Passing through (Vent?)(Animatic)(B-day)

Ah yes, being 20… I honestly didn’t think I’ll live that long, I guess a part of me always thinks that I won’t live past 18, so now I’m just sort of here :)

I guess this video is my way to go to therapy without actually going to one? All my doubts and fear going forward without a sense of direction is just crushing me, especially for an overthinker like meh :’)

Don’t know if I’ll make it, whatever that “it” means, but I’m glad I still have you guys around. It’s not that much of an end of the world, so let’s just not hope for the best but still fight for it! Thank you all again for the support! Love you guys ❤

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Song: Kaden MacKay - Passing Through (Can't the Future Just Wait)

[Ijustwannahavefun]

Alright! This is gonna be long but hear me out if you have time 👌

First! Thank you all so much for the comfort and wishes XD I got many in the comments, last night's stream, and in the discord server 😭 I'm very flattered, thank you all so much!

And second! I have read through most of the comments, and I can see a lot of people find this hit close to home 🥲

I know most people that commented before won't see this, but I just hope you guys know that no one knows what's going on 😂 the pandemic we all went through only let the time pass faster than ever, and the helplessness is strong. We are all in the fog not knowing what's ahead, not knowing if we are gonna make "it" in life, whatever that "it" meant for you.

But that doesn't make us alone and seeing this many people feel the same, I hope it reminds you that you are not lost, and you are not the odd one out!

And since I'm not going anywhere anytime soon, I'll be growing with you guys! Let us have some fun while trapped in the fog, focus on the present, and let the time pass through!!

[foxin]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ONE OF THE BEST ANIMATOR <33

[disneykid]

I definitely get this. I turned 18 this year, but I feel like everything after twelve has just been some sort of fever dream. It doesn't feel real. I never wanted to be any older than ten, and every birthday has been a nightmare since eleven. Time is the scariest frigging thing, and I don't know how to make it stop. With every year that passes by, I fall further and further behind. Everyone in my class graduated this year, but I failed. I failed my senior year and the school felt bad for me, so they made up a way for me to skate through some classes and graduate by Christmas next year. I don't think I'll ever get over how incredibly stupid that makes me feel. How can I ever do anything in life if I couldn't even pass high school without the principal bending some rules? How can I ever do anything in life if my mind is stuck at three years old? How can I ever do anything in life if I'm just not ready to grow up? What if I'm never ready? I don't want to grow up. I want to go back to when my body matched my brain. Back to when I was smart because I knew big words and when my sisters were always taking me places because they loved spending time with me. Back to when I wasn't a huge burden and a tremendous screw-up. I don't want to be stuck as the girl who disappointed everyone and never turned out to be anything but a problem. I'm just...not ready. I'm not even ready to be a teenager yet. How am I ever supposed to be an adult? How is that already what people expect me to be? I want this to be a fever dream that I'll wake up from soon. I need it to be, because I can't do it. I just can't. And I don't want to. I know I'm selfish, but I just...don't want to. I don't want to grow up or be an adult. I want to be a kid. I want to go home and see my Daddy again. I want to eat breakfast on the back porch and listen to the chickens wake up. I want to play Barbies with my little sister and get into fights over who has to be the boy. I don't want to get made fun of for not having my driver's license or a job yet. I don't want my sisters to tell me if I would try harder than maybe I'd be graduating before my five year old niece. I don't want to be such a screw-up. I just want to be a kid. I'm not ready to be an adult, and I don't think I ever will be. I just want to go home.

[logically-pastel]

I feel like you've animated exactly how I feel about this song as well as life. I'm about to turn 22 and I still feel like I'm in my teens

[samauld]

This genuinely healed something with in. I just want to take the time to thank you not many people talk about how becoming an adult is extremely scary and stressful.

[newleechonlife]

Happy birthday! I understand the stress around “wait it’s been a year and I haven’t matured”, even still as a young teen. Hope you enjoy adulthood though!

[yoontoons]

AH when you had that scene with the portfolio, that hit hard, I'm making mine and I feel so lost and worried what I gotta do and if I'm doing it right. I guess I gotta let time pass through and just do my best 🥺😭👏
Also happy birthday!! Hope you have a good birthday stress free and happy 😊✨💕

[CrazedCake]

Your content is always a pleasure to watch dude, happy bday 💛 The future is always a bit mad and unpredictable, but you've come so far and we're all super proud of you and the progress you've made!! c:

[momcult]

I feel this so hard, I was so busy just trying to survive through my teens that now that I'm 20 and in a better place I'm like Huh?". Lots of thoughts of "Have I wasted all my time" "Where do I go from here?" And "Will I ever be anything?". Luckily, I have people around me who are supportive of me and I'm working on being my own supporter as well. Here's to facing the future with extreme bravery bc that shit scares the hell out of me!! Wishing you all the best 💕

[Spooky_snaks]

The ending was so well done, you captured the feeling of feeling alone in moving forward because time is so unpredictable and comes so quickly. I'm sorry you're feeling so stressed out on your birthday, but I hope you're able to enjoy it as much as you can 💖

[Toibara]

Oh damn hitting close to home 🏃🏃🏃Happy birthday btw!! 🎉

[theriumblood]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! we all appreciate you and hope you know that if you ever need a break for whatever purpose(!) don't hesitate. you wont lose real fans ❤️

[ReyesDraws]

I'm only a few months younger than you and you've managed to capture my feelings with every passing year so well haha, especially the never living pass 18 thing, but you've made it!! And I have no doubt you'll continue onwards, stronger than ever, whatever path life takes you down, and the true fans will stick with you until the very end.

Happy Birthday, Funn, ❤️

[renegadevixen]

You've done so much, please don't push yourself we love you 💖

[bingustime]

Oh I felt this so hard in my early 20s AND as an artist that started late. For those who don’t know: there’s a huge pressure for visual artists to make something of themselves before the age of 25.

It’s like you have to rush and catch all these opportunities before they pass you by, and then it starts to feel like you’ve been rushing through life instead of enjoying it.

I can say this as someone who’s rapidly approaching 30 and has many friends in the same situation that are already over 30: you are allowed to slow down. You’re not going to miss-out on anything. The saying of “oh these are the best years of your life” is a completely untrue statement and I hate how it exists and puts so much pressure on older adolescents/early 20-year-olds.

You are a fantastic animator and artist and you have nothing to worry about. Happy birthday and have some fun! 💗💖💖🥳🥳

[chloevanwyk]

I always forget that we are nearly the same age, you're so talented. Older than me by a little, but I'll be 20 this year too. How are we going to cope? Well, if you keep doing art, I'll keep writing, and together we can make it I think.

[linz]

This hit me so hard. Ijistwannahavefunn you are a literal inspiration to me personally and idk if you will read this but to me eyes you are on a podium, you've gotten so far and you deserve the world <3
Happy birthday!

[gb_]

I'm still terrified of the future but there's nothing to do but move on and enjoy what's next
Happy birthday 🎉🎂 I hope you have many more

[Inky_Kuro]

I relate to this so much. I'm turning twenty this year, but I don't want to, I'm not ready for it. I really don't have a path to follow that I feel confident in.

I wish you the best of luck on any path you take, and a happy birthday. You're a wonderful animator and I adore with your Creepypasta animatics.

[vonnab]

It’s been two years since this was released still love your work happy late birthday