Taking The Abortion Pill Was TRAUMATIC For Me | Toni McFadden

“Inside, I think for a woman, it changes you because we're supposed to give life, not take it. And so this is why I do what I do. Because if I could spare any woman from having to go through this, it's worth it for me to share the pain because I'm sharing it with purpose.” - Toni McFadden

Watch our full round table discussion on the chemical abortion pill.

[studentsforlife]

“Inside, I think for a woman, it changes you because we're supposed to give life, not take it. And so this is why I do what I do. Because if I could spare any woman from having to go through this, it's worth it for me to share the pain because I'm sharing it with purpose.” - Toni McFadden

Watch our full round table discussion on the chemical abortion pill.

[tree_dweeb]

I became pregnant with my first child at 16. The morning of my abortion appointment, I couldn’t get out of bed. Something kept me there, grounded. When I told my mom, she was pissed. I told her I couldn’t do it. The baby didn’t ask for this. I was irresponsible with birth control. I took responsibility for my actions. Here I am at 31 and she just turned 14. I thank God every day for blessing me with her.


Edit: I just want to say thank you to all the positive energy and comments. I’ve never gotten this much acknowledgment as I’ve never told my family or close friends about this. It still scares me to think of the what-if. She is now a wonderful big sister, smart, goofy, is her own self and a freshman in NJROTC. She plans on going to the Marines after high school.

[neonnoir]

This is so true. I had 1 first trimester abortion and it kills me to this day. The guilt of what could have been wreaks havoc on my soul. I am blessed with two beautiful children and love them so much, but still have a hole in my heart where my first child should be. This isn't talked about enough and for feminists to say abortion is empowering, is so disgusting and evil.

[RedeemedDaughterofTheMostHigh]

I had 2 abortions and it never bothered me until I got completely clean and quit numbing my feelings. The pain once it hit me, once I realized that I murdered 2 of my children, was indescribable. Jesus healed me from it. He's the only one that could've and he did❤❤

[Wakaflakawalker]

When I was on the phone scheduling my abortion, they told me EXACTLY what was going to happen. And I was thinking “this will traumatize me. I will live with this guilt that I took someone’s whole life before it even began…” I cancelled it one week later. My son is 7 months and very loved.

[dagmar]

I had a miscarriage, but my body would not expel it naturally. I was given the abortion pill and I had the same experience. I really thought I was fine until I woke up on the bathroom floor and my head was bleeding, because I had passed out and bashed my face on our tile. My husband had put our son back to bed and accidentally fallen asleep with him. I had to crawl across my house while trying to stay conscious to get him. We went to the ER and I received an emergency D&C and blood transfusion. The pill is extremely dangerous and should not be handed out so freely especially to young girls hiding a pregnancy from their parents.

[SlygothaTheBroodmother]

I was so scared when i became pregnant, but when my parents found out ( severe morning sickness, couldn't hide it) they immediately made an appointment. An obstetrics appointment. I gave her up for adoption to an infertile couple, kept in touch, shes now 21.

[jay-t]

Wonder why the mainstream media won’t allow women like this to tell their story

[truthhurts]

I spent 6 hours on the toilet. The whole night is a blur, all I remember is pain. People just kept telling me it was normal, its just a clump of cells, its healthcare. It was the worst night of my life. I murdered my child and i will never be able to take that back. I look at my 8 year old daughter and I think about that child that is missing. The child that would be cuddling and laughing with us.

[brendawilson]

I went through that when I was younger I had no clue what was about to happen. Just thought it was the solution. It was so traumatic and within about 2 weeks I was suicidal. I stayed that way for years. I have 4 grown children now. It took me 10 years to forgive myself. There will always be a part of my heart that hurts for my unborn child.

[aGenuineWoman]

THIS. Everyone acting like it’s nothing makes me sick

[AlwaysBelieve]

I’m 65. And I have something to say to all those women who say they don’t regret their abortion; you’re not dead yet. I have missed my aborted child every day of my life since 1975. You never know when the grief will hit you; for me it’s been a lifetime 💔

[ItsMeNanaD]

When I was 39, my first daughter, at age 17, told us she was pregnant. 2 weeks later my other daughter told us she was pregnant, also age 17. 2 weeks later my niece told us she was pregnant at age 16. Fast forward 13 years & I’ve got 13 amazing grandkids & wouldn’t trade them for anything. Parents need to be more understanding & not make their kids be afraid to come to them for help. I’m so glad they all trusted us enough to come to us & ask for our help. I’d be devastated if any of them aborted my grandchildren. I’d rather raise the kid than have them aborted. An old friend of mine had an abortion as a teenager & them endometriosis stopped her from having any children. She’s now in her 50s & has & continues to suffer from her choice. It’s been sad to watch over the decades. That was her only chance to be a Mom, only she didn’t know that when she was 17. We didn’t know about endo back then. I’ll raise the kids no one wants. I’ll love them. Bring them here, God will make a way for us.

[caliconservative]

This testimony supports my thinking that abortion is violence against women and the pre-born.

[GigiSews]

My parents tried to force me to abort my baby. I stood strong and said youll never see me nor the baby again if you try to do this. I was ready to run. I was also told i needed to abort my last pregnancy because of my age. I refused. I have a 28 year old an 18 yr old and a 10 year old. My oldest is married with two children. My previous grandbabies. I could not imagine my life without those boys in my world

[Ingaingaweloveanimals]

I’m literally haunted by the abortion I had when I was 23. I dream of the son I murdered and don’t know if I’ll ever get over what I did, I was on drugs and had no support. But that’s no excuse, I wish I hadn’t done it.

[mollyleaf]

About 5 years ago now I was incredibly irresponsible and got pregnant. Back then I was so brainwashed that I thought it was completely normal and okay. I was given pills and had an at-home abortion. Apparently it lasted for 11 hours total; I remember going back and forth to the bathroom to either bleed or vomit. The entire time my "friend", who was there for support, was telling me how disgusting babies are, calling it a parasite and a "crotch goblin." Even though I was "pro-choice, " something deep within me wanted to scream at her to not say those things about my baby. A few years went by and I told my therapist about it, because I'd convinced myself that "I must be a psychopath for not feeling badly about it at all." A couple more years go by and I'm diagnosed with multiple personality disorder & discovered a fragmented personality that took and held on to the trauma from the abortion. I wasn't a psychopath -- quite the opposite: it was so traumatic that my mind had to split itself in order to deal with the murdering of my baby.
...and I truly thought I was pro-choice. My experience, and so many others', confirms to me that as women we are *intrinsically designed* to want to care for babies/children.
Two years ago I found Christ and repented. I pray I can see my precious baby in the afterlife.
All the love to all those who have dealt with this pain. Still, to this day, my brain can't allow me to feel the pain because it's simply too much.
Blessings... 💛🫂

[welpdenny]

My mother got pregnant with me at 17. She was terrified because she had JUST had my older sister at 16. Yes, she was irresponsible and careless when it came to birth control, but that was because her parents are from Mexico, and very old school. They never spoke about sex and the consequences of it to her. She didn’t even know she could get pregnant when she did. She was extremely naive, but she knew what she was risking when she got pregnant with me.
She was so embarrassed she made the same mistake again, and only a year after the first one too. So she hid her pregnancy with me until she was 7 months. When she was 6 months, she called planned parenthood and asked if she could still get an abortion as far along as she was. They told her yes. Many babies have survived out of the womb at six months. But they still were willing to kill me. I’m here today to tell the story, so obviously she couldn’t go through with it. She tells me all the time that I saved her life, and she doesn’t know where she would be today without me and my siblings. This story is heartbreaking, but also so important, so I thought I’d share it. If you’re thinking about getting an abortion, please don’t. I promise you, you can get through this without taking such a painful path that you will inevitably come to regret.

[jinamg]

I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks. Seeing the pieces come out of you and flushing parts of your child and rivers of blood and chunks of flesh down the toilet is not something I wish on any woman. I can’t imagine the extra guilt and pain I’d have felt if I CHOSE to do that to my child.

[allisoncarley]

I miscarried at 10 weeks. I didn't really know what to expect as my doc wasn't specific enough with me. I remember the biggest clot coming out when I was in a Chick FilA drive through sitting passenger. I knew I needed to change the pad I was wearing so I went inside. I will NEVER forget the feeling of having to flush huge clots down (my baby) down the restaurant's toilets, and walking back to the car with massively blood stained pants in a crowded ChickFilA. Brings tears to my eyes 20 years later. I pray for consolation for anyone's maternal heart suffering from miscarriage or abortion. The Catholic Church welcomes you with open arms.