White Lighters (What's the Difference?)

My new acoustic single, "White Lighters (What's the Difference?), from my upcoming... Album? EP? We'll figure that out together. Thank you all for the love and support this song has received, and for your patience with its release. I love you, stranger.

Lyrics:

When I was just a child I had so very much to say,
and by now I might've said my piece, but old habits don't just go away
and so I keep on singing - singing's all that makes much sense
in this world so full of vitriol, so void of recompense
Well I can't get too mad at this life I get to live,
but the older that I get the harder it gets to forgive
when they said I could be anything,
I chose to be a star;
they were right, I've shined my brightest,
but it seems I'm out too far to see

or maybe I'm an asteroid,
passing by for just a lucky few
a moment, a lonely view
then I'm back to drifting
Next time I pass a planet,
I'm not sure that I'll be missing

'Cause what's the difference if it's all just gonna end?
Anything to find my relevance, again
What's the difference if it all gets blown apart?
Maybe in the ashes, we all have a heart
but what's the difference by then?
What's the difference?

Carrying white lighters doesn't seem to be enough,
already missed my shot to join the 27 club
maybe I'm too prideful, probably I should be ashamed
to think I'd ever be remembered, like Amy Winehouse or Kurt Cobain
but I've heard so many people say my music saved their life,
and truly, I am grateful; I just wish it still saved mine
supposed I should be grateful it's already too late;
no one found my music until I was 28

Maybe I'm an asshole to not want to feel alone again,
but misery loves making friends
maybe I've conflated mediocre music with being underrated

What's the difference if the world's just gonna end?
Can't I find peace in my irrelevance again?
What's the difference if we blow it all apart?
Maybe in the ashes someone finds my art
and history remembers me as Avant Garde,
but what's the difference?
What's the difference?

[river_the_drake]

hey man, I'm coming from insta and just to let you know we NEED this on spotify or amazon music. beautiful lyrics and voice.

[erniybfsn]

“It’s already to late No one found my music until I was 28” gives me chills

[Blykester]

The snippet of this song was how i first found this artist. Listened to it on repeat and listened to his most recent album good stuff

[Cooleykde]

As a 28 year old artist, who cant decide if I should continue, I just thank you

[rangeJ-arts]

Sobbing. Crying. Screaming.
You are worth every step and breath you take and every word you say. What you go through isn’t any less important just because you aren’t alone. Stay safe and drink some water, you deserve it. ❤

[ChronicSkooma]

Sob story incoming.

at 16 i said that was it. I had a decade. 26 was the year id call it if i didn't make myself proud. Ive commented on your work before.

28 is a great year to get your footing, dude im 29. every day since my 26th birthday has been a win. I wont say "it gets better". its too empty. I will say thank you. Your music has been on repeat on my list since i found it a while ago. at time if writing there is 104(plus this one) views. You made it. 23.7k subs just on youtube. You made it. Your hopeful, topical, yet dramatic mid west emo style hit.
Just be fucking proud man. even if you stopped today ill tell my kids of a guy whose music helped me feel something i had grown jaded to.
i really mean that.

[icecamcake]

I can't even find the words to describe this song- which is ironic because the only thing that does come to mind is that it put a sound to the whirlwind of pain and fear I'm feeling right now. I hope you find half as much meaning in creating these songs as I find listening to them, because they've changed me into someone I think is better than the person I would've been without hearing them.

[napalm]

Coming from insta, please make more of this. It makes me feel like im sittin against a tree on top of a hill, looking off into the horizon watching a sunrise with beach waves lapping gently in the background. In short, its captivating.

[Ragdoll_xxviii]

I’ve been counting down the days until I commit, getting my affairs in order, writing the letters, selling my belongings and buying gifts for my family. I’m trying to find god but it doesn’t feel like he’s there. Hearing your song made me realize I need to stay. Maybe I can help people that feel like me. I’m trying, I won’t give up and neither should anyone. I love you all ❤

[lego]

I wish I had more friends that understand how beautiful this song is.. pure emotion

[le_lunte]

“or maybe I'm an asteroid,
passing by for just a lucky few”
This while seeing your recent videos not going as viral as this anymore hits hard

[VladickHelms]

maybe I'm too prideful, probably I should be ashamed
to think I'd ever be remembered, like Amy Winehouse or Kurt Cobain
but I've heard so many people say my music saved their life,
and truly, I am grateful; I just wish it still saved mine

This gives me chills. Even though the public may not recognize you, I will. And I know so many other people will too. Because I speak from the heart when I say that you did save my life. I'm in a dark place. But I feel better knowing that I'm not alone. You've been able to articulate my feelings like I never have. I've attempted 3 times, but you've convinced me to stop. To keep trying. So thank you. You've changed so many lives, and I hope that you eventually get the recognition that you deserve, because your music isn't mediocre, It's incredible. Your ability to touch my heart is something that I have never felt before. Best of luck to you.

[xavierthomas]

"the older I get the harder it gets to forgive" you have no idea how real that is. It's hard to forgive people that wrong you. I try but I'm too flawed to really do it. The anger over what they did is too much sometimes...what's the difference anyway if we all just live to die

[giftedproductions]

This is beautiful. I know to you this has likely already lost its meaning, as everything does with time, the more you practice it, the less emotion you assign to it until eventually you’re just queuing emotions and lyrics and all that. But regardless, this is meaningful. You may not believe it or not but this made me want to cry. It’s like… imagining a person singing this isolated in a space ship somewhere in the vast universe. Waiting for something that may not happen. Or maybe it will. You feel completely alone, but there are people who feel exactly how you feel. I feel it, that’s for sure. You managed to bring words to fears and thoughts so many people deal with, just by sharing your personal experience. That, in it of itself is beautiful.

[ethanhubert]

i need this on spotify, i need a whole album, i need multiple albums, a crazy drum breakdown once you get more into would be NUTS

[okami]

back, three weeks later.. this keeps resonating. thank you for verbalizing for us that do not know how to voice. lyrically, instrumentally, thank you.

[lego]

This song should be at the top of any rock/alt station. I will be requesting it here in omaha, nebraska! This song makes me feel so many emotions

[Zevonfan]

In August 2019, I finally had enough of a foothold in the local music scene to quit my day job & be a full time professional musician. I had finally achieved what 7 year old me thought was impossible. You can guess how my story ended.

As a retired musician, I feel this song in my bones. I cried some healing tears I didn’t realize I needed to get rid of. Thank you.

[quanzoboi]

I can’t really explain any of what this song makes me feel. It’s just I listen to it and can’t help but cry for reasons that I can’t even begin to articulate.

[magneviereins]

saw this on tiktok a couple months ago... keep going man this is real art