what it feels like to fade away (playlist)

Tracklist:
0:00 Mineve - our dream

1:56 undercurrent. - rain on my window - slowed + reverb

3:51 cosluar - last goodbye - slowed + reverb

5:43 c152 - long night

7:38 coldlakes - want to forget this - slowed + reverb

10:25 Meltone - there’s nothing left of me - slowed + reverb

12:56 widx. - dawn

15:14 altered sigh - void's lullaby

17:07 sevenlies, your home - stay with me

19:06 auroratønes - no one cares

20:43 🔁

#ambientmusic #snowfall #darkambient #sleepmusic

[SolitudeSoundscapes-zm]

This music came into my life at a time when I felt incredibly alone, like I was drifting through a vast ocean with no shore in sight. The silence was deafening, and I longed for something, anything, to fill the void. Then, I stumbled upon this melody, and it was like a warm, gentle hand reaching out. It became my quiet companion, a reminder that even in the deepest solitude, there's beauty to be found and emotions to be shared. Thank you, channel owner, for sharing such a gem. And to everyone listening, I wish you all good health and peace. May this music bring you comfort, just as it did for me.

[QueenOfAllNuggets]

I know this is annoying or you hear it alot but, the world is genuinely a better place with you in it I'm so proud of you, whoever you are.

[NillianRocker-rrlb]

7 months ago, I listened to a soundtrack similar to this one. At that time I felt overwhelmed, exhausted, and alone. The amount of development I went through since then has healed me. I finally reached out to my friends, I got better sleep during the night, and I was able to pace myself again not too much after. Remember people, life is a struggle, but eventually it’ll get easier, and you’ll feel like a new person by the end of it.

[ahappyfrenchtoast]

*3 AM THOUGHTS*
It was 3 in the morning. I jolted awake. The whole town was sleeping, as I stared into the darkness.
I forgot to close the door to my bedroom, and the hallway looked as if it was an endless abyss.
I turned on the lights, and my eyes stung.
My breath was shallow, and I cursed under it. Why this hour?
The rain outside was incessant, the window binds crackled against the delicate glass surface. It might have been a thunderstorm just a little bit earlier, and I swear I could hear faint roaring in the distance.
The air was a little bit too cold, as I adjusted my position on the bed and I still shivered under my blanket.
It was as if, I was alone in the world.
My thoughts began racing endlessly. What if, what if I I just disappear from this world tonight, without any trace?
Would anyone actually miss me? Would it be a tearjerker, tragic story, or simply a sensational headline? Would anyone other than my parents feel like a dent was left in their heart?
What could have happened, had I not been born into this world?
Ironically, 3 AM is always the *perfect* time to dwell on these destructive thoughts, and it was as if, the world was telling me, that I would be alone, at the end of the day.
And it did not make feel better, that I was actually not alone. It just hurt me, that this was a pain that I did not bear on my own.
If I said these thoughts out loud, it would break the hearts of many. “You are important, ” they would say.
Yet I just could not stop. Nothing could stop my overflowing thoughts.
It was probably the illusion of the endlessly long hallway, and the melancholic rain. In about 4 hours, the sun would appear, and I would forget that I ever felt this way.
But then again, I would wake up at 3 AM, the thoughts racing endlessly, a vicious circle I did not know how to put an end to.
I turned off all the lights, and went back to sleep.
Hoping that I would not wake up at 3AM, but I know it was just futile.
It will be 3 in the morning. I jolt awake. The whole town is sleeping, as I stare into the darkness.

[YesIMa_girl]

I still stay awake all night overthinking everything crying stressing out over the past but I tried being present with myself and I noticed a lot of things the flowers that bloomed next to my window the beautiful canvases I spent hours painting and drawing my childhood stuff animals and my little sister growing fast the cold relaxing breeze from the air conditioner the books I spent hours reading my body and how I feel actually beautiful for the first time in ages and my mom who spent hours cooking and cleaning and taking care of us my dad that spent late hours working at night so we could see him when we wake up I also got courage to open Minecraft and explore my old worlds with my brother I opened Roblox and I called my best friend that I haven’t seen in a week and played old Roblox games the day ended and I felt proud of where I am how I look the people around me most people look at the dark side of life and forget about the good side even if life gets rough you deserve a break ❤

[SadnessnSorrow-nq]

19:06 This video really helped me relax in the dark. Now I no longer feel anxious in the dark. I actually feel at peace. It means a lot to me :)

[philipe]

Like a dream where you see your mom or dad come out of the fog and give you a long hug

[falco]

"You have power over your mind, not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength" - Marcus Aurelius

[TheMysticTable]

Years ago I lost the girl I loved. She died in an accident. Even now still after all these years, I still love her, and I miss her and grieve her. Since she died I felt lost and adrift in the world. Like a ghost drifting through the world, without a clear purpose, disconnected from the world itself. So many times I wished it would have been me, and really just wished that somehow I could hold her in my arms again. I am still grieving her today, somehow despite everything unable to move on. She was my sweet fox, and I miss her so much. I would trade the entire world, just to see her one more time. 😭 She felt like my other half. 😭😭

[alisa-csf]

I'm always listening music like this one while studying, and actually I hate school and homework, but the vibe that gives music...Aaah it's too good

[vthrottle]

You know it's gonna hit hard if it starts with rain on my window

[zdjp]

“If you only knew how close to the edge I was already sitting…. Then maybe you wouldn’t push me so hard…” 😔

[shadowmilkcookiemasterofdeceit]

Hello strangers. I just want you all to know I love you. Even if I might not be here soon. Even if I go to Heaven by my own hand soon. I'll love you from Heaven. All of you. You matter. Please, remember that. Even if I won't be here to tell you that later. I'll love you from Heaven.

Now, for my little venting session I wrote just now

"Greetings, dear strangers.

I've always been a gifted child. Perfect grades in every single subject for six years straight. But now, after moving to a different country, struggling to adjust and make real friends, spiraling the furthest I've been in my depression, getting panic attacks every single day, I burnt out. I'm done trying.

Being a gifted burnout is weird. On one hand, now that my grades aren't perfect in every class, I feel useless and like I want to go to Heaven if you get what I mean, on the other, I get like 65-80% on literally everything without studying at all. I have multiple panic attacks every day I'm in school, I go 0 days without crying and wanting to rest in peace, again, if you know what I mean, but my parents are still happy and know almost nothing. At least I have a therapist. Seeing her again in a week and a half if I'm not wrong, going in some new clothes to show off, hope she'll like it.

See you all in Heaven someday, good morning, day or night, night for me, to all of you. Good luck, and don't forget, even if I die, you know you'll matter to someone, because I'll love you from Heaven, dear strangers.

Sincerely, from yours truly, RXQ, a depressed teenager who lives every single day thinking I won't live another one, going to Heaven by my own hand. Goodbye."

Goodbye. I'll see you all in Heaven soon.
-RXQ, 1:30AM, 09/09/24

[huemids]

To fade to the background is seemingly a stage when your own existence becomes vague without any sound of the world playing on low shades day by day. This is not like departing this world otherwise; but simply a quiet aloofness, which is said to sometimes be the withdrawal of some kind of hurry in the world. The act of fading is comparable to the reduction of the foot level that ascends the sky though engulfs less sunshine in the same provided time, a beauty which communicates what does not can be said or seen. In the midst of the feeling is also a mixture of strange dualities - in one faded, one feels proud of being part of the entire universe, or at least some power that works within rather than against the self. That is the hope, drawn to the understanding something that is more true, more peaceful and more complete.

It is an almost unnoticeable process at first, much like the soft fading of a memory. A feeling of disconnection starts to creep in-not from other people but from yourself. The edges of who you are start to soften, as though you are no longer as sharply defined as you used to be. All conversations start to sound the same, even the sound of your voice fades into the noise floor. You start to exist in the world, like an image painted that is slowly being washed over with the color of time. You're there, but not quite.

There’s at the very beginning a vague apprehension—a sense of slipping in between the crevices. You may find yourself turning to the safe elements, to the pleasures that once made you happy, to the people that once kept you grounded. In attempting to grasp this clearly, a paradox shows itself—due to how much one resists letting go, the essence of things slips away even more in the process. Every effort to keep things in the present only seems to make the world further away as if dissolving into nothing and you are trapped in between the lack and excess of ones’ presence. It’s quite the state of peaceful isolation in which you could possibly hear the thumping of your heart simple. 🤍

[AmaZENSounds]

This playlist is pretty chilling. I normally listen to it while I am on a long drive home.

[DamonDoh]

I love this channel, it has such calming music that just lets you relax.

[ryamaha]

Fade away… yes… for only one second!!!

We need you … so talented human being who has a lot of love to give too…

Xoxo ❤

[superfly]

I felt myself accept that i was dying. But by a miracle i survived and am still here. Nothing can prepare you for the guilt it brings you with how readily you just accept your fate and give up.

[Cptnn_Oblivious]

These days this playlist actually makes me feel the opposite. It's like what it feels like to slowly reappear from having been faded away for years. Like I'm feeling things again and it honestly hurts in such a beautiful way

Also I'm profoundly happy with the comments section. It reminds me that I'm not the only one in the world that feels things so deeply to the point of physical pain. It's a great feeling to know there are kindred spirits somewhere out in this massive, small world.

[latixnia]

i had a friend, her name was janet. we were 7. we always played together. but she always drifts away cause of work. one day when it was her birthday she just somehow disappeared in the party, i just thought she was still sleeping, but everyone left the party. i checked her room and she wasn’t there. she turned 12. i was already 13. she’s no longer a child, but i’m still childish. so she just left me and went to new mature friends? i can’t change, that’s what god made me like. it’s like where she faded away from me. is she touch starved? is she in a bad mood? am i really an over thinker? i’m trying to not be over dramatic but i love you to whoever is reading this.
and for janet, my dear friend who left me, i don’t care about you anymore. your really some pathetic ignorant person who only cares about the looks, or the more mature people. see you can see all those different personalities wandering around the surface of our beautiful earth, but your ugly heart has just a different sensation. you can have fun in many ways but i think this is just torture to me. before you left me, i already prepared gifts. i bought you an extra birthday cake. i ate that cake alone. doesn’t feel the same anymore. you’ve just faded away like a pencil erasing a mistake. your the mistake. your randomly avoiding me at all times. just go and don’t bother me anymore. don’t say sorry to me, say sorry to my heart.
i love you to the people reading this again. your special.
needa hand? of course, we can be moots!:)