the masculine urge to slowly bleed out in the snow

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00:00 arrival in eden - caught in a dream (slowed + reverb)

08:07 dxpelouis - missing

10:28 mrnotyet - do it all over again

13:03 l0ws - nebula

15:25 dxpelouis - spring

18:21 gigi masin - calm me (intro loop) (instrumental + very slowed)

22:59 nowt - insomniac

24:42 hydrex - cold

29:23 o2n - your eyes

33:26 psyike - i miss my past

35:41 lackmagic - dreamtrouble

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all rights to the original owners, i don't own any music or images used in this video, except for 'nowt' music

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#snow

[Dede_]

I had a ski incident were I cut myself around the knee. My friend went away to seek help and I was left alone. It was very peaceful to be laying down in the snow. I had no pain but the knee was slowly bleeding, red marks on the white snow, wind blowing around. Alone and peaceful. The wound was not life threatening.
This will remain engraved in my memory.

[angelic-ace]

The masculine urge to slowly bleed out into the snow and the feminine to drown in a river surrounded by flowers is one and the same

[morrison]

Finding comfort in loneliness is a good feeling, actually

[shymcqb]

At some stage of death from hypothermia, you feel incredibly comfortable, as if you were in a warm bed. Do not give in to it.

[seoksatan]

This. To lay there in the cold with a soft cushion of snow underneath me, red slowly staining the blinding white. It is softly snowing. My eyelashes, my hair, my body is slowly getting covered by it. There is no pain, just numbness. I stare up at the sky, watching the snowflakes fall, mesmerized. I think of everything that could have been and now never will.

There is a deep sadness that makes my chest ache. I’ll never see my family again. Or my friends. Or those I care about. I won’t ever hear the sounds of my dog barking happily as I come home from a long day at work. I will never hear my mother’s voice or her laughter as we gather around as a family. I’ll never go home again.

But there is also relief. Relief that it is finally over. I just have to bear it just a bit longer and close my eyes, to let either the cold or the blood loss take me. It is quiet. The snow drowns out everything around me. I feel at peace despite the tears slipping from eyes and freezing to my skin before they reach my hair. I can no longer feel my toes or fingers, and it takes just a bit more effort to breathe but despite it all, I keep my eyes on the sky.

The snow covers me in her gentle embrace, and I sink into it.

[Elmaddizzy]

My jaw hit the ground when I read that title. I didn't know others felt like that.

[fewpew]

The masculine urge to continue standing after suffering a lethal injury as if nothing happened before suddenly collapsing

[Maloswen]

I'd love to drop everything I have to do one day and just, walk around my city at night during a snowstorm. No care in the world, no intent to return to that miserable life, just listening to the snow falling from the sky. The amount of peace I'd be at I feel would heal all the bs I've had to endure for years now.

But alas, I am trapped.

Edit: To those in the comments saying, "you aren't trapped." Or whatever, you're right. Literally speaking, I am not. However, everything requires money and that is a luxury I do not have right now. On the plus side of things, I did take some of your advice and am stacking away money each check to move to Alaska next year, wish me luck. I'm not backing down.

[StinkySeaGoat]

When blood mixes with the snow, it creates a mist. Some natives believe that this is the soul escaping the body and I very much agree

[lxnam]

I've been following nobody for a couple years now, and in the strangest way, though I know nothing about them as a person (except that they're a really good painter), I am so thankful they exist and make such incredible playlists. They are one of the few channels that is always consistent and cohesive; you can tell they have a very specific feeling they want us to feel, and so often the beauty is in the subtlety of the art and music. I'm an english major and write all the time, and without fail everytime I end up listening to one of these videos and creating something beautiful. Thank you nobody, honestly you've created such a well-meaning, genuine community through your videos, I always love reading the comments and the poems people come up with. You're lovely ♥

[BrokieStudent]

"Life is like a lonely road—long and exhausting, but every step brings you closer to something worth the journey."


- some depressed guy at 4 am

[kayleejones]

Yes the urge to slowly bleed out on unblemished snow is strong. Seeing your own blood as you lie there slowly get bigger and bigger in the cold of the snow, not having to worry about anything anymore, no more deadlines, no more work, no more school, no more anything, just lying there and being enveloped by what seems so serene.
The reality is that the serene doesn't last as long as you think it will and by that point you will realize it's too late to go back, so then as you breathe your last you wish that you bore life a little longer...

Thanks for a great playlist nobody

[hervugh]

when the word "the masculine urge to slowly bleed out in the snow" pops up on my homepage i genuinely backflips to alaska in under 5 second because that is unbelieveably accurate

[milkak]

I mean not a guy here but when I had really bad days I'd go out into fields behind the village and just lay down in the snow for a while... Makes you forget all your troubles for a while

[icyroads]

This looks like a nice place to lay in the snow and feel the life slowly flow out of you.

[jacksquatt]

I feel like there needs to be a word for the act of taking a single intensely emotional moment from a movie or book and stretching it out to just savor it.

[jcrocky]

“It’s better to burn out than to fade away”

[ExtraordinaryFate]

This is going to be weird to say, but I’ve grown alongside your playlists in the last few years. I was in a very dark place back in 2020-2023, but I’ve since broke out of it and gotten back to a semi-normal life. I’m still behind though, feels like time was just frozen for those years and I’m trying to figure out my place in the world again. But your playlists make me think back on those days, and how lucky I am to have come out as a better person. Thank you, nobody.

[theswishest]

I used to live in an old forest surrounded by farm lands out in the sticks of northern Illinois, and this would, in fact, be heavenly, especially if it was below freezing. Whenever I was a little kid, I would lay on the ice in my parent's driveway when it was below freezing, and I tell you what: when the wind is still, there's nothing like that silence. It's so peaceful, nothing like I've ever experienced before. I always love it when it's below freezing.

[ethanschannel]

This truly hits different. I’m a social outcast; never fitting in anywhere. I’m always alone, with no hopes of finding a real friend, and I’ll definitely never find love either. My “friends” don’t even care, they just say hi and maybe do some small talk, but then throw me away when they see the friends they actually do care about.

It hurts, but I’m slowly learning to accept the pain. Maybe I am just a weirdo. Maybe I am meant to be like this. Hopefully… in the next life, things will be different…