Sarah Close - Did It Have To Be Her? (Lyric Video)

This song is so personal to me, and it is also so healing to no longer hold it as only mine. When I first experienced the things I sing about in this song, I was in complete denial and felt so much emotional pain I couldn’t talk about it. I put on this persona to everyone and to myself that I was fine, and only my absolute closest friends knew how far from okay I really was. I first met Kingdoms around this time and we wrote an awful song about something totally made up. Fast forward a few years and I’m in the studio with them again and now that I’ve processed what happened, i tell them what was actually going on for me at that time.

DIHTBH? was made soon after and I can’t thank them enough for helping me write about something that I was scared to approach so honestly in my music.
For a long time I’ve felt like I gave away my voice and power and let other people narrate my own story and experiences. I denied myself from feeling anger and kept quiet because I thought that was the right thing to do, and in doing so, I hurt myself so much.

it’s been scary to be so vulnerable on a scale like this, but if I have learnt anything over the last few years it’s that vulnerability and honesty in who we are, and who we have been is a beautiful healing thing.
This song is yours now, i hope it brings you something and if it does I would love to know what. There is nothing I love more than reading a message from one of you with a story of how a song of mine has intertwined with your own life.

Written by: me & kingdoms @wearekingdoms
Produced by: me & JMAC
Mixed by: JMAC
Mastered by: Redredpaw

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Lyrics:
First Verse - Em D Bm G
I left a present for you underneath your pillowcase
You went to New York and got me to check in on your place
Called me up every day, said that you're having a great time
Forgot to say, she was right there by your side
Now looking back I wasn't crazy when I asked if everything's okay

Pre Chorus - D Em D C
Can't you see the similarities?
Same brown hair just a different city
So convenient that we're the same
And she's even got my name

Chorus - Em D Bm G
Did you really have to go and break my heart with someone just like me?
Did you ever think of how you'd fuck me up with insecurity?
And i keep on trying but not a part of me is okay
If you're gonna tell me something
Tell me this
Did it have to be her?
Did it have to be her?

Second Verse - Em D Bm G
I can't escape the feeling that i'm just not good enough
Cause in two weeks you threw away four years of all my love
Now you're begging for me but you feel like a stranger
Every sorry doesn't change that you're a traitor
Wish I could put you in my body so you feel every pain I feel

Pre Chorus - D Em D C
Can't you see the similarities?
Same brown hair just a different city
So convenient that we're the same
And she's even got my name

Chorus - Em D Bm G
Did you really have to go and break my heart with someone just like me?
Did you ever think of how you'd fuck me up with insecurity?
And i keep on trying but not a part of me is okay
If you're gonna tell me something
Tell me this
Did it have to be her?

Middle 8 - D Em C
Did her touch make you feel like you ever did with mine?
Did the guilt eat you up or did you push it out your mind?
I guess you never had to worry about getting us confused
Cause if you called me by her name
I wouldn't have a clue

Chorus - Em D Bm G
Did you really have to go and break my heart with someone just like me?
Did you ever think of how you'd fuck me up with insecurity?
And i keep on trying but not a part of me is okay
If you're gonna tell me something
Tell me this
Did it have to be her?
Did it have to be her?

[jennypointner]

Have been following you for a long time but rarely comment, but something about this song touched me deeply. Your voice is so soothing and unique, and the song-writing is top notch. Sending lots of love your way ❤️❤️

[samsmith-]

This song is hits deep, hope you’re much better now than you were then

[moli]

I felt a pain like this and omg it is just awful. And all the things that make you feel not good enough or like you deserve nothing, all go away after a long time. I've felt miserable for 2 years. Recovering process is also really hard time period. But writing a song like this, creating a wonderful song from all you've been through, oh guys this is art 💚

[GuyPoker]

There’s no one like you in the whole world. Everything you been thru turned you to such a brave artist in such a young age. I follow you since I was in high school. Someone who is causing you pain it’s theirs to solve their issue, you’re an angel and I wish you much love and healing ❤

[wally]

Absolutely beautiful. I feel connected to this song like no other. The spoken word is perfect. 👏

[StephanieRZ]

Absolutely always have been such a beautiful musician & person overall, much love Sarah :’) ❤❤❤ lousy to have gone through experiences where people try to find lesser lookalikes.

[IHopegood]

It HAD to be in E Minor!??? The EMOTIONAL key!! The feelings!! You’re talented Sarah! You never disappoint

[asm]

I can’t listen to this song without crying. You’re so fucking talented Sarah! You deserve the world. I love you!!❤

[paigeswan]

I never knew you were so underrated 😭 this song is so good & deserves sm more attention. I’ve been listening to this song for a while, but it got stuck in my head today. Keep making music ❤ I hope one day you get the recognition you deserve ☺️

[bethcolton]

Not long since started listening to Sarah’s music! Im obsessed with her previous song Liars and now this! It’s Such a stunning song! Beautifully written and sung! ❤

[briang]

Nice One. I hope this gets a music video. It was a like from first listen.

[sofiamolano]

One of my ex cheated on me not with someone with my same name, but with my cousin in my own house. This song feels really personal even though it was not the same situation.

[darrentomlinson]

Beautiful Sarah, thank u so much for sharing. I hope releasing this song gave u that release u needed to let it all out. I hope life treats u well and best wishes. Take care and be kind to urself ❤.

[eltondelima]

it's weird to think this is true, it really could be fiction but the way you sing it... each word sounds coming from kind of all of the thoughts, a bit confused, as if the pieces are getting connected and making a bigger image that is hard to look, but also makes so much sense. I don't know, I'm just listening to it on repeat.
A part of me is a bit sorry for this because it is sad, but the other one is pleased for having that song lol

[frankwill]

This is so amazing, thank you for sharing your music & incredible voice with the world <3

[Nonprofitgenie]

Song has been on repeat since uploading!

[VortexBladesX]

When is
"A Little bit in love"
Scheduled to be released?

[markocanjuga]

This hit emotions I didn’t know i had😢

[rogerfield]

Remember the souls you reached on tour, you’re a strong person and a survivor with mountains of talent.

[sanibabie]

This is painful to listen to, because it so honest and raw.