Without saying goodbye karaoke

[Ellina_]

i see her light up the screen
always when i least expect
hate how that one little word can have such an effect
mum

nan says i shouldn’t pick up
both of us know how this ends
there’s something stupid inside me that always pretends

maybe it’s gonna be different
maybe i owe her a chance

so, i’m answering the call when i get a call
maybe twice a year or so
opening the door like i did before
ready for the latest blow
thinking ’bout her eyes as i realise
that she’s only asking for money
i’m sorry
i guess i should know by now


fire in my face
thunder in my ears
blocking out the background noise
don’t know how to say
i don’t wanna talk
but i wanna hear her voice
wish i didn’t want everything i want
suddenly she says she’s gotta go
i ask why
she hangs up without saying goodbye
stepping out, stepping in
missed my birthday again
brush it off, she’ll explain
just you wait and see
almost wish that she were
on the other side of the world
so i’d stop hoping she’d ever visit me

i don’t even hate her now
i don’t need her anyhow
i just sort of want her to
ask about boys or school
i could block her number or
call her up and say no more
but, i guess i’d rather keep playing the fool


’cause maybe it’s gonna be different
maybe i owe her a chance


so, i’m answering the call when i get a call (answer the call)
putting on the perfect show (answer the call)
opening the door like i did before (open the door)
letting the excitement grow (open the door)
thinking ’bout her eyes as i realise
that she’s only asking for money
i’m sorry, i guess i should know by now (guess you should know)
fire in my face
thunder in my ears
blocking out the background noise
don’t know how to say
i don’t wanna talk
but i wanna hear her voice
wish i didn’t want everything i want
suddenly she says that she’s gotta go
i ask why
she hangs up without saying

[meganthomatheatre]

i see her light up the screen
always when i least expect
strange how that one little word can have such an effect
mum.

nan doesn’t know that she calls
i hide it all from my friends
i know it’s stupid but something inside me pretends

maybe it’s gonna be different
maybe i owe her a chance

so i’m answering the call when i get a call
wondering how it’s gonna go
opening the door like i did before
letting the excitement grow
thinking bout her eyes as i realise
that she’s only asking for money
i guess i should know by now
fire in my face
thunder in my ears
blocking out the background noise
don’t know what to say
don’t know how to help
i just wanna hear her voice
wish there was a way she could be okay
suddenly she says that she’s gotta go
i ask why
she hangs up without saying goodbye

stepping out stepping in
missed my birthday again
brush it off, she’ll explain
just you wait and see
almost wish that she were
on the other side of the world
so that someone could help her who isn’t me.

i don’t even hate her now
i don’t blame her anyhow
i just sort of wish she was like all the mums i know
i could block her number or
call her up and say no more
every time i try i just can’t let her go

cause maybe it’s gonna be different
maybe she’s gonna be fine

so i’m answering the call when i get a call
wondering how it’s gonna go
opening the door like i did before
ready for the latest blow
thinking bout her eyes as i start to cry
i can’t do a thing bout it
NOTHING
MUM
i should know by now

fire in my face
thunder in my ears
blocking out the background noise
don’t know what to say
don’t know how to help
i just wanna hear her voice
wish there was a way she could be okay
suddenly she says that she’s gotta go
i ask why
she hangs up without saying