why i am alive 🪽

I hope you enjoyed my original single "why i am alive"

#whyiamalive #or3o #animatic
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I wrote this song back in 2018 and I was feeling extremely depressed. I never thought Id make it past 25. But here I am now 25 years old and finally happy. Thank you for those who stood by my side during my worst and I hope this can give hope to those who struggled with the same thing as me.

I love you
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Lyrics:

Sometimes i don’t want to try
I can’t seem to smile i can’t seem to cry
What is the point when I don't want to open my eyes
Sorry for feeling this way
A burden i know but what else can i say
I’d rather you leave me you know that you don’t have to stay

I want to give up
Let go of these chains
Please leave me in peace
And end this pain
But i cannot be
So selfish and flee
Because

I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pains gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand
What you all see in me
But you love me and I love you

I’ve had enough
I want to be done
The hurt in my heart
Cannot be healed
But i have to try
I can't say goodbye
Because

I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pains gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand
What you all see in me
But you love me and I love you
Maybe one day i'll love me too
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Credits:
Song by @OR3Omusic
Art by @SugarCub
Piano by @hyosanggg
Mixing/Mastering by @PlexsyMusic @OR3Omusic
Tuning by @tarastmichel @OR3Omusic
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[stellart]

”even if my pains gone, it only passes to you“ hits so hard. This thought is the reason I have been around through my darkest days

[just_a_random_student]

" I may hate myself but I still love you"
it is very worrying how this hits me so hard and that it's so relatable to me

[karagesenpai]

The mentality to suffer through every hurt and pain because you don't want to hurt the people you care about. The times you wish the world would just forget your existence so you could just die in peace. In the end, you may just find your own reason to stay.

This is such a relatable song.

[Svlfxy]

My best friend just recently committed suicide and this is literally has me crying on the floor of my bedroom, I really appreciate people talk about this subjects, and also as a person who attempted it hurts to feel this way, but this song just makes me feel seen and sad 😢

[justadog]

If u can’t live for yourself, live for those who love you until you learn how

[empathictitan]

Every time I see or3o’s stuff, i realize how much talent it takes to pull this off, with not only amazing songs and vocals, but also stunning visuals and gorgeous art that must’ve taken forever to make. This is amazing

[silliest_lozer]

" i may hate myself but i still love you "

that hits hard so badly, especially since thats super relatable.

[AUCreatoer]

"I may hate myself but I still love you." Is such a hard line omfg..

I hope things are now better for you <333

[weegiblook]

"i don't understand what you all see in me"
this was a weird line for my mind to point out but...
this is a message for anyone dealing with this, or anyone that's ever been in this place
"everyone is their own worst critic", right? i mean, i hardly ever know what i'm doing with my life, but i still try to do something with it
you are a beautiful human being in every sense of the word
just because you don't see how beautiful you are doesn't mean it's not true
and another thing: if you feel like a burden, you're probably not
the people around you are helping you because they care about you
as someone who genuinely enjoys helping other people, especially when they're in hard places like this, it's not a burden

[MR.R]

“If you can’t live for yourself, live for me”. A quote made by the most important person in my life.

[sinfulsansYTGOD]

I just wanted.
To thank you for all of your videos and songs that helped me get through some tough times like when my grandfather treated me terribly just because of my my preference for men instead of women he used to beat me, he made me not want to live a lot and I was thinking of ending myself but then I watch. Some of your animations and your songs and they help me a lot. Thank you so much.

[mokaichifei]

It's around 3 AM by the time I'm typing this comment, and my tears are just flowing at how beautiful this song is. I thought of leaving this world years before, but hearing your singing brought me back to the reason why I stopped each time. Thank you and your wonderful team for making this, it'll be my favorite song for a while <3

[occasional-dabbler]

"But i cannot be
So selfish and flee
Because

I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pains gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand
What you all see in me
But you love me and I love you"

...damn.
In my darkest period a few years ago, the thing that kept me here was the determination that I don't want to turn my wife into a widow, or my son fatherless. Take it from this old man (literally old enough to be your grandfather) : well said, well done. Keep up the good work.

[Bluuish_Skies]

First of all, congratulations on making it to 25, definitely a milestone! Happy birthday!! May all your wishes come true!!

What a powerful, emotional, and very beautiful song/single you’ve shared with us. Thank you. 💙

[Cohen-Tiger]

What a coincidence. I was feeling really depressed tonight.



I still am but with music now

[Creditcatt]

*reads description* congratulations you made it to 25 years old and I hope you’re doing better :)

[the_ultimate_lifeform-brvw]

I’m so sorry you felt that way. It sucks because I feel that way now but this helps.

[CreativeCats-qyyc]

Being the sister of someone with depression, this hit hard. I love my sister so much, and I hate to see her hurting.

[Enblissful]

tw: su*cide



i’ve been going through a really rough time recently, and having come very very close to committing su*cide last Monday. I’ve been holding back on listening to this song, though it’s always on my mind. Today, about a week after I almost committed su*cide, I decided to finally listen to it.

and, I resonate with it so much I started crying.

Thank you, OR30.

[Chez_Meister]

Way too relatable.

I've gone over this thought in my head at night, and it's currently the reason I'm typing this very comment.

I was pretty close to giving up recently.

Thank you, Or3o, for reminding me that when I'm gone, the one I love would hurt worse than I do now.

Even if it hurts, there are people in my life counting on me. I don't wanna let them down.

The dreadful chains holding you down and keeping you alive, may also be the hopeful string that they hold onto so that maybe when things get windy, you won't float away from them.

I hope this comment helps someone going through the same thing.