Why I haven't posted since October 7th

Why I haven’t uploaded in a while…

On October 7th 2023, my world turned upside down when I lost my brother. It's been a roller coaster of emotions, and honestly, I'm still figuring out how to navigate life without him.

This video was really difficult for me to film… to be this vulnerable and share something so painful, especially with so much hate and division surrounding this topic.

But I'm sharing this because I know some of you might have gone through similar losses, and I hope this makes you feel not so alone.

Below, I've dropped some links to the resources that might help if you're dealing with grief, loss or trauma.

United States:
Victim Support Services

National Center for Victims of Crime

The Compassionate Friends

UK & Europe:
Victim Support Europe

Cruse

Victim Support

Australia:
Australian Centre for Grief and Bereavement

Lifeline Australia

Beyond Blue

I really want to hear from you guys, even if it’s just a simple 'hello'. It means more than you know. Let's keep it kind and supportive in the comments, okay?

Thanks for sticking with me. It means everything.

Love
Shell xx

[nisbanaz]

From a Muslim follower of yours I wanted to express how sorry I am for your loss Shelley. We can see the devastation this has caused 💔

Please keep going for the sake of your brother.

Wishing for peace in the Middle East between two people who once lived side by side in harmony/ mutual love & respect for one another 🙏🏻

[cindizdrinc]

Not going anywhere but staying here supporting your channel. My heart goes out to you. Dealing with a huge loss is absolutely life-changing. I’m praying for you for continued strength, growth, for healing, for continuing to seek the truth. Love always to you

[Ruby-krfh]

My heartfelt condolences, I'm so sorry for your loss

[werixwolf]

That is absolutely devastating 💔 I am so sorry for your loss x

[anafs]

As I watch this, I feel for you everytime I see that the video is cut and edited because you got overwhelmed by emotion. I see how much you're trying to keep it together and how strong and collected you're being. I'm a long time follower so I can see how you haven't felt like the bubbly and always happy Shelley. But being this open and vulnerable online isn't for the weak. Clearly your strength isn't just in the curves, it comes from within. You're a wonderfully genuine and kind person, and I wish you so much healing and happiness. ❤

[katrinalee]

I’m so so sorry for your loss. Sending positive vibes your way! 😢

[raquelcarmelo]

I'm really sorry for your lost 💔 it's really heartbreaking. sending healing vibes for you and your family

[natashenanigans]

just lost my brother to a rare sarcoma, he was only 28 years old... I really understand your sibling grief. I am so sorry.

[XChoclateThunderX]

I am very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what this must be like for you and everyone involved

[selinadarcia]

Beautiful❤️ take care of yours and can’t wait to see the journey progress ❤️

[tiamaria]

I'm so so sorry for your huge loss

[juikarve]

I've been following you for years now and I was shell-shocked to see your story back in October. I can't even begin to imagine the pain you are going through, and to top it all of, not being able to speak about this trauma without getting so much hate at absolutely no fault of yours.. stay strong Shelley. I've always looked up to you and I know you of all people can turn this sorrow into something great.
What happened to Danny was unforgivable. I hope and pray he's in a better place.. he'll always be watching over you.
All the love, from India.

[halob]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your brother Danny. May his memory be a blessing.❤

[AuroraHolisticLights]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Shelley. I'm sending you and your family lots of love and light. You have a beautiful soul <3

[amg]

I can’t imagine what you’re going through Shelley, but sending you and your family so much love and healing. ❤️‍🩹

[madisonthemagnificent]

So sorry for your loss❤️ You are so strong and I’m sure he is proud of you for sharing his story

[Nez]

Shelly, I'm so sorry for your loss .. thank you for sharing 🩵

[jillianwickham]

I am so very sorry for your loss. This is immeasurably heartbreaking. Thank you for sharing a bit about Danny’s gentle and strong soul, as well as the photo of him. You and your family are in my prayers today.

[barbar]

תודה רבה לך על השיתוף, ריגשת עד דמעות. ♥

[majaandonovska]

And yet at your most vulnerable you display such strength!
Shelley we're here and we are with you!