Is Your Spiritual Awakening Driving You Crazy?

The journey of spiritual awakening may go through phases - many of them profoundly unexpected - and it might seem crazy at times. This is for you, if you've experienced challenges or fears on the spiritual awakening pathway. I can relate, and wanted to share a bit of my own experience of feeling like I was going crazy rather often, at least in the sense that I knew things were changing for me internally and sometimes it was a bit of a wild ride. I also want to offer some reassurances to all who are going through something similar. There is great peace on the other side...

WHERE TO FIND OR WRITE TO JONATHAN, PERSONAL SESSIONS, ZOOM MEETINGS & IN-PERSON GATHERINGS:

Chapters:
00:00 Introduction
01:17 A bit of my own story with this
04:08 The pendulum swings...
06:21 Solidarity with those going through this!
07:22 Your own experience...

[verisimilitude]

Not gonna lie, the pendulum swinging is tough to go through. I've unpacked so many illusions in my own life since awakening, and they've been so difficult to let go. Trying to communicate this with others close to me is near impossible. No one seems to understand how I see the world now which makes me feel crazy "nutty" from time to time. The thing is, I know Truth now. There is no way to unsee it. There is no way to stop it. Although the ego cranks up its fight to keep its grip in the world of illusion. Creating fear and panic. However, reality is better in Truth. I'm still not fully on the other side of it yet, but I've tasted it enough to know that it'll "happen".

[krielsavino]

keep going ur almost home! I will! Thank you

[vaphiadis]

Female 49. Yes, all of the above : mostly grateful moments of bliss, few moments of fear then back to inner comfort . Definitely not interested in a social life in fact I go out only when necessary. New values, new priorities, yes the pendulum drives me nuts too. But I'm lucky this is not new to me but I'm very excited and encouraged it's not just me, more and more people are admitting & embracing this change ! Hold on tight as much as equally go with the flow . ❤

[rationalmystic]

You are talking about me. Word for word. That's exactly what I feel. Amazing.

[cheriemiller]

Beautiful message. I am on the path and I hope to meet you on a zoom call sometime. I would say peace be with you but I know it already is, as it is with me

[naig]

This story I experience over and over; myself, and also seeing it in others. 💗

[TheCuteRibbon]

„Keep walking. You‘re almost home“ 😢❤❤❤☺️

[darbydelane]

great to see you popping back up again, dear Jonathan - this time by the Puget Sound! Neato! And, as always, you say exactly what is needed at exactly the right moment. I especially appreciate the self-disclosure of your own head-scratching (then ferocious) process inward! You didn’t even have a community or group to contextualize what was happening to you. This is such a HUGE point to emphasize.

I have been thinking a lot about how much people need to hear one another’s “Wilderness” stories. It’s often the part left out. And like you said, it may not be a discrete chapter of the story: It might pendulum back and forth over a long stretch of time between peace (or whatever carrot keeps our attention there) and panic till you start recognizing and trusting the pattern - then I suppose when the pendulum swings back to fear you can be at peace in the knowing it will pass.

Jonathan - you didn’t speak about this experience to your family. But did they sense something was shifting in you? Did they worry? Did you ever get negative feedback or judgment from your work or social community? Did you have to let go of anyone in particular who was confused, maybe angry about it? I am in that part of the Wilderness. ✨🙏🏾

[northernyogi]

This resonates so deeply. Thank you for this content.

[kevinmai]

Thanks for sharing! Very relatable! The more this empties out, the more joy I feel! Joy of freedom!

[electricsnut]

I can really relate to this, had a 5meo ceremony a few weeks ago that threw me into the deep end again with dreams of who am I, what am I doing, what is anything and the self realisation that I’m truely alone on this journey deep down. It feels like I’m literally coming apart at the seams at times and gives me a great respect for those dealing with schizophrenia… It also showed me how I cling to my comfort zone and identity and the habits I seek out to hide or numb from the world. Feels like being trapped in a web sometimes.

[marilynhoward]

I just found your interview about your new. My question is are you a believer in Christ?❤