Something feels off since 2020. Let's talk about it

Welcome to my channel.

In this video, I candidly share my thoughts and feelings. I have been feeling this overwhelming sense of loss, dread, and even hopelessness. I find myself waking up and looking out my window expecting the world to be gone. It's bizarre and ominous. I don't care about the same things I used to pre 2020, and in fact I don't feel connected to the things of this world. Friendships have shifted and I don't feel attached to anything.

#isolation #loss #lonely #2020 #society

Love,
Mare xoxo

[jaslyn]

It’s not in your head. Every day feels like “any day now”..

[BReeAhNee]

I have been feeling what you are feeling since 2018. There’s a spiritual warfare at hand. To me, honestly, it’s Sodom and Gomorrah all over again. The degeneracy, the lack of compassion and the soullessness is at an all time high.
We have to stay prayed up y’all! It’s just a matter of time.

[Psa]

Yep! Everything seems off. I can’t stand going outside anymore because I’m bombarded with anxiety and depression in the air. People acting funky now and it’s hard to form connections anymore. Nothing makes sense, but Jesus does. I noticed it since 2017, but 2020 events ramped everything up. Feels like something’s heating up.

[shaboopie]

It's the elephant in the room that's everywhere we go now. It's in the workplace, in the traffic, at the store. Thank you for talking about it Mare.

[doll.ov.poetrii]

You are correct. I'm a homemaker and If I don't have to, I never want to return back to the corporate environment in this system. What TMH God will be doing soon will be bigger than anything this beast system can make for itself. It's astronomical, the amount of people that are walking around out here (including children and pets!!) walking around fully possessed by multiple unclean spirits. The more the system validates those spirits, the closer we get to our heavenly father getting us all out of here for GOOD.

My husband and I are not social media people, we guard our home and marriage through prayer constantly, and we do our best to eat clean. Something is coming. 🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿

[healwithmare]

I got hit hard post 2020. I have lost my beloved mother and brother suddenly, my memory isn’t what it used to be due to trauma, working a job feels pointless, I don’t feel connected to people, time is flying by, my attention span isn’t what it used to be, I wake up some mornings and look out the window expecting the world to be gone. I’m not sure if I am alone in this but just wanted to have this candid conversation. Love y’all ❤

[Marie-ce]

Definitely has been a lot of tragedy since 2020 and we’re all expected to move on

[Viasity]

I believe the same thing as you. Starting from the end of 2019 to present day. I can't place a finger on it but something is off. There is something that's seriously coming to pass. My soul and intuition tells me something isn't right.

[sankofaspirit]

I agree! It feels like the beginning of the end.

[TheDesouza]

You’re not alone… I’ve felt this way for so long., , , ,

[MommaChaela]

The father is shaking things up. We need to read our bibles. Prophecy isn't going to stop it's unfolding. Come out of the world family. True peace is with our father. Let us strive to put on the mind of Christ and not follow man and man's transitions. Let's put on the armor of God to endure the evil to come in Jesus name.

[Dagai]

Wow this video hit hard. I couldn’t believe that today is October 1st already. I notice that time has been flying by. I can’t put my finger on it but I appreciate you for opening up this conversation on your platform 🙏🏾

[Dagai]

I think you are right. Now is the time for us to actually do what God is calling us to do. You are brave for being obedient and answering the call of God. Not everyone does that. Praying for you 🙏🏾. I appreciate your light here on YouTube ✨

[googlea]

Yes! You literally have explained my feelings and convicted me at the same time. I’m trying to come out of my own cycles because I feel something is different also.

[amzztv]

Honestly, since 2016, i have felt like the years are a day now! After 2020 what i have felt for so long already, have just been heightened

[itsjessguys]

Each of us has had to learn how to start over again. Losing people hurts and I’m thankful we are able to talk about it with one another.

[blikeme]

“There is a false sense of security”. Hearing that gave me chills.

I’m so sorry about your recent losses. There has been a lot of death and heartache happening. Your story breaks my heart and I’ve heard similar heart breaking stories and I can’t help but wonder if there is something deeper happening.

I had a young friend I know get cancer randomly. It was shocking. I also see so many young folk on YouTube sharing their struggles and it sometimes is alarming what they are going through. Truly nightmarish. Was it always like this and it just seems more common because we have social media platforms to share on? Or is there something ominous actually happening? I can’t figure it out….

[kaylabean]

Since 2021 (when I got out the military) I was able to feel the spiritual warfare, demons and satan are fighting to take ALL that they can. I tell the Lord daily, how thankful I am that He lets me seek shelter under His covering, cause baby it’s hard out here and it’s about to get MUCH harder for those who aren’t covered by Him

[kemim]

WOOWW! I’ve been feeling like this too for so long! I have just been so confused because I turned 19 in 2020 and started uni, and was transitioning into becoming an adult. So I have been so confused because I felt like the feelings you discussed were in my case just part of how it is to becoming an adult, which I definitely do feel has a part to play but even till now at 22 I feel like it’s just so much deeper. Especially since I too have been called to just withdraw from the world (but have been scared to do so). I left uni because it really wasn’t resonating with me at all (which was so hard because I was pushed to be academic and it was my whole identity all my life since a child but God told me clearrrr) was working but I hated it and felt drained 😭 then towards the end they literally stopped giving me shifts for like a month so was forced to quit and I feel like that was God again pushing me to isolation (I have a small job that’s ok so I can look after myself though and not ask parents for money). However, I’ve been so low, don’t want to Meet my friends anymore, generally don’t really feel excitement over things, things happen then I feel like they didn’t? I look back at experiences from the past few years In disbelief like it even happened? things just don’t stick and resonate with me anymore. I genuinely feel so disconnected from this world. I think about my life and plans for the future but there’s this deep dread inside, like what even is the point? Things just feel so but i feel like there’s nothing I can do about it, like there’s an inevitable ‘doom’ impending in terms of the future. However, daily I am now starting to be obedient because I feel like an empty shell. Not sure if this even makes sense but it just felt nice to hear someone express what I’ve been thinking but too scared to say because even I too am scared about it to be honest 😳 also I’ve been silently watching your videos and so grateful you appeared on my feed. I also want to send you my deepest condolences, you’ve gone through a lot 😭🙏🏾💕🌺 I too have stopped wearing makeup and hair extensions (all of which I heard God tell me to do (no fake hair since 2022 and no makeup since 2023), deleted all socials in 2020, just embracing my natural beauty and radically accepting myself as a black woman and giving up on trying to be someone I’m not or what I think people want me to be🤣🤦🏾‍♀️ It has been an amazing journey and your channel has just beeen amazing. You’ve resonated with literally every aspect of my life, I found you at the right time🥰 sorry for such a long comment but I’ve been a silent viewer for like 2 months now and I love what you do! Keeping showing up as yourself, you are helping more people than you know including me🌺🙏🏾💕

[frobrainblogs]

now I'm binge watching your videos and I want you to know you're not alone at all. I lost my grandfather who played the role of my father at the end of 2020 then I lost my baby in my first trimester in 2022. In between those losses I lost 7 of my great aunts and uncles two who I was really close with and the rest who I love dearly. & then earlier this year I went through divorce with my husband. Last month my sister on my dad's side lost her mother. You are not alone at all in this feeling of waking up and wondering if the world will suddenly end. I've been getting closer to God heavily over the past 10 months but the feeling and action of getting closer to God started for me in 2019 literally right before the pandemic was announced j started going back to church. I also left my 9-5 in the middle of August of this year and am currently not working and leaning and depending on Jesus to guide me. The way it is expected for us to go on as if things are normal is very strange. Also gave up weave and braids and have been locing my hair since September 2023 and have felt called to drop makeup on the regular even though I was never a big makeup wearer. I still would wear mascara occasionally and always a lip gloss. Now ill wear a lip liner and gloss occasionally. And God has also been working on me in dressing modestly. Just shows you how God is working because it is no coincidence that many of us are experiencing and feeling the same things. I try to remember not to be fearful even though things look and are insane. I remember that God is for us and not against us and to not lean on my own understanding remembering also that once we leave this body we are taken to Gods house for life with Him. I'm also trying to remember that in my everyday life there are more good interactions with people in the world than bad so that gives me hope that there's still a lot of good left in this world. Thank you for being honest and providing the space for us to express this. And thank you for expressing the truth and being obedient to God. May God bless you