The way I wanted ( demo )

I said,
He should rather be dead
Than to live in my head
I've got a problem with my mind
Nowhere to stay
I've got nowhere to go
And at least I didn't know
Him-

Who he was
Or who he will be
I don't feel any sympathy
For him
For me
I can't trust him
The way I wanted
The way I wanted
The way I wanted it...