PAUBAYA Lyric Video | Moira Dela Torre

Here it is. The last track of the Patawad album. The closing song for our winter season.

Lyrics:

Saan nagsimulang magbago'ng lahat
Kailan, nung ako ay di na naging sapat?
Ba't di mo sinabi nung una palang
Ako ang kailangan, pero di ang mahal

Saan nag kulang ang aking pagmamahal?
Lahat ay binigay, nang mapangiti ka lang
Ba't di ko nakita na ayaw mo na?
Ako ang kasama, pero hanap mo siya

Chorus:
At kung masaya ka sa piling niya
Hindi ko na pipilit pa
Ang tanging hiling ko lang sakanya
Wag kang paluhain, at alagaan ka niya

Saan natigil ang pagiging totoo
Sa tuwing mababanggit na mahal mo ako
Ba't di mo inamin na merong iba?
Ako ang kayakap, pero isip mo siya

Chorus:
At kung masaya ka sa piling niya
Hindi ko na pipilit pa
Ang tanging hiling ko lang sakanya
Wag kang paluhain, at alagaan ka niya

Bridge:
Ba't di ko naisip na merong hanggan
Ako ang nauna, pero siya ang wakas

At kita naman sayong mga mata
Kung bakit pinili mo siya
Mahirap labanan ang tinadhana
Pinapaubaya, ko na sa Kanya

Lyric Video team:
Production Design: @jonatstouch
Starring: Caramel & Pochi @pochiandcaramel
Hair: @iammjrone
Makeup: @nikimedina
Dress by: @psofficielthelabel @itspatriciasnts
Plants: @spruceplantshop

Song by: @jasonmarvinph & Moira Dela Torre
Arranged by: Moira Dela Torre & Jason Marvin
Vocal Production: @jonathanmanalo

Music Production:
Sound Design, Drum Programming, Synth Bass: @_jamesmicah
Piano: @chrisianrosales
Acoustic Guitars: @musicortez
Drum Pattern: @lukesigua
Mastering Engineer: Nick Azurin

Released by:
CS Music and Star Music

Produced by: Moira Dela Torre

[moirarachelle]

Alam kong hindi madaling maging vulnerable kaya salamat sa tiwala. Salamat sa inspirasyon. Sobrang tapang niyong lahat. 🤍

[mist]

This is the story of us.

We met in med school. We were each other's greatest competitor. We were cat and dog. We were not fond of each other. But as the months passed by, we started to know each other in a way that we had shared a couple of back stories as we worked on our group presentation. We somehow felt connected to each other because we had so many things in common, it felt weird at first actually, but for some reason, we clicked. We became friends, and then close friends, and then after a year, we became lovers. It was the happiest times of my life. Imagine, we were off to the same profession we want, we spent days and nights reviewing and studying and every time we felt tired, we would always cuddle even just for five minutes more or less. We talked about our future, us working under the same hospital, us building our own clinic, us getting married and having kids to teach biology and such. We were so in love back then.

But just when I thought that everything was in their right place, my biggest downfall came. After our third anniversary, he started to become cold. He no longer joins me in studying, he was even reasoning out that he's tired all the time and that he couldn't send me home. I said it's fine, I can manage. I thought it was just that, but it wasn't. Days became weeks, weeks became months. During our monthsary I decided to confront him, when he said he couldn't make it to our dinner date. I went to his condo and there, my greatest fear welcomed me without a warning. I froze on my spot a few doors away from them. He was standing in front of his room and in front of a woman, a pregnant woman. He was holding her like she's the most fragile thing on earth. And she was clinging onto him for her dear life. They looked so happy.

I didn't know how I manage to compose myself and walk closer to them. As soon as our eyes met, he froze. I looked at the woman and tensely lifted my hand as I introduce myself as a mere classmate, and how she introduced herself shocked me more. She said they're together for almost a year already.

I asked him to talk to me in private. And there he admitted the truth. I asked him about his true feelings, and he said he loves her more. That every time we're together, his mind was with her. He said I make him hard, but she makes him weak. He said I make him feel special, but she makes him feel loved. He said I should punch him, because he would rather end our relationship than leave her and their baby.

And that's how our story ended. She gave birth and they got married right after. And I was left there hanging, asking myself what did I do wrong, what happened between us, what happened to those promises we made.

And I've come to realize, as I moved forward, that it's not about who comes first, who's always there 24/7, it's about whom he loves more, who holds his heart and who owns his mind. And I'm not her.







Edited: I didn't know this would blow up but thank you guys for your comforting and encouraging words. Though this happened 7 years ago, it still feels fresh and new to me, it's also the same reason why I haven't jump into any relationships yet. But I'm happy for them and I'm happier for myself because I made it. I surrendered everything to God and he never left me. I made it to the bright side of life.

Keep safe and always be healthy!

Love,

Dr. Dee

[kai.zach]

I watched this MV before, days after my breakup with my ex. And I played it once again this day. The only difference is that the pain was gone and I'm lucky that I'm now in a healthy and non-toxic relationship with my partner. I now hardly believe that despite all the heartbreaks you experienced, there will be this person that will turn everything upside down and will make you believe in love all over again <3

[drizzlemarouise]

"Ako ang nauna pero siya ang wakas"

While listening to this song, he's right next to me, peacefully sleeping while hugging me. Pero alam ko na di ako ang mahal niya. We're not really committed but to cut the story short, I got pregnant. He's inlove with someone else pero ako yung nauna. I was with him at his lowest but during quarantine na di kami nagkita, he met someone and he fell in love instantly. It hurts so bad. I want to give my baby a complete family since hindi ko nakuha yan. He's with me now pero alam ko na di ako ang nasa isip niya. While staring at him right now, I'm gonna let him go, for real. Alam ko naman na no matter what I do, hindi talaga ako.
To the one I dearly love: T, despite everything, I still want to thank you for giving me the best gift that I could ever have. Can't wait to meet our little one. I love you so much. I hope and pray for your happiness because you deserve it. Thank you for making me happy. I will never forget you. I love you. Pinapaubaya na kita.
To his happiness: N, please take care of him and love him wholeheartedly. Make him happy kasi ikaw lang yung makakagawa nyan. :')



Edited: Thank you so much for the kind words. Can't stop crying while reading it. Thank you. Soon, magiging okay din tayo. :')

-H.

[sweetpotato]

Heard my bf listening to this song kaninang morning and I saw him teared up kaya bumalik nalang ako matulog. It pained me because nasasaktan pa din pala siya. I met him when he was heartbroken by someone whom he loved (love) dearly, he had to let go of that someone kasi nalaman niyang ikakasal na pala. I was there trying to mend his heart. I tried to fixed him, make him happy, be there for him. We‘ ve been dating for a year and a half now, I thought naayos ko na siya but just this morning I saw him cry. Kala niya tulog pa ako, I let him fix himself before ako gumising para di niya malaman na nakita ko siya umiyak. He makes breakfast for us and he left his phone sa bedroom so out of curiosity I checked his phone, and there sinearch niya yung ex niya sa facebook and he saw the video of her gender reveal. Nasasaktan pa din pala siya. Relate na relate pala siya sa song na to. Greatest love niya yun e, ika nga niya the “best girl ever”. Nag paubaya siya pero bakit gano’n mahal pa din niya. I don’t know what to feel tbh, it pained me pero mahal ko siya e, kaya mag aantay nalang ako na ako na yung mahal niya.
Ako yung kasama, pero hindi pa din pala ako ang mahal.

[roseparaiso]

When Tinkerbell said:
"If you have to choose between me and her, choose her. Because if you really loved me, there wouldn't be another choice"
I felt that.

[OPM_Tagalog_]

Philippines is an amazing country!! I'm from Malaysia, but I love your Philippines very much. From the people, the culture, to the food to this song. Everything is great!!
Is anyone listening to this song also me?!❤❤

[krizreyes]

2 years ago, I was in a relationship with a guy who has an 8 year old daughter. He is separated with his wife (the wife also has a new boyfriend). After almosta year of our relationship, we planned to live together but when his daughter knew what would happen, his daughter cried and begged him not to pursue and break up with me. At first, he ghosted me and after weeks, he finally explained to me what happened. He told me he loves me but it breaks his heart everytime his daughter cries because of the situation.

I would never want his daughter to be hurt or resent him because of me so I let him go. It was hard for me to move on at that time but I had a conversation with my dad during my birthday a few days after our breakup.

I asked my dad "Daddy, kung dati nung bata ako and sabihin ko sa'yo na hiwalayan mo si ____, gagawin mo po ba yun for me?" (My dad and mom broke up when I was just 2 years old)

My dad said "Ofcourse. Ikaw pipiliin ko." From that day onwards, my heart felt good letting go of the love that I know is not meant to be. Atleast alam ko na kahit nagpaubaya ako, I made them happy. And atleast alam ko that my dad will always be my one true love forever because he will always choose me. Nagpaubaya ako but I know my dad will also do the same if he is in that situation.

[markjeromeagas]

Lets go to the brightest sides of this song, I’ve learned that, be with someone who doesn't make you feel worthless. Someone who will love you despite your imperfections. Someone who's always proud to have you.

Be with someone who will love you whole-heartedly. Someone who will give you undivided attention. Someone who respects you for who you are.

Be with someone who is responsible enough. Someone who thinks of his future with you. Someone who plans and builds his dreams with you.

Be with someone who loves you as much as he loves his family. Someone who sees his future with you. Someone who looks forward to having his own family with you in the future.

Be with someone who accepts all your flaws. Someone who can still love you despite your craziness. Someone who has all the patience for you.

Be with someone who can resist to temptations. Someone who can stay faithful to you even when you're not around. Someone who is always proud to tell other girls that he's already committed to you.

Be with someone who always brags you to other people. Someone who's proud to tell the world that you are his girl. Someone who loves you no matter what other people say.

Be with someone who will always fight for you. Someone who stays no matter how rough things might get. Someone who will go with you through thick and thin.

Lastly, don't love someone who walks away and leave you hanging everytime you argue. Don't choose someone who comes back, choose the one who never leaves.

[dextersumayao]

The word "paubaya", in Christian's point of view, is beautiful. It shows humbleness before the Lord. Admitting our weaknesses, and surrending it all to God. Admitting that this fight is not our's, kaya ipinapaubaya natin ang lahat sa Diyos na lumikha.

This word, emphasizes that we can do nothing apart from Him. ✨

[MHT_MUSIC_]

This is the time that we acknowledge OPM songs. Sobrang deserve ng mga artist natin ang recognition. Nakaka lungkot na mas puno pa ang concerts ng korean idol kesa sa mga small artists natin na halos di nabibigyan ng break... napaka ganda ng mga kantang gawa ng Pinoy..💖💖💖

[zxldo]

MY KIND OF “PAUBAYA”

5 years kami on and off, we we’re pretty unsure about many things pero for sure we loved each other. LOVE IS ABOUT TIMING KASI, there was always something off. We always lost MOMENTUM. Eventually that goodbye came.

Pero while everyone is talking about their “paubaya” referring to someone, mine is to God. Yes po, pinapaubaya ko sa Diyos na mahanap namin both ang para sa amin. In this sense hopeful ang “paubaya” ko. Ofc masakit guys but always remember that IT’S NOT ABOUT FINDING SOMEONE BETTER THAN HIM/HER, BUT FINDING SOMEONE BETTER FOR YOU BOTH.

While PAUBAYA tends to have that grieving connotation based sa stories dito sa comment section. Let there be also the PAUBAYA sa Diyos na one day that right person will finally come to our life. God bless po. 🥺🙏🏼

[kuyajuanchannel]

*AKO ANG NAG SAING, * *IBA ANG KUMAIN* 🎵🎶

ikaw anong pinaubaya mo?

[RonaldPesigan]

The Process of Letting Go of Someone

1. Malaya (Moira dela Torre) - the stage where you are acknowledging the other person that you're already letting go of them. But it is the stage where you're still hopeful that the person will come back, it is where you can't still fully accept the fact that they're leaving/letting go of them.

2. Saglit (Moira dela Torre) - at this stage, it's where the acceptance takes place. Accepting that nothing or no one is permanent. Accepting that the person that once made you happy and special is already gone. But still, you're thankful that it all happened even for a very short period of time.

3. Paalam (Moira dela Torre, Ben&Ben) - after accepting everything, this is the next stage where you are acknowledging your ownself that you're setting them free. That you are saying goodbye to everything. Saying goodbye to the pain, bitterness and unforgiveness and accepting the fact that "your choice to forgive and accept is not theirs but yours."

4. Patawad, Paalam (Moira dela Torre, I Belong to the Zoo) - the stage where you are forgiving the other person. Forgiving them for all of their mistakes, the pain, the failures. Forgiveness is the key to freedom.

5. Patawad (Moira dela Torre) - the final stage wherein you already let go of the person and everything. And now you only got yourself, this stage is about setting yourself free for all of the heaviness of the past. It is about your turn to have forgiveness to yourself. Even you acknowledged yourself that you already moved on, if you don't forgive yourself about your mistakes and regrets in the past, it still haunts you over and over again. Freedom and happiness is about forgiveness and acceptance of what happened and what has been done.

6. Paubaya (Moira dela Torre) - even though you have done everything, you already forgave everyone and yourself, accepted and embraced the pain, there are still a lot of questions unanswered. So at this stage, "Paubaya" refers to the thought wherein you just knew that the reason you two broke up is having a third party. That you are just the second best, the option, and the first but not the last. You also realized that, those things doesn't matter because the important thing is, you have done your part where you loved someone wholeheartedly without doubts and hesitations. And also, your questions are now answered so it doesn't haunt you anymore because it is your choice to "magpaubaya". It is your choice that you chose yourself to heal and to get up. And also, it is your chance to manage and fix yourself up.

To everyone who's reading this, there might be a lot of process for you to fully move on with the heavy baggages you carry on with your hearts. Although it is a long and hard process, you can still learn a lot of lessons along the way until your wounds can fully heal and someday, someone will fill up the void inside your heart. Take the time as it heals and fixes you piece by piece.

Sending you all virtual hugs🤗🤗🤗

[reymark]

I once listen to this song again, to absorb the pain I felt rn. We've been together for more than 1 year, been in good and rough days, it really pained me why he never invite me to know his family. I always asked kung kelan niya ako ipakilala sa family niya, but he always said na in the right time daw. I've waiting for too long pero he didn't mention anything about me to his family. I always thought na KINAKAHIYA niya ako, pero I stay waiting that someday I will finally meet his parents.

Subrang toxic na namin, to the extinct na nag karoon na ako ng panic attack, angry and trust issues. I really feel bad about myself.

While I'm writing this, I'm thinking of giving up, and I need to save myself from this toxic relationship. To J, I love but i need to free myself.


To someone reading this, pls know your WORTH.

[markjeromeagas]

“Ako ang nauna pero siya ang wakas.” hits me so bad, I realized that between you and the right person stands a line of wrong people. People will always leave you, but It doesn't mean it is your fault. pls always remember that the love you are giving away will eventually find its way back to you, in the most unexpected and magical ways possible. I’ll go with you, I promise that.

[antonioe.rigorjr.]

HERE’S TO ALL THE PAIN LEFT UNSAID

The song reminds us of the feeling of being unwanted. That we are being chased by beautiful stories, everyday. Like we are being deprived to experience a love being reciprocated.

What if, it worked out? Where are we now?
What if, it’s true? Where are we now?
What if, I did my best? Where are we now?
What if, it turned well? Where are we now?

We have this rhythmic being, that even without a valid reason, we feel like all songs are associated to someone, like it’s beautifully written for them. Let’s say sorry to ourselves for experiencing the depth of brokenness. Let’s say sorry to our souls either for caging it in a nowhere to find situation.

I don’t know, if where are we now. But here’s to the best person I will no longer have, I hope you know, You may not be my home anymore, but swear to God you will always and forever be familiar to me.

EPILOGUE (edited)
Nothing is ever painful than a heart left wondering why. Maybe, us was just a dream to good to be true.

Well, we have to accept that people change like seasons. That time flies fast and that you’re not always needed. That there are times to move forward and places to let go. We should be aware that some people can only be in your heart, not in your life.

I hope you know, this too shall pass. This day will leave. These tears will dry and the new day will bring hope a new.

Heads up, I wish you all the worlds happiness!

[drping]

I had a girlfriend, 3 years din kami. That time she was having her review for LET, i was there the whole time to support her. Pero halfway sa review, she had an affair, i knew because her close friend updates me, after her goodnights she would secretly meet up with the guy, when she says she wants to study alone (because i usually accompany her) kasama nya pala yung guy. One time i saw them together, she was happy, she was smiling, the same smile she had with me, narealize ko antagal ko na palang di nakikita yung smile na yun. It hurt like hell, di ko alam tumutulo na pala luha ko, i turned around and left. I couldn't bring myself to confront her, di ko sinabing alam ko lahat I was afraid of what might happen.

Then days later she wanted a cool off, she said na after her exam baka pwede pa naming ipagpatuloy. I knew it was the end of our story, I smiled, hugged her tight and said "OK, paningkamot sa review ha" (sikapan mo sa review). I knew that time na di ko na sya kayang pasayahin, I let her go without saying anything else, it was my last gift to her.

She passed the exam and 1year na yata sila ng guy. I'm happy for her.

Happy din ako, kasi if di yun nangyare i wouldn't meet my gf now. If may mawawala, then that means na may more suitable for you na darating🥰

[avariceseven]

Love the juxtaposition of a dog in this video. Unlike humans, grabe ang loyalty ng mga aso. Kahit sa mga owners na halos di man lang sila pinapakain, normally loyal parin mga aso. So, for it as her sole partner in her this video is a poignant touch to the song. Like, hinding hindi mo to maiisip kantahin for a dog, it’s like saying, mas mabuti pang aso nalang mahalin.

[jewellitta]

I had my first boyfriend back in 2009, we broke up after an 8 year relationship because we no longer understand each other, that I’ve change into this too nagging girlfriend. 2 months after the breakup, I found out I was pregnant. I didn’t tell him coz I don’t want him to come back because he have to, I want him to come back because he wants to...fast forward, 2 months BEFORE I gave birth he did came back, and that time we have grown and got matured for a relationship. And happy to share that we are now married for 3 years with 2 wonderful kids. He had and continuously been a great husband and the best father ❤️

I hope everyone who’s broken right now finds the strength to go on and look forward to the future, because your future is brighter than you prayed for, God might not have given us the easiest way to go there but HE will surely give you a version of happiness and love that is better and greater than you have imagined ❤️