I Hear An Orchestra Play

A song about a good fleeting feeling.

~words~
Sometimes
When I'm all alone
I hear a tone
That starts off low
Then slowly grows

In my head the song starts
Then it moves towards my feet
Then it spreads into my heart
Then they both begin to beat

It's a steady beat, a melody
A sound, a tune, a theme, a
A symphony, a, a cacophony?
Playing just for me

It's an orchestra [1]
I hear an orchestra play
I don't hear this very often
Sometimes every few days
Sometimes every few months
Sometimes just once a year
And when it leaves me I fear
It will never reappear
But it does because
it's always there
I hear an orchestra play
But the song is so rare

And it sounds like
Hearing again and and and
And it feels like
Feeling again and and and
And I know I
I can breath again
I can speak again
I can scream again

Most days
I just hear silence
But when it plays
I know that I am
Gonna be okay
I know that I am
Deserving of some sympathy
Deserving of a symphony

And
It sounds like
Facing my worst fears
And it sounds like
All of my worries disappeared
And it sounds like
My future just became clear
The music blasts away my tears
I hear the audience cheer
Cause
The conductor is here [2]
I hear his commands
The music ebbs and flows
With the sway of his hands
And I demand that he stay
Keep the band here today
But I fear I will never understand
Why some days I hear the band

And some days I just hear white noise
And it is drowning out my voice
Do I hear this song by choice? [3]

It's so easy to hear no music at all
To live a life without sound
So muted and small

But right now I hear an orchestra play
And right now I know the right words to say
I hear an orchestra play and my mind is in bliss
I hear an orchestra play and it sounds like this

I hear an orchestra play and my heart starts beating
I hear an orchestra play but the sound is fleeting

I wanna hear the song all night
I wanna hear it every day
But it plays too short a time
And then
It goes away
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~footnotes~
[1] Hopefully it's clear but the orchestra basically represents a good feeling that comes, stays for too short a time and then leaves.
[2] The conductor is whatever it is that brings the orchestra in the first place. Unlike the speaker, the conductor has control over the music. The conductor could be God, the speaker himself, or whatever it is that brings the music in the first place.
[3] Does the song come and go for no reason? Or is there a reason that some days I wake up feeling good and some days I don't?

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[tomasroque]

I was waiting for the punchline like in your other songs, but this was just beautiful. I've been binging your older videos, and you truly are deserving of a wider audience.

[benmaiorella]

rly interesting rewatching this knowing the hypomania context

[flamelight]

As someone with auditory hallucinations, I often don’t hear very pleasant things, but sometimes I hear music, and it’s the most amazing music I’ve ever heard. Thanks for this song.

[g.m.]

Thank you. This is precisely the feeling when you get out of a depression and feel creative energy rushing in, it's like a choir of angels is suddenly singing about you and you have divine power, and you must channel this energy immediately, it won't last, in a couple of days or hours you'll fall back into depression, the flow of ideas and energy will be gone and everything will be gray and everything you try to create will be lifeless until the next time

As someone who draws for a living and gets depressed cyclically, I can really feel kinship with these lyrics

[pinkroseperson]

It's refreshing to see a video by you that isn't buried under 6 layers of proto-anarcho-irony with robot arm characteristics. I'm glad you actually have feelings about things.

[kloymusic]

Hey guys, creator of the instrumental here. I recently finished up the instrumental of this song and posted it, it's on my channel as "KLOY - Rise"!

[Coneboi]

Bro. I am speechless. This is beautiful

[jessicaferguson]

The line "deserving of some sympathy, deserving of a symphony" is good

[Zakuchanhatesyou]

To me this song is about experiencing a hypomanic episode after depression.

[MorjMorjMorj]

Before "How I Cured My Mental Illness": Damn...

After: DAMN...

[duendenally]

I just left a mania episode, so this just hit to close as i'm going back to depression. Thank you.

[karllandegren]

Dude. This is the most accurate description of my seasonal depression, and a pretty fucking beautiful one at that. Jreg is a Canadian national treasure, we must protect him at all cost.

[infjw]

Watching this again after the hypomania video puts it into perspective

[Hope-tits]

This is still my favorite video of Jreg’s, and I so wish it had more views. This is exactly how I feel when I don’t have any inspiration for art. It’s frustrating, because I know my hand could create the art if only I knew what to draw. Sure, I could draw something suggested to me, something uninspired, but it wouldn’t be the same. You get so lost in others people’s music that you forget your own. And listening to others does give you inspiration sometimes, but it’s never enough. I want to be creating art 24/7, but the spark isn’t there. So, I’ll have to wait again.

[wojciechjacewicz]

Office life made me look up the rest of your music and damn it's something else. Something great

[aaronborok]

How fitting my headphones abruptly run out of batteries in the middle of this, abruptly stopping whatever momentum is here

[leafbaguette]

this song hits different given the current framework we're working with

[JamesTaylor-bocv]

Jreg did the opposite of Filthy Frank. He started out with really nice music and went wacky.

[leathery]

The cadence and music kind of reminds me of Hamilton.

[nowydexter]

After a few years I realised how he subtly plays with color-grayscale through the whole video