Introduction to HDF5 | Quincey Koziol, The HDF Group

Presented at the Argonne Training Program on Extreme-Scale Computing, Summer 2013.

[Crushed-xq]

A few simple words - just a few sentences spoken to communicate needs could have saved a lifetime of unspeakable pain, mental torture, unimaginable loneliness, guilt, staggering regret and a profoundly deep depression that I need to live with every single minute of every single day for the rest of my life. I do not deserve this. I'm paying my dues for a lifetime. So abruptly abandoned - like everyone else in my life always did. Completely left for dead. How beautiful it could have been. I had some serious issues (alexithymia, depression, NPD, sexually abused as a child) that should have been addressed while it was all going on if you cared enough to help. Not meant to be. It's not every day I have my beautiful mirror soul, my twin flame lay her body next to me and throw her body on top of mine, practically kick in doors to be next to me. 35+ years later I still need to be medicated because of the experience. I was a naive child. Inexperienced at loving someone, full of anger and frustration. I didn't even know I was allowed to lay a hand on you. Didn't even know I was allowed to be intimate. Discarded as a child, abused, alone until a certain fateful night. I was taught that loneliness = strength and that love is a weakness. I could not even comprehend someone was loving me. I have not been held, touched or made love with anyone in over 30 years. Every day, I pray to God for forgiveness for how I treated you and hope for a second chance with someone new. I'm a gentle old soul who does everything right now, for the wrong people. Thanks for the memories. I was the luckiest, most blessed man who ever lived. Who, for a short time had the greatest gift next to life itself - your incredible love. I am sorry I brutalized your tender little heart. I miss you.