Nathan Wagner - Anxiety (Extended)

#nathanwagner #anxiety

I'm really proud of this one. The original version was the last track I mixed on my first computer. By the end of the song, the Macbook just couldn't take it anymore. So the song ended a bit abrupt haha Hopefully this version is better. Anxiety for me has definitely been a struggle. But I don't want something I hate determine what I do with my life. So I've been trying my best to keep pushing anyway. Love you all. So grateful to each and every one of you.

I remember blocking out everyone and everything from my life for about a year and half because I was too anxious to leave my house. There was this underlying panic that wouldn't just leave. I pushed so many people away, not because I didn't love them, but because I was afraid to see them. It's hard to explain. I've been fighting like crazy to face these fears and not allow own. I don't want the thing I hate most to tell me how I'm gonna live my life. I hope you guys like this one. Tried to be as honest as possible. Love you all.

You take all my energy you
Taunt me til my wrists are bleeding
Wish I was stronger had some peace
I’m just a slave to you
Every moment you are reaching
For my throat I’m barely breathing
Tortured memories got me sinking I’m
Just a slave to you

Look at all the things you’ve stolen
Every time you’ve made me frozen
I hate everything about you
Shouldn’t have to be this way
Constant panic constant pain
I hate everything about you

Constant struggle every minute
I take one step you start you start medaling
Puppeteering take me over
Just a slave to you

Give you the reins All Decisions
You got me cornered I can’t pivot
Feel so worthless see you grinning
Just a slave to you

Look at all the things you’ve stolen
Every time you’ve made me frozen
I hate everything about you
Shouldn’t have to be this way
Constant panic constant pain
I hate everything about you

Sinking further
In your ocean
Reach for shore but
But waves keep forming
falling faster
You love to torture
Well here’s to one last
Fight to sever

Oh this bottled up rage inside
Starts to light up in flames tonight
Oh I'm looking you in the eye
You're so sick you look paralyzed
Feel this power rush through my veins
As this milestone it separates
I link it to your neck I
Watch you sink I catch my breath

Sinking closer
To your glory
Silver shores take
Every worry
See you beaming
Lost in wonder
All my anxious
Thoughts they slumber

[nathanwagner]

I'm really proud of this one. The original version was the last track I mixed on my first computer. By the end of the song, the Macbook just couldn't take it anymore. So the song ended a bit abrupt haha Hopefully this ending is better. Anxiety for me has been the worst. But I don't want something I hate determine what I do with my life. So I've been trying my best to keep pushing anyway. Love you all. So so so so grateful to each and every one of you.

[nathanwagner]

You take all my energy you
Taunt me til my wrists are bleeding
Wish I was stronger had some peace
I’m just a slave to you
Every moment you are reaching
For my throat I’m barely breathing
Tortured memories got me sinking I’m
Just a slave to you

Look at all the things you’ve stolen
Every time you’ve made me frozen
I hate everything about you
Shouldn’t have to be this way
Constant panic constant pain
I hate everything about you

Constant struggle every minute
I take one step you start you start medaling
Puppeteering take me over
Just a slave to you


Give you the reigns All Decisions
You got me cornered I can’t pivot
Feel so worthless see you grinning
Just a slave to you

Look at all the things you’ve stolen
Every time you’ve made me frozen
I hate everything about you
Shouldn’t have to be this way
Constant panic constant pain
I hate everything about you

Sinking further
In your ocean
Reach for shore but
But waves keep forming
falling faster
You love to torture
Well here’s to one last
Fight to sever

Oh this bottled up rage inside
Starts to light up in flames tonight
Oh I'm looking you in the eye
You're so sick you look paralyzed
Feel this power rush through my veins
As this milestone it separates
I link it to your neck I
Watch you sink I catch my breath

Sinking closer
To your glory
Silver shores take
Every worry
See you beaming
Lost in wonder
All my anxious
Thoughts they slumber

[theastrophotographerjudah]

All my life, I've been wanting peace, but fear and anxiety have been my worst enemy. To hear this song, speaks of the struggle that a lot of us have in our own minds

[stardapanda]

Oh my gosh, I’ve been looking forward to this extended version.
“Anxiety” is my favorite song of yours. By far.
The emotion is the vocals is absolutely amazing.
Like, the original had more anger in the vocals. But the extended version has more sadness to it.
Both versions are phenomenal.
And the instrumentals. Is so beautiful.
Thank you Nathan for your amazing music.

[backcountry]

Thank you so much. Never have I been able to explain my anxiety. While I'm so silent, my anxiety is screaming at me.

[gabrielamaria]

One of the most emotional and deepest songs that I have ever heard. You're pure. You have a gift from God in this. Keep going, the future is bright. Much love and prayers for you.

[comictitan]

I love extended versions of songs like this because the extended time period gives the song so much time to change. There are so many different melodies and lyrical rhythms all in one song so by the time it ends you feel like you just went on a whole emotional journey. I get a feeling similar to what I get when I watch a really good movie or finish an excellent book.
Also the base drop at 4:50 is one of the best pieces of music I have heard in my whole entire life. That bit before about staring anxiety in the eyes and watching it sink in your place, finally able to breathe properly, is... incredible.

[Dimanchyck]

I'm in tears. Today I felt totally depressed and it seemed nothing can help me. But singing and listening to your songs helped me to express my feelings and literally saved me. Now I see this masterpiece and it encourages me

[laura]

It describes it all…this constant fear that stops you from doing anything. Thank you so much, your songs are incredible.

[montanarosedivine]

For someone who has anxiety all my life and where its messed me up a lot, I feel like this speaks to me very well. Im currently going through hard times in my family and its been very hard getting out of bed before 1Pm 2Pm in the afternoon only to go back to bed a few hours later. I want to be able to rise above everything that is going on and prove that i am more than my anxiety

[optimusride]

Nathan...your voice is amazing. I Really love your music. This song makes me cry. This is amazing 🙏

[Dexs]

When I accidentally came across Nathan's work on Discord two years ago, I just fell in love with his voice. Powerful and lyrical at the same time. Thank you Nathan for your creativity.

[Yorkie]

thanks for making music and speaking to me on a level I can't even put into words myself. I've had a panic disorder for 20 years, it's taken so much away from me and stripped me down to nothing as a person. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Making music like this must be such an amazing outlet for you, and you do it so well, your voice is so powerful. Never stop making these please!

[cristianmidrigan]

I fall in love with his music since I've found Paranoia. The lyrics from every song he had realised doesn't want me to go away. And let's be honest, those who found drama in life, will never escape from that. We can lie about feelings, but we cannot hide them from us. And no matter what, music is the only way to keep ourselves alive, in everything we do!

[Snlw]

I know I love the first version. And I also know that I LOVE the Extended Version. That solo music part gives me GOOSEBUMPS. Best believe it'll be on repeat for the next few months. 🙌

[emmadouthat]

This speaks the words I can't only through tears. I'm currently struggling with anxiety and depression and hit rock bottom this song makes me cry. Your music speaks words when we can not speak it physically. Truly beautiful.

[ziinaart-magicpencil]

Anxiety? That's a song for me!

Jokes aside, your voice is just so beautiful. A beautiful mix of vocal skill and emotion. It is soft sometimes and almost agressive some other times. It expresses a wide array of emotions beautifully.

The instrumental, as usual, isn't disappointing at all. The slow rising of intensity and emotion until reaching emotions like one would feel whilst watching a very emotional and epic movie... That's the best way I can find to put it.

Those parts where the piano is carrying the whole song alone hit like a truck. Always love those.


Thanks for making such amazing music. I'm glad I found your music one fateful day.



Edit: 4:47 the part after "catch my breath" really caught me off-guard. It is just magical honestly. I'm glad my mind forgets and moves on because if it didn't I would suffer carrying the intense feelings this part made me feel, like a bullet in my heart throughout my day. Your music hurts in most beautiful ways...

[AD_Saffa_HD]

An absolute masterpiece! Despite the original version having an abrupt ending, it was still my favourite song of yours. This just amplifies those feelings 10 fold. Every time I listen to this song, by the mid to late portion, I lie back, eyes closed in awe at this beauty! Thank you for your gift to the world! Love you Nathan!

[snooh-jvbr]

❤❤❤❤❤ Nathan your music resonates with my soul. There are no words to describe what I feel, how thankful I am for you, your music. You are amazing amazing. Truly. ❤❤❤

[kurtcobain]

Music is one of the most important things in my music I would prob not be writing here. Music is there to inspire other humans with your words n to transport emotions...Music is existing for humans like you, bc you transport emotions like nobody else. Your words, your singing touches me in a way I have never felt before. You open your mouth n I am having goosebumps. Its supernatural what your voice can cause. I just hope that you will get the attention you deserve soon, so the whole world can be touched like me and just enjoy you again n again. Thank you for your Music...I wish you all the best for your Life and especially for your Music career. I hope you will never stopp to make music.