the pain of recalling memories of an empty life (playlist)

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TIMESTAMPS / (author/s)

00:00 fading over time (scapes.)
03:16 snowfall (øneheart/reidenshi)
05:17 on something to which i won't admit (fading language)
07:50 time slows down (nowt)
11:07 broken air (exist strategy)
13:30 dear friend (repulsive)
17:05 what doesn't hold is bound to break (fading language)
23:09 let the sea take it away (nowt)
28:00 oktagon (ibi)
31:52 for a new meaning 'slowed' (nowt)
36:23 reverence (exist strategy)
39:17 i'll wait for you (exist strategy)
41:29 winter fingertips (monosleep)

[cbones]

For all those here in their late teens/early 20s thinking they've done nothing with their lives. We're still learning. We have such a ways to go. Our lives have just begun and just because you don't believe you've made a difference doesn't mean you haven't. You may have no idea how much you mean to someone else. At the very least.. all of you have made me realize I'm not alone in my own feelings.

[skrrrtisi]

Isnt weird how in the end we all just die and everything we ever owned, everything we ever knew, everything we ever said, experienced, felt, smelled, heard, everything just stays here. It doesn’t go with you. That first love you never told anyone about, that first kiss you never told anyone about, those little secrets you have never told a soul, they all just cease to exist with you. Life is so tragically beautiful it hurts. I’m so peacefully depressed.

[NedkaRokonokova]

Movies are cruel. They build us up with this illusion that "it's never too late." There comes a time when there is no time left, no second chance. Some of you who have posted are young and you're heavy with the weight of not even getting the first chance. Movies show us the sad get happy, the lonely find love. Love hurts the deepest. You crave it. You touch it once and its gone. You can't bring someone back from the grave. When you're old you can't let go of memories because there's nothing else to hold. There's the baby who grew up. There's the silent picture of a family no more. Life is a hard ass road to walk. But we walk. There's nothing else to do but take the next breath, the next step. For the young, there's tomorrow. Go outside and turn your face to the sun, eyes closed. Just feel it.

[larry]

I dont know how many "it is what it is" I have left in me man

[gen-z]

We didn't realize we were making memories, we were just having fun

- Winnie The Pooh

[Holden.Tudiks]

The darkest patch of night sky holds galaxies unseen just as a the soil beneath our feet is home to more bacteria than there are stars. Don’t discount times that you see as empty, there is always something

[nightcourtfaery]

I'm 27 years old and i still feel as helpless as 11 years old me, nothing changed i'm still looking at my reflection in the mirror and telling her it's going to be okay. Nothing changed except my features are getting older. I don't know how long i'm going to keep fighting, i don't even know what i'm fighting for. Everything seems meaningless to me.

[KatelynHotra]

you dont realize how alone you are until you sit back and look at all the people you've lost. it really feels like i have no one, i dont live near my family and i dont have friends anymore. its funny, my biggest fear was always being alone and now that i am i dont know what to do with myself. i dont know how to make friends or be social and it hurts to know that i may have already lost the best and only friends of my life. someday i hope I'll be able to overcome this, but for now I can sit in the comfort of my room in the middle of the night listening to this music and reading everyone elses comments knowing that im not the only one struggling. stay strong everyone, we can get through this.

[apollo-hmhk]

the worst part is not remembering the memories in your life until someone recalls a memory and it all comes back, the memories flooding all at once.

[inner_chaos]

I'm gonna be 22 this year... I feel like nothing has really changed since I was around 13. It feels like a one very long day.
I still can't get over many things, can't let go, can't move on. I'm honestly suprised I've made this that far.

Edit. And now I am 22 heh

[jiiwonyang]

So young yet I already feel tired. Living the same day everyday and always trying to make sure everyone around me is happy. Sometimes I forget to even care about my own mental health. As I cry at this moment, my tears fall emptily from my eyes. I just want to rest for a while.

[gacharosaroyal]

It’s been a while since i have been crying like this. Yet i am somehow happy about it. I read through the stories of strangers and suddenly i don’t feel that alone anymore.

[bangtanin]

you know your at that stage of life where you feel nothing like you don’t know what the hell is wrong with you just a blank thought in your head like you can’t even cry to empty yourself that’s how I feel

[scarymonsters]

It doesn’t get easier you just become stronger

[nicofox]

At the time of writing this I am eighteen. As I'm lying awake here at three in the morning, I've come to relize the current state of my existence. My entire life I've been told again and again that I'm so "gifted" and that I "have so mutch potential", But over time I've come to the understanding that none of this is true. I feel as if I've wasted my whole life struggling to live up to the unreasonable expectations of others. I'm a tired, confused, anxios, perfectionist, mess. Ever since I graduated high school I've been lost, originally I thought that somehow graduating would make my life easier but now I feel as though it was the only thing I really had to keep me busy. The days blur together, It's like somehow the time I have alone is both infinite and nearing it's end simultaneously. I want to do more with my life, I do, but it's becoming increasingly difficult to pry myself out of bed each morning, I wish sometimes that I could lie here forever and silmply cease to exist. no pain, no loss, only blissfull internal silence. Thats the worst part of it all the noise. I'm not sure if it's HDHD like my friends suggest or just my overactive mind but I feel that I don't controll the flow of my own thoughts. All thoughts are muddled by the constant static of a million others all vying for attention. This has the unfortunate side effect of making any motivation i can muster a fleeting commodity. I want to be a voice actor, I know it's a bad choice of carreer for someone who can barely hold a normal conversation but all I want is to make others laugh. With that I'm on the verge of falling asleep so I'll make this last part quick

I understand that This entire comment will most likely seem unhinged or frantic to most, And that is primarily because it is. This is not so mutch a story of my life up until this point as it is the resalt of my writing down thoughts as they come and go. I hope you can gleam some understanding from my gargin and thank you for taking the time to read this.

[darragiraafet]

If you are feeling not okay, i just wanted to tell you that life sucks. Those who are happy are the ones who succeded the most in lying to themselves. Life sucks its just a fact. once life tests you with some real shit and once you see the real dark side of it, you can not unsee it so you cannot become happy again like once you were a child.

[romanticmelody]

I might be late on commenting on this video and maybe nobody will see this comment, but I come here every morning and afternoon because of my depression. This calming music helped me a lot. I just wanted to say thank you for letting me through my tough times. (Sorry about my grammar...)

[snowfox]

Most likely no one will notice this comment, but I come here every afternoon and evening. It helps me a lot with depression and my anxiety. I am nobody and I have no future. I am happy that even if my name will be forgotten before I even say it, I can at least be a part of this community. For me, this music is compassion and another world at the same time.

Edit: Thank you all so much for your kind comments. You gave me a lot of hope. I appreciate your help. Many of you have written that you have similar problems - to those who are struggling with it, but also to everyone else, I wish you the best of luck on your life's journey, healing and happiness. 💕

[THEMANMAN]

They didnt notice you were crying
They didn't notice you were sad
They didn’t notice you were tired
They didn’t notice you were alone
They didn’t notice how attentive you were
They didn’t notice how sweet you actually are...
They didn’t notice how you actually try to make others smile



They did notice you failing grades
They did notice your unattractive
They did notice the mean side of you
They did notice all your mistakes
They did notice all you flaws
They did notice that you weren’t good enough for them.



But you stayed strong
You kept going on
You never gave up on hope
You never let them take you down
And you know they wasn’t good enough for you
And that’s what make you stronger