I think we should talk..... This isn't easy.

I apologize for this video's 'random' nature, I wasn't really capable of focusing my brain.
Before I go on to give a brief summary, Here are those important links;

Apologies if I've forgotten any links.

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Summary;

A few years back an 'accountant' listed my career incorrectly with a lack of understanding of my profession.
I became 'during this time' very successful (Overnight), Leading to high earnings, where I chose to live within my means, budget/pay applicable tax rates, move home, fund a wedding etc...
It was later (years) discovered to have been incorrectly declared and after MULTIPLE attempts, my 'new' tax was decided leading to an overwhelming 'owed' balance (Pending and owed). Including, at the time, not yet (Current) filed, plus future tax differences, not budgeted for.
This meant I was WILDLY in 'debt' for 'money to be owed'.

Since then, I've been dreading the day the bill arrives. (Explained further in the link).
I now pay ALL applicable, and timely. Though I have fallen short and behind due to being unable and 'bled dry'. I am proactively seeking a new Accountant and hopefully with all the help received, when that/those bills come due, I can pay, without a HUGE consequence.

I am afraid. I am scared.. For 2 years I've been waiting on everything. I live in fear. While also managing FUTURE payments as well as past.

Beyond the finance, the mental pain it causes, I cry in bed MOST nights. I lost so much as a result. I've been a different person, and I've been afraid I'll never see ANTHONY again. My spontaneous emotional shifts have lead me to drink to sleep, caused me to stay awake on 'auto pilot' for 30+ hours at a time. I've even passed out MULTIPLE times at my desk. Collapsed twice, and worried about lack of eating in order to 'save money, and ensure the money is in the bank when the letter comes'.

Any ways, that is the breakdown lol.

I'm sorry.

[ADCArtAttack]

Hey all - If you would like a detailed description of the issue and/or to support Please read the description or check the links here;




Some information was 'watered down' and I left parts out, because I am still afraid and I still don't have full courage/confidence in talking about things. Even thinking about it make's me feel sick.
I will try and respond to all comments. But I may 'hide' for a while when this goes live.
Note - I am typing this suffering an anxiety attack due to sharing this... bare with me. I'm sorry.

[calthoun]

Am I the only one who wishes they could give Anthony a big hug and let him know how many people care about him?

[Drakken]

Hey Anthony my name is Ty and I am an at-risk mental health counselor in Louisville Kentucky I mostly work with kids 5 to 18. And I want to tell you this hearing and seeing what you're going through while still making the content that you do that you have made is truly amazing and I am very proud of you. When you say it's not our responsibility to help you I have to be honest you're wrong. You bring joy to the masses you help me heal my kids through ART. It is our responsibility to take care of our friends and our family. And you sir are definitely family. Anytime you need to talk just let us know let us know. We got you. We are here for you. Thank you

[colouring_by_dawn]

My little girl is one of the kids you have inspired to draw. I tagged you in her artwork (kerby in 8 different styles) a couple of weeks ago and you actually shared it on Instagram and replied via message. She was so happy and excited that she has not stopped drawing since. You are absolutely not alone and for every bit of joy you feel from inspiring someone, your fans feel that same joy from watching you. Asking for help is the biggest strength in these situations, not a weakness. Remember. Its ok to feel sad, stressed anxious etc. But we dont live there. Feel your feelings. Good and bad. And then use them as a superpower. You are a warrior in a boss battle and by speaking out have assembled an army. Much love to you ❤️

[CreativeCreatorCreates]

I remember hearing that a closed mouth doesn’t get fed. Please ask. You have no idea who can help, and whom *you’ve* helped that would be willing to offer the same in kind. People will help AND you will be ok.

We are all in this crazy mess together. You will be supported by many people that care and want to help. 💖. Blessings, you.

[damiettamataram]

Dear Anthony, we love you. Thank you for being vulnerable and so open with us, I know it is not easy. As a person who has been dealing with anxiety and depression my whole life, I totally understand. Take your time.. Love you, Anthony!

[micaylalynn]

Thank you for posting this ❤️ Everyone knows it isn't easy to be vulnerable, even with close family and friends, much less to the Internet. I know I subscribe for the PERSON behind the videos, not just the content. I'm glad your community has been able to circle the wagons some and help in some way.

[SSJK]

Proud of you for finding the strength to make this video. 💪
How far you've come all by yourself is proof that you're a remarkably strong-willed person. Don't stop. You're a badass

[ghostprotocol]

I’ll say this, your tutelage has inspired me to go from the pencil to the ink. I understand and emphasize with your struggle(s). I’ve recently agreed with my wife to start seeking help for my mental health. “If it’s not hard, it not worth it. Things easily obtained are easily lost.” Take care of yourself, then your family, then everything else. You are an inspiration, true enough in my eyes. But, brother, you owe nothing to anyone here. Don’t apologize to us for something you owe nothing to.
Praying for you.

[nathankeene]

A lot of Robin Williams' quotes come to mind here. A therapist told me that a lot of the time the front you show is how you wish you were. It's part of the escapism as well. Tbh as a fellow artist (also making a comic) I deal with a lot of similar issues (especially with being vulnerable) and it takes a lot to tell people what you're going through. Spending time with your means of escapism is great, but it's also really important to spend some time dealing with the reality too, and it's great to see someone I look up to acknowledging that life isn't perfect. Some times we all need a little help. I really hope that things get better for you soon.

[Eckmayay]

You did good with sharing this Anthony, showing that you are struggling and showing the hardships that you've been going through, you are human and you are strong

Showing weakness is showing that you ARE human ❤

You let go of your ego to show this side of you

Dont ever forget that all of us love you and support you 🤗

[todoroki]

Hey, it is going to be okay! It is extremely stressful and it’s okay to be vulnerable. We are here to support you throughout it all ❤

[Terrelli]

Proud of you for talking about this and praying it works out for you quickly. I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through this.

[RMD]

Hey man, thank you for sharing and being so open!! My kids and I have watched you for years and love the content and your art. Our oldest is on the spectrum, very high functioning but as you know that still comes with challenges, mostly social challenges for him. Honestly I cant wait to have them all watch this video just to see that even though he doesn't think so at times that he can still do great things and do things that "other" people as he says, can do! I am sorry you are struggling but just know that you do help others more than you know and with sharing your real self probably helping even more people. I wish you the best my friend, keep doing your thing man because you do it very well!!

[stevejohnson]

Anthony, as someone who suffers from anxiety and depression and recently spent time in a psychiatric hospital for treatment, I can honestly say that you have played a huge role in my recovery. I discovered mindful colouring in the hospital, and I thought of you and the colouring videos I'd watched so many times. I also remembered your previous video about your challenges and it gave me the confidence to be more open about my mental health, and seek and embrace the help that was offered. Since leaving the hospital I use colouring and drawing to help control my emotions and I'm not exaggerating to say it is a huge part of what has helped me turn my life around. I know you feel alone, but you're not, and you help more people than you could possibly imagine.
Much love, mate.

[smccormack]

Anyone else anxiously watching his go fund me.

I want to much to see this hit 30k. I would love to see this wonderful human experience the relief he deserves for the kindness he bestows upon the world. Finger crossed.

[ryszakowy]

dude you tought me how to draw properly when others failed to communicate the "don't rush" part
your videos made my interest in drawing traditional soar
i wish you the best
i wish the good times come to you
i hope you're gonna make it just fine

[nirellediamond]

I donated what I could, sadly times are tough for me atm. I've had to quit my career as a massage therapist due to pain and health reasons and I'm trying to move over to my art as my main source of income. You have been a ENORMOUS inspiration and have helped inspire me to keep picking up the pencil and keep going. I was waiting for the word Patreon to sign up immediately and help out as much as I can a month. Thank you for everything you do, and it's truly nice to meet you Anthony 😊💜

[ImGusFra]

Hey, Anthony! I’ve been struggling with panic attacks and anxiety for many years. Only people who struggle with something inside their heads know who frustrating and hopeless it feels sometimes. You’re stronger than you think, but seek help, friend. Therapy has been crucial to move my life towards a better place. Don’t give up. You’ll get through it and I’m cheering for you ❤

[TheOfficial_InsaneStang]

Brother… it’s only been 3hrs, and you have nearly 5K views. We read the title, and showed up. We are here! You have a world of love to fall back on! We come to you (some of us) to relive OUR stress… because you are a blessing, and you need to know that! 🤘😞 I’m in your boat, and here for ya, brotha.. ❤️