I was pregnant and now i'm not (I had a miscarriage)

**THIS IS NOT A PREGNANCY ANNOUNCEMENT**

TW: miscarriage/pregnancy loss

You may have been a little life but you are definitely not a little loss 👼🏼🤍

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[iAlanahBelle]

Sweet Ella, like another woman on here said - your baby will always be your baby. And just know, 3 of 4 is the positive side of that statistic. Please don’t let this make you afraid going forward. You and Nick will have your rainbow baby and you will never seize to love your first little love and your first little life you created together. Sending so much love to you both. Alanah x

[RealityEscapeeItIsMe]

I'm so sorry, guys. A miscarriage is a pain and loss no one can understand unless they've gone through it. We lost 3 babies. One at 5 weeks, one at 9 weeks and one at 10 weeks. It's incredibly common but never spoken about. It's still so stigmatised.
My heart goes out to you both. Grieve, heal, and love each other xxx

[thecicidawn]

I am so so sorry Ella. Thank you for being bold enough to share your story and I pray for you and Nick as you two navigate through this grief.

[emakimberly]

I am so sorry for your loss Ella, thank you so much for sharing this with us and breaking the stigma around miscarriages. Your feelings are real and your baby was real and I hope you find comfort in that. God bless you and your family.

[tifneyc]

I’m praying for you. It is very very tough to get through & not a lot of people speak about pregnancy loss. I’m currently 24 weeks pregnant with my double rainbow baby & the pain from my previous losses never ceases. The farther along I get the more I think of them. I never forget. You can & will get through this. God will provide you a little bean in his timing & you’re gonna be so happy at the end. Stay strong, you’ve got this ❤

[yrbzl]

you should feel very proud of yourself for making this video and baring your soul for so many women to see ❤️ i hope your rainbow baby joins you soon Ella 🌈

[kittymama]

You are so right, it was the happiest time and then suddenly you feel you're at your lowest out of nowhere.. I feel lost for words and incredibly lonely.
I was 10 weeks this week. I was about to go get my next ultrasound and see their figures and toes.... I don't understand how I it just happened, everything was going great😢.

[cheyennebelhumeur]

I just came across this video on my feed so I haven’t seen any previous videos of yours. But I am so sorry you experienced this. I had a miscarriage at 16 weeks with my second son on 4/12/2023. It changed me drastically in the way I view pregnancy for myself & it’s only taken me now, over a year later, to be able to watch anything related to pregnancy loss. It was one of the worst, traumatic experiences I’ve lived through & I am sorry that you have to experience it too. As fresh as it seems, it does get easier. Not better. But easier. I am now almost 37 weeks with a babygirl. I wish you all the best love & healing ❤

[BusesTrainsandbubbletea]

This is so heartbreaking I am sending so much love to you and Nick. I can’t fathom how common this is. You are the 4th person I follow closely that has had a pregnancy loss/ miscarriage in the last week or so. 2 other women have had ectopic pregnancies and another who I actually went to primary school with also had a miscarriage. Thank you for sharing this and helping break the stigma.

[Hannah-jlkw]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. The world just ends around you. And the next time is immediate anxiety.

I had four miscarriages and it’s so isolating. This time last year I was having my third loss. I can only say take the time to focus on healing and there is no linear line of grief. It comes in waves.

[kellyamberx]

Being someone that struggled with infertility for 7 years I resonated deeply with this and balled my eyes at this video. But, I have just had our 2nd rainbow bubby (we have had several losses one as late at 20 weeks) that we found out about when we were travelling through Spain.

There is no words, actions or anything that will take away this pain. But also, please know there will be brighter days ahead 🌈

Sending you all our love ❤️

[SarndraIngersoll]

So sad for you guys it’s heartbreaking losing a pregnancy. You’re so brave to talk about it as it’s often not spoken about. I too lost a pregnancy so I do understand how your feeling. Take your time feel all the emotions as it will help with the healing process. xx

[Saammi]

I’m so sorry to hear this lovely.
In my experience when I had my loss between my two kids I felt numb also. It was one of the hardest things I ever had to get through. I had my eldest who was 18 months at the time so I think that helped me get through so much as I had my little blessing by my side.
The part I struggled with was trying again as I was so scared of experiencing loss again. So please allow yourself time to heal. It does take time but you’ll get there
I eventually felt comfortable in trying again and we thankfully fell with my rainbow boy who is now 8 months old

Thank you for sharing your journey. It’s really inspiring and encouraged me to just write this now and share mine.
Nick and yourself will make wonderful parents and I can’t wait to watch your journey when that day comes 🤎

[miward]

I’m so sorry, Ella. I had an early loss about a year after our daughter was born. And while that pregnancy was not a planned one, the loss of it rocked me (so much so that I avoided pregnancy as steadfastly as I could until very recently and our daughter is 3 now).

I’m so sorry you are having to experience this but you are not alone and we are all here to support you (both of you!).

[Mylenna]

I’m so sorry. We had years of infertility struggles and three miscarriages in between our two beautiful babies. They are now 16 and 21 . Be kind to yourself. I’m so glad you have so much support around you. A lot of people don’t understand how devastating pregnancy loss is. I felt like people expected us to “get over it” quickly and not talk about it. You are helping many by talking publicly about it. Much love ❤️

[tarasingleton]

Ella, I'm so, so sorry. Miscarriage is the most awful club that you don't know how large it is until you join. Thank you for talking about it- so many people suffer silently and don't know how to tell people what they are going through. Take the time you need to heal and grieve.

[simply.katarina]

So sorry Ella. So sad I can’t imagine. Your time will come, take your time to heal and be together🩷

[monicahardie]

I’m so sorry for your loss Ella and Nick. Grieving the loss of a baby is so fricken hard but you will both get through it. All you can do is take one day at a time. Sending hugs and strength your way 💕

[juliemclachlan]

Ella I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. It's heartbreaking. It's hard and you'll never forget it. Unfortunately it happens more than we realise. Thinking of you. Take care

[Coralie_Anne]

Oh Ella I'm so, so sorry!! This was an incredibly brave and raw video to post, you're incredible and I'm thinking of you and Nick ❤