[TW] Top 10 Things To Do Before You Die (Censored)

TW: Suicidal Themes

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Lyrics:

Don't say goodbye to friends and family
Convince yourself that they'll forget
Don't write a note telling them why you're gone
'Cause that'll just make you upset

Give all your money to some charity
Pretend like you're worth less than that
And after you've thrown all of your possessions
It's time to come up with a plan

I've tried so many times
But I can't do anything right
Maybe there is an easier way
I'll go search up a guide online

I have to make sure I go through with it
Because the last time, I was fined
Since I can't find anything that's worth trying
I guess I'll live another while

(Instrumental)

It's time again to try out therapy
Even if last time didn't help
Although the insurance that I pay yearly
It doesn't cover mental health

I've tried so many times
But I can't do anything right
Maybe there is an easier way
I'll go search up a guide online

Maybe I'm way too good at living
'Cause after all, I'm still alive
The only search result that ends up showing
"Top 10 Things To Do Before You Die"

I'll give this list a few more tries
I guess I'll live another while

[coconut_x]

Suicidal themes are very tricky - YouTube doesn't always let it pass like nothing, but y'all probably already know this

[FolkoMagipaw]

You'd expect songs with suicidal themes would be dark and sad.

But it's even darker when it's so upbeat and light.

Just hits different..

[himaririnrin]

As a suicidal person, this hit me like a truck. "I can't find something worth trying, so i guess ill live another while" hit too close to home 😭😭 thank you for this masterpiece!!

[cloamker]

As stupid as this might sound, this song is very comforting to me. I used to not be in the best headspace, but this song (and circus hop being based around the same thing) essentially made me realize I wasn’t alone. They made me realize my feelings weren’t invalid. Mind you it wasn’t purely Yon’s songs that helped, but they certainly did comfort me when I was stressed.

[cabipapcbc]

It's a shame that it got deleted, I saw the previous version. It was very good!

[gambachunk]

So rap can talk all about abuse and drugs but this gets taken down. Damn.

[mehlover]

I feel like this is like how lots of people feel when they suffer depression or suicidal ideation. The despair is inside a happy beat. Especially the part about mental health not covering health insurance.

I really like this. Especially as dark humor, and being in that situation before.

[yathergame]

It's a shame that Youtube censure artists for this kind of subject. All my support Jon (PS : As always, I love your songs)

[appl]

1:09 man I was really not ready for how hard this hit me. My family has a history of severe depression, both my parents, my brother, and most of my extended family have been medicated for it. I had shown no signs of depression, but around 8 months ago it slammed into my mind like a truck. All of a sudden I found it extremely hard to get out of bed, or really even care about anything. Honestly I think the apathy is the only reason I’m alive today. If you put me on the side of a bridge, or put a gun in my hands, I don’t think I would have hesitated much, if at all. This song scared me when I saw it recommended to me back then. I don’t think that I really wanted to die back then, but I also just couldn’t see the point of living life out fully, especially with the (very) nihilistic view I had of climate change, and don’t even get me started on politics. I hate american politics with a passion. I feel like I’m constantly forced to support a bad option, or a less bad (but still not good) option. I was scared that this song would give even just one little push, and then I’d be gone. Thankfully I'm better now, I’ve been going to therapy for a while, and have a prescription, but I still sometimes struggle with caring about things. And that’s honestly not even a bad thing most times, you would not believe how helpful it is to just be able to look at a political argument or an attention grabbing article about something horrible that happened somewhere and then you just decide that you don't care. It helps me avoid so many spirals of back and forth pointless arguing and endless bad news articles.

Anyways sorry for the essay, I started writing and then words just kept coming out. I hope whoever has read this far has had a wonderful day, and that tomorrow will be even better.

[ahalfsesameseedbun]

You don't always have to be a strong cowboy. Sometimes, being an alive cowboy is good enough.

[GregKing-clgc]

I can understand why YouTube would jump the gun on this and force it to be censored but at least the Spotify version is untouched. It’s still an amazing song even if some parts feel awkward without lyrics and it still showcases Su!cide in a more relatable manner then most popular music, like a few other of your songs have which also end up being the ones that really hit hard. Truly amazing, keep up the god tier work m8

[ProbablyTheHappiestLoner]

HowTo:
"earn mental stability"
"be happy"
"earn enough money for rent"
"quit playing gacha games"
what 😭

[neptunyy]

2:26 has a SINGLE frame where the search result still says "how to kill yourself" <3, thought it was funny

[dippingout]

I woke up this morning and was genuinely upset and terrified I couldn't find the original I had saved to my everyday playlist, so relieved! still love ya song tho! Even if you had to censor it it's still good!

[frostwolfnoku]

I saw people complaining about this song despite the fact they ignored trigger warning and it just made me salty.

[zeemdotexe]

It feels wrong focusing on the video editing here, but it's genuinely so well done.

[Studimus]

honestly i dont get all the hate on this, this is literally my brain whenever i get depressed, its a great representation of how you try to trick yourself into thinking its "the right thing to do" and how every "online guide" and just the internet's "help" is always just like this.


Edit: also here’s a little help with therapy, for me I kinda just had a panic attack and spilled out everything about me, and then they just had a bunch of little solutions and it really helped, gl guys!

[Test-tumb]

There is something darkly hilarious about someone being such a failure that they can't even kill themselves correctly and being forced to live because of it.

[용박이]

‘I tried so many times, But I can’t do anything right’
Damn I can truely understand..

[deemayday]

This song was actually pretty clever. I'm impressed. It's hard to find so well thought-out poetry and concept online these days.