Janani K. Jha - Machine Learning (Official Lyric Video)

"Machine Learning” is a song about social performance, about what happens when you construct so many different versions of yourself to please others that you lose sight of the "real" you. As someone who's struggled their entire life with social anxiety, I find I sometimes feel like a robot, constantly programming my behavior to maximize my social output and make other people happy -- even at the expense of my own feelings. Growing up being dubbed the "weird" kid left me with a deep fear of exclusion; "Machine Learning" is my attempt to chronicle what it was like to bury that "weirdness" for years before I grew the confidence to show my authentic self to the world.

It truly means the world to me that I get to be so vulnerable in my music with you. Thank you for everything. I hope you enjoy this ro-bop. :)

Stream "Machine Learning":

Video by: Janani K. Jha

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[Janani K. Jha used to go by the artist name J. Maya!]

[artemisfowltheincidentrepo]

this hit me right in the neurodivergence! 😂😅

[yeeeeeeeeee]

As a neurodivergent person, this literally describes my childhood exactly and it does it in such a beautiful way too?? This is one of my favourite songs ever now, thank you for sharing your talent with the world.

[elipeace]

I know this ain't about Autism or neurodivergence but you hit right in the bulls eye for it.
That... that's exactly how I feel about my social anxiety, my masking.
Masking is something normal for everyone... is just that for us, spicy brains, It takes so much that it can end up... Killing our true self and it can even end our life.
I still do it, but it got to a point where I was so depressed, so lost so empty...
I was in such a low point...
I'm still struggling... Masking can really be a deadly weapon for us...
I wish I could live... normally.

[luckyfluf]

I know most people probably have already said this. But this song just... SCREAMS neurodivergent. As someone with ADHD, I relate to this a lot. Having to hide this part of myself and act "normal", almost mechanical, while around other people. I know this song came out a while ago but... This is a certified neurodivergent anthem, in my opinion. Great job, J. Maya! 🥰

[onikasqueendom]

the CONCEPTS you come up with. the creativity in the lyricism, the visuals, the production, etc. i’m amazed.

[jennyrosesuelan]

As a software engineering student and someone who loves puns and word plays, this is Au!

PS. Not to mention I’m also a bookwork and everything about your music just resonates differently with me haha

[the-web-scraping-guy]

Don't tell me that breakpoint on line 241 is supposed to mean thats her breaking point. If it is that is amazing genius

[zzing]

Your creativity with the lyrics and lyric videos is out of the world! Thank you for being vulnerable and making these songs that're sadly too relatable...I hope you continue to grow in the industry! ❤

[qloshae]

I don't know why it took so long for me to find this song! <3 Speaks so hard to me, being on the spectrum.

[iceagle]

The representation of social expectations!! Love the

[gabrielwolffe]

...this logical exception
...can no longer ignore
my performance is flawless
yet I'm as alone as before
...If I stick with the program
I know I'll never be
more than a machine learning how to please.
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I have to be myself!
Like nobody else!
Or there's no "me" left to sell
/
Throw away the manual
It wasn't made for you
If you stick with the program
then you're no longer "you"
I know that I'm a robot
But now someone can see
That I'm not a machine that was made to please
/
I am a machine learning how to be me.
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: )

[hannahgrace]

I've had no wifi for four days and the first thing I see/listen to is this masterpiece....

[pal_val]

if anyone ever asks me why you are my favourite artist, I’ll just show them this video. all the details and creativity you put into your songs and the lyric videos… it’s incredible! you’re amazing! <3

[audrapeister]

I have never found a better way to describe being autistic...

[theresiathefirst]

Finally somebody put it into words, thanks Maya for this song, definetily adding to my fav and you'll find me here every night

[biggsg]

Just going down the J. Maya rabbit hole thanks to Survivor, and this is my favorite song I've heard thus far. The story of song is so gosh darn relatable, and you did a wonderful job expressing the melancholy of feeling like you're losing yourself to please others. Thank you for this powerful song. It spoke directly to my heart.

[nylon]

stare at them for too long
Laugh some, but not too much
And sing the words to that song
But only the chorus

If someone says they want you
Don't flinch, just let them touch
It doesn't really matter what you want

I know you wanna be yourself
Like everyone else
But you've always needed help

Memorize the manual
You're hopeless on your own
If you make it look natural
Then nobody will know

The story of the robot
Who knows they'll never be
More than a machine learning how to please

Make social calculations
Know when you're s'posed to cry
Fake real communication
Rehearse your scripted lines

Is living a performance?
Depends how it's defined
Forget that all your friends don't have to try

I know you wanna be yourself
Like everyone else
But that's not where you excel

Memorize the manual
You're hopeless on your own
If you make it look natural
Then nobody will know

The story of the robot
Who knows they'll never be
More than a machine learning how to please

Be just what they expected
Don't come as a surprise
They might take you for granted
That's just a part of life

If you stick with the program
Maybe one day you'll be
More than a machine learning how to please

I know you wanna be yourself
I know you wanna be yourself, like everyone else

If you stick with the program
Maybe one day you'll be
More than a machine learning how to please

Just memorize the manual
You're hopeless on your own
If you make it look natural
Then nobody will know

The story of the robot
Who had a secret dream
To be more than a machine, more than a machine

[JustaBookNerd]

i think we can all agree that she's a genius with lyrics! love this so much! i wish i could write lyrics like this XD, can't wait to hear your next masterpiece! :D

[romainsings]

Maya, I appreciate more and more your writing. I also relate a lot to your lyrics. I would love to write a book someday about how it feels to think of yourself as a machine constantly learning, adding formules, following manuals to fit in. I am so glad I found your song and thank you for writing about these subjects <3

[Pootatochips]

Wow! As a person who struggles to act like a normal human being, this hit too deepp. Never found a song that would relate to me this much 🤍🤍