Crusher - Would You Rather

A song I wrote in hopes of reminding myself that self-forgiveness and healing is a good thing.

CREDITS:
Lyrics/Composition/Singing: Cien Miller (Crusher)
Produced by/mix/mastered: Yoav Landau (The Living Tombstone)
Vocal tuning: Freddy Hoof (Fruutella)
Illustration: Ekkoberry
Video: Andrew Duemig

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LYRICS:
VERSE 1
I've been in between a rock and a hard place
I've been biting my tongue to save some face
I should be over this, but I'm not quite there yet
It'll take time and I'll be fine moving ahead

Not sure where I'm going, only time will tell us
The fear of never knowing finally bit the dust-/

I'd rather be my own best friend than my worst enemy
I'm one day closer to being who I wanna be

La de da de da de da deee
Mmmmmm
I know I know I know
who I'd rather be

VERSE 2

There are nights when I lay awake and restless
Wondering if letting go was for the best
It's scary then, it's scary now, as I move on
Rain ends the drought, the sun comes out, It won't be long

CHORUS
Oh would you rather be?
Oh would you rather be?
Oh would you rather be?
Your own best friend?
Oh would you rather be?
Oh would you rather be?
Oh would you rather be?
your own worst enemy?

Oh uwoh, oh uwoh oh
oh uwoh, uwoh oh

Oh uwoh, oh uwoh oh
oh uwoh, uwoh oh

Could we pause it for a sec
and put it into retrospect,
Everything that happened was for the best
I had my good intent,
but the dreams turned into dreamt
Where I was content
turned into resent

There was a point where I was convinced that suffering made it better
I've never been more wrong
When I hit rock bottom, it's difficult to remember
Why I had to write this song

CHORUS
Oh would you rather be?
Oh would you rather be?
Oh would you rather be?
Your own best friend?
Oh would you rather be?
Oh would you rather be?
Oh would you rather be?
Or your own worst enemy?

Oh would you rather be?
Oh would you rather be?
Oh would you rather be?
Your own best friend?
Oh would you rather be?
Oh would you rather be?
Oh would you rather be?
Or your own worst enemy?

Oh uwoh, oh uwoh oh,
oh uwoh, oh uwoh oh,

I'd rather be my own best friend than my worst enemy
I'm one day closer to being who I wanna be

[TheLivingTombstone]

Was a lot of fun to work on this song, 10/10, would produce again

[CrusherP]

HEY GUYS sorry it took me this long to add it to the description, but I'm the vocalist of this song. I didn't really tend to sing much until recently which is why it's been kind of confusing for some people, but YEAH IT'S DEFINITELY ME

[CrusherP]

Hey guys! Would You Rather is now available on Spotify! You can also find it online amazon music, itunes, etc but don't worry! The free download will remain in the description for good.

[mabelpines]

i was severely depressed when i heard this song for the first time and i absolutely hated it. im back for the first time in nearly a year.... after lots of medicine and therapy... depression had my mind under complete control. i was brainwashed by a horrible disease, and this song literally told me exactly what i needed to do to be healthy and i couldn't process it. i was so sick that i hated a gentle encouragement towards becoming happy. depression is an indescribably horrible disease. i fought it back and the was the hardest thing ive ever done. i cant believe what it did to me, i dont know why im crying typing this out, i cant believe how sick i used to be

[ItsCreepP]

queen of choosing who she would rather be

[DiafolEternal]

I'm nearly 30 and still using this to help anxiety attacks, Thank you.

[kushiiterushii]

Or Would you rather be?
Or Would you rather be?
Or would you rather be?
*A Fan Of Crusher-P?*

[syruptonin]

I love this so much. Great work on everything. So glad to finally hear the finished product. ♡♡♡ Keep it up, Cien.

[abigailrich]

My big sister introduced me to this song since elementary school, now i am a junior in highschool, I love this song and I miss my big sister because of suicide, I listen to this song and think of her.


Thank you Crusher-P, for my big sister to introduce this to me.

[gothgamergrill]

Four years ago, I came here, looking for a place to heal. Least, that's what I told myself. Only now do I truly understand the lyrics "there was a point where I thought the suffering made it better. I've never been more wrong"

Four years can seem like nothing, or like a lifetime. The latter was my experience.

Your songs have been there when I needed the dark, the light, the rebellious flare, and even the deepest heart aches to feel seen.

Thanks again, and stay safe out there everyone.

From: A random person on the internet.

[matteoglorioso]

This song showed up in my feed randomly today. I've been living with depression for the last 3 years, but this last month and a half have been extremely hard on my mental health. I spent almost everyday crying, isolating myself from the outside world and my friends, i even thought about being dead. I don't even know why, but when i saw this thumbnail i instinctively clicked it, and while listening to this song at first i felt nothing, but at the "would you rather be your own best friend or your worst enemy" i began tearing up, and after wiping my tears and looking myself in the mirror i managed to look at myself and for the first time in the last month i was able to genuinely smile.
I know this will be buried, but from the bottom of my heart, thanks for creating this song, and to anyone else struggling with depression, it may be hard, but don't give up.

[sophiefaulkner]

Move aside ECHO this is my new favorite Chrusher P song!

[Jurmicc]

this song actually helped me take that first step towards self-forgiveness. after a long argument about how i need to forgive myself, i hear this on spotify and it felt the universe was trying to tell me i was finally ready to take that first step towards healing. thank you for this song, Crusher-P.

[The-NorthBound]

I'm so glad crusher is rebounding from her hard times. I bet I can safely say that the community and I are so happy to see you back here doing what you love! This song gives me hope for the upcoming year! Best wishes crusher and happy new year!!

[kura]

自分用日本語訳です






I've been in between a rock and a hard place
私は2つの選択の間で板挟みになっている
I've been biting my tongue to save some face
私は面子を保つために口を閉ざしているの
I should be over this, but I'm not quite there yet

It'll take time and I'll be fine moving ahead
時間はかかるけれど、私は前に進んでいくよ

Not sure where I'm going, only time will tell us
どこに行くのかわからない、時間だけが教えてくれる
The fear of never knowing finally bit the dust
知らないことの恐怖によって､ついに倒れた
I'd rather be my own best friend than my worst enemy
最悪の敵よりも自分の親友になりたい
I'm one day closer to being who I wanna be
いつかなりたい自分に近づくよ

La de da de da de da deee

I know I knowI
私は知っている 私は知っている
I know Who I'd rather be
私は知っている 私はどちらになりたいの？

There are nights when I lay awake and restless
目覚めたけれど､落ち着けず横になった夜がある
Wondering if letting go was for the best It's scary then, it's scary now, as I move on
手放すのが最善だったのだと思うけれど､それは怖いよ
Rain ends the drought, the sun comes out, It won't be long


Oh would you rather be?
ああ､あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Your own best friend?
あなた自身の親友？

Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？　
Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Your own worst enemy?
あなた自身の最悪の敵？

Oh uwoh, oh uwoh oh
Oh uwoh, uwoh oh
Oh uwoh, oh uwoh oh
Oh uwoh, uwoh oh

Could we pause it for a sec
少し間をおいて
And put it into retrospect,
振り返ってみると
Everything that happened was for the best
起こったすべてが最高だった
I had my good intent,
私は善意を持っていた
But the dreams turned into dreamt
でも夢は夢に変わった
Where I was content Turned into resent
私が満足していた場所
There was a point where I was convinced that suffering made it better
苦しみがそれを良くしたと､確信した点があった
I've never been more wrong
私はこれまで以上に間違ったことはない
When I hit rock bottom, it's difficult to remember
暗礁に乗り上げた時のことを思い出せない
Why I had to write this song
なぜ私はこの曲を書かなければならなかったのか

Oh would you rather be?
ああ､あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Your own best friend?
あなた自身の親友？

Oh would you rather be?
ああ、あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Or your own worst enemy?
あなた自身の最悪の敵？

Oh would you rather be?
ああ､あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Your own best friend?
あなた自身の親友？

Oh would you rather be?
ああ､あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Oh would you rather be?
あなたはどちらになりたいの？
Or your own worst enemy?
あなた自身の最悪の敵？

Oh uwoh, oh uwoh oh,
Oh uwoh, oh uwoh oh,

I'd rather be my own best friend than my worst enemy
最悪の敵よりも自分の親友になりたい
I'm one day closer to being who I wanna be
いつかなりたい自分に近づくよ

[niboe]

This song is literally a pleasant surprise.

[cecrophia_]

I didn't even realise until now that in the reflection theres a reference to Echo?? This song is by far my favourite, and always help me get in a better mood.

[scarychewinggum]

this song is crushing me with the weight of how good it is

[nulllex]

It's... interesting, how fitting songs can be. I just finished talking to my ex's current partner and, it feels so refreshing to be honest. Self-hatred can fuck with your head, bad. And the love you have can become possessive and unhealthy.... But it's songs like this, about you holding your back.... That's when we're truelly ready to rely on the people we love, rather than depend on them. It is one hell of a journey and fears and pain and anxiety can take hold so easily A nice tune to brace our spirits and push forward, day by day, is what we need.

So, thank you for making this song. You're also a truly terrific singer and, here's hoping all of us can follow this song.

[TakoyakiDonuts]

Your voice is so beautiful Crusher, love the song!