my reoccurring theme too! The hardest part is that it attracts soul suckers that see us as strong and when we finally break… they can’t be fed anymore and leave instead of loving us and helping us through it.

[marybarnes]

I've been subscribed to your channel for approx 10 years now. You're such an inspiration....a strong woman, perfect momma, that's absolutely beautiful inside and out. Thank you for sharing your life with us. I pray that whatever is going on and putting such sadness in your heart is fixed and you heal real soon.

[tinamartino]

Dear jamerril, i love that saying i have to save the girl that has my name....so powerful thank you so much for soeaking for us women who wish they did sooner.

[malinandersson]

I´m struggeling very bad since my only son/child took his own life. I found him that morning in the bathroom and got PTSD. 3, 5 years later I´m still working on my loss. Lost the faith of the lord and working hard to get it back. You are my hero and i have followed your chanel since the beginning.You give me hope. sorry for bad spelling I´m from Sweden.

[therealmekk]

I’m not a mom but from 2022-2023 I lost 4 important people in my life. You said it right god can really save you. My peace is volume & helping people. I’m also getting into running. Just know your videos are so uplifting ❤